r/BingeEatingDisorder

hi all, I have been struggling with binge eating for about almost 2 years now. I am 18. I literally feel like the shas taken over my life, and I don't know what to do anymore. I have reached out to so many people for help, counselors, ed therapists, my parents, but I feel like no one can help me. I know this is something that I have to do on my own and get through, but I don't know how to change. I start a tracker, and the most I can get is 3 days in a row, and then I spiral. into am in college and don't have time for this. the times I get 3 days in a row is when I am very busy studying. but sometimes that works and sometime it makes it worse. I just don't know what to do anymore. my therapist and everyone say that all of this stems from my need to be perfect and give eveyrthing 100%. I used to be an athlete but stopped bc of college,. I feel like once I make a little mistake, the whole day just goes to waste and becomes a binge spree.

it has started to become binge and p0rging because I feel so guilty. I just want to be normal and not have this consume my life. I often have to miss plans because I have just bninged and feel so gross. please I just want change and permanent change. on the days when I get 3 days in a row I feel so good about myself and accomplished, but then I mess up and I just feel awful and like a failure.

I have done some research and a lot of people say that ADHD meds have worked for them to cut out the food noise. does anyone know if this works, and how to obtain them? I ma

Hi folks

Looking for some advice, I am a 43 year old Dad of 3 and am struggling with binge eating. I am 5 foot 7 and 24 stone weight or roughly 150kg. I have high blood pressure, type 2 diabetes and am waiting for adhd assessment. Im also on public waiting list for gastric bypass surgery.

I suffer terribly with anxiety and body shame.

I find myself secretly eating and stockpiling sweets and crap food for late at night when everyone is asleep.

I didnt even know binge eating was a thing and Im just so down in myself.

Am I alone or does this reonate with others here?

Im Irish and tbh the mental health services here are absolutely shocking.

ive also heard that called a "low dopamine" diet. i want food to be boring and unstimulating to help fight the urge to binge the minute i start eating anything. any recommendations?

needs to be:
- plant-based / pescatarian
- low effort
- prioritize fiber, protein, whole foods and high volume
- 300-400 cals for meals
- triggers / need to stay away from: sugar and sweet treats, cheesy / creamy foods

i look at my past (anorexic, 13yo🤦🏼‍♀️) self and i’m thinkin “wow she was so cool! she had so much control!” (better yet she could get away with it, because no one cares if a fat girl st@rves herself am i right heheh)

like, it’s so embarrassin to go from controlled, to a hungry grievin mess! really does numbers to your self esteem, and makes you crave the past, even if it was shit! like why is anorexia NOSTALGIC? plus, in my little immature child brain, im also embarrassed that i was too big to ever get the chance to be considered underweight!

i make fun of my 2024 self for bein such a crybaby over food but i’m not that different from her now. i still wanna die over food. it’s too much for me. :( this journey is consumin my teen years and makin them SUCK!!!!

*i apologize for bein so redundant in this subreddit. but i got no one else to talk to :( *

You are the only one that know what Im going through and know the first people I tell that I have bed. BUT I always fall back and binge on the weekends but this weekend I had icecream in the freezer, chips and candy in my cabinet and I ate it but I didn't binge!!! I ate a normal ratio of sweets and didn't feel the urge to binge them. I'm so proud of my progress and don't even know how I got this far but I'm so proud of myself!!

I recently realized that whenever there is a fluctuation on my mood I need to follow it up with food. Happy? Eat. Sad, Eat. Stressed? Tired? Anxious about something? In a hurry? With a lot of time on my hands? Everything is a great excuse to eat in my head. And when I say eat I mean eat everything in the house. There have been times that I have made my self sick from eating so much. The other day I went out with my husband and he had some food leftover, I didnt even like the food that he ordered but I just had to eat it. I have tried meal prepping, I have tried making healthy snacks or even buying trigger foods in small snack packets so I don’t end up eating like a huge bag of chips. I also tried drinking water and most advice there is out there but nothing seems to distract me from the urge to eat. I need to find a way to control this. Any tips are welcome

hi. I am a 19 yr old 5’6 female and I’ve been eating 1813 calories a day (my deficit) for the past month and last week, I weighed in at 121.4 pounds. I’ve been pretty consistent but the past three days, I fully let loose and emotionally ate 21,340 calories over my deficit (not exaggerating). I used to have a bad binge eating disorder and now here and there I have a few hiccups but usually over the next days I make slight cut backs and move more to stay in my deficit. But now that I’ve overate this much, I don’t know what to do. what is my body going to do with such a huge surplus of calories? I want to stay in my deficit, but I don’t know how much I should cut back by or how long it would Take. Is there a way to know how much I’ve set myself back by? Already, I feel less bloated than I did yesterday but I’m scared for how much damage I’ve done. I do hot yoga sculpt for an hour every day so I’m not sure if that helps my case but I was wondering if anyone knows what I should do

