u/Brutish_Short

It's very bad and in fact just happened.

I just inhaled two 150g packs of crisps and a cookie in seconds. I'm actually so shocked how quick it's gone. It was like I went into autopilot.

I work as a Software Developer - not a good one. For people who don't know, when there is an urgent problem with the application you are expected to find the issue/troubleshoot/speak to users. I have severe social anxiety and these incidents stress me out to a very high level.

I've tried different things to shake off the stress in the moment. Cardio, cold water, meditation but nothing works in the way binge eating does. Gym and martial arts help but not in the moment (I can't leave my job to go to the gym).

And then afterwards I despise myself for ruining all my health progress. The hate for myself is overwhelming.

This isn't the right job for me but unfortunately I never found one in the many jobs and careers I've had that didn't cause me extreme stress and I feel quite tired of looking and changing again now.

Work is a very very bad trigger for me and has been for over a decade.

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u/Brutish_Short — 16 days ago