I honestly just need to get this out because I’m so frustrated and emotional right now.
Yesterday I binged, and then today I did it again. And the worst part is that when I binge on things I have at home, it’s actually so awful because it’s not even enjoyable. I’m literally bingeing on ingredients at this point. It’s not even food I particularly want or enjoy. It’s just whatever is there.
Today I made cookies, ate half a block of butter, finished crisps, ate loads of bars, and honestly I don’t even know what else. Like, what is wrong with me? I don’t even want to be doing this. It’s not even satisfying. I just end up feeling disgustingly full, bloated, uncomfortable and so disappointed in myself.
And I’m so tired of feeling like this.
Today I woke up at 8am. I had breakfast, made coffee, and genuinely tried to give the day a chance. I didn’t want to pressure myself into going to the gym because I thought maybe I could just have a chill day and be kind to myself. But then I started eating loads, and before I knew it, I’d binged again.
It’s now 5pm , and I’ve basically done nothing all day. I’m home alone while my mum is out shopping, my hair is greasy, I feel so bloated and fat, and I’m sitting here feeling absolutely awful about myself.
I didn’t even go into work today. That’s how much this is affecting me. And now I’m thinking about potentially skipping college because I feel so horrible. Like, why am I letting this take so much of my life away from me? I don’t want to miss out on things because of this.
And the thing is, I know I can have good days. Last week, I was doing so well. I was genuinely happy. I’d gone almost a week without bingeing, which might not sound like much to some people, but I’ve been bingeing around three times a week, so that felt huge for me. I was proud of myself. I felt like I was finally getting somewhere.
And then I binged again.
I know I can get back to that place, but it’s the fact that I have to keep getting back up that is exhausting me. Every time I binge, it feels like it takes a little piece of me with it. I spend so much time trying to recover from the last episode, feeling horrible about myself, trying to get back into a normal routine, trying to feel okay in my body again. And then it happens again, and I’m back here.
The first time, okay. The second time, sure, I’ll get back up. I’ll probably still say that the hundredth time. But I’ve been dealing with this fucking eating disorder for over three years now, and I’ve been trying to recover for a year. I genuinely can’t even count how many times I’ve gotten back up, tried again, got myself into a better place, and then somehow ended up back in the cycle.
It’s so exhausting. I don’t know how many more times I can pick myself up and tell myself to try again.
And I hate how much shame I feel around this. My mum even noticed today. I asked her to buy some snacks for my lunch next week, and she was just like, “Oh my gosh, you already finished the snacks we had? Like wow, you eat so much.” She didn’t say it exactly like that, but basically she noticed.
I don’t even know why that interaction affected me so much, but it did. I just felt so exposed. Imagine someone actually finding out what I’m struggling with. I feel so ashamed of it, and I hate that I feel that way because I know eating disorders aren’t something to be ashamed of, but I can’t help it.
I’m so tired of my body image issues, too. I’m tired of feeling bloated and uncomfortable in my own body. I’m tired of thinking about food so much. I’m tired of how much mental energy this takes from me. I just want to live a normal life without food and my body taking up so much space in my head.
And the worst part is that I don’t even enjoy the binges anymore. It’s not like I’m having this amazing experience and then regretting it afterwards. I’m literally eating random ingredients and snacks that I don’t even particularly want, getting painfully full, and feeling horrible afterwards. What is the point? I don’t even want to do it, so why does it keep happening?
I know I shouldn’t be thinking about it in terms of calories, but I get so angry knowing that I’ve eaten so many energy-dense foods when I wasn’t even enjoying myself. It just feels so pointless, and I hate that my brain keeps doing this.
I’m also so scared that this is just going to turn into another binge, and then another one, and another one. I know that’s probably my OCD talking, but I can’t help being scared of getting stuck in this cycle again.
I don’t want to spend tomorrow feeling awful about today. I don’t want to skip college because I’m embarrassed about my body or because I’m still mentally recovering from a binge. I don’t want to lose another day. I don’t want to keep doing this.
And I know that tomorrow can be a new day. I know I don’t have to restrict or compensate, and I know I can just carry on with my life. But honestly, sometimes I’m so exhausted that even the thought of trying again feels overwhelming.
I’m just so tired of this eating disorder. I’m tired of having to be strong about it. I’m tired of feeling hopeful and then feeling like I’ve let myself down. I’m tired of being so angry at myself when all I really want is to be okay.
I don’t really know what I’m looking for by posting this. I think I just needed to get it all out somewhere because I feel so alone with it sometimes, and I’m honestly so emotional right now.
If you’re going through something similar, if this is you today, then we’ve got this. I don’t really know how, and I’m not going to pretend I have some inspirational advice because I genuinely feel so defeated right now. But I don’t want to give up on myself, even when I’m exhausted from trying.
I just wish recovery didn’t feel like having to pick yourself up over and over again.
Anyway, I just needed to rant.

Hello, my psychiatrist is trying to prescribe a binge eating medication other than GLP-1 as my insurance will not pay for it and I do not meet the criteria with the BMI requirements.

Just wondering if anyone else can share their experience with other medications? I have yet to hear back from my doctor. Thank you.

I have no one to share this with but its been a week of not bingeing, I am happy. Been bingeing since January, I don't know what changed. I just eat three meals a day. Then I'm fine. I'm not thinking of food that much either.

I binged so much, my stomach hurts so bad. I feel like vomiting and going to the bathroom a lot and it hurts so bad. What can i do , why do i do this? I need helo urgent