u/chocomoonpie

hey guys. ive come and browsed a bit here, but its not a sub i can follow because seeing posts regularly can put me in a shame cycle :(

lately i have been binging so much and i feel so lost. my days off are filled with fast food and junk food, and when i work i try to do better by having a protein shake in the morning but then by lunch im eating fast food or i dont eat anything until after work and then it's fast food. i also have energy drinks at work, so i feel like on work days im putting my body through it.

i have no self control when it comes to snacks, especially sweets. and i have terrible health anxiety about getting diabetes so it sucks. if i have stuff like cookies or chips, ill eat the whole container or bag within a day or two. sometimes in one sitting. same with cereal. cereal is one of the worst ones because i can have 2-3 bowls in one sitting.

i game a lot at my pc when im not working so if i have stuff like candy or whatever on my desk ill eat it, and if im not eating it ill be thinking "oh in a little bit i can have this snack"

its so debilitating and i feel like no one takes me seriously. when i brought it up to my therapist about a year ago she just said that its because i was quitting weed and replacing that oral fixation with something else. but like... im still binging.

its terrible. i hate myself and how it makes me feel. if i wake up at night i have a snack and go back to bed. when i wake up i immediately order food or get coffee. i "treat" myself all the time for doing things like chores or appointments. i am always thinking about what ill get at the store or what ill cook.

i just want to get to a healthier place with food and i dont know what to do.

i have eaten healthy before and im not picky. i feel like im just addicted to fast food, snacks, and junk food at this point. as im writing this im literally thinking about doordashing myself snacks. like when will it end?

i feel like i cant have any of these trigger foods in my house but im afraid if i restrict too much ill fail. i dont know what to do.

any advice would be appreciated. please help :(

hi all.

support main looking to learn aurora. mid or adc. ive done a mix of both when playing with some other friends. adc feels a bit better to me so far.

est timezone. willing to discord but kinda shy so might take a bit to vc.

pls dont be toxic. im free all day today if anyone is avaliable to play! usually im on sat night, and all day sun/mon as those are my 2 days off. c:

hi. im actually real pls dont report me. i woke up to find my post deleted and it made me sad because i genuinely wanted to try to meet friends here. also someone shared it 17 times so i have no idea what thats about.

original post:

so basically im just trying to survive and build a life i can find peace in.

i work two jobs and am very busy. im kind of starting over, but kinda just building on who i already am, too.

im in this weird limbo state of wanting friends but also wanting to talk to nobody. im really busy and i know its hard to keep up with friends when you're basically sleeping, working, or catching up on errands when you arent at work.

i hope i can find friends who stay through the busyness. someone who understands i cant respond 24/7 and is ok with me coming and going. if thats you, lets chat.

when im not working i like playing video games (league of legends mostly, but i also really like cozy games or cleaning/organizing games. have \~500 hrs in 7days to die if thats your thing)

i cook and bake occasionally.

i have a dog and a cat.

i like to collect pokemon (my fav is shaymin)

i read sometimes but i wanna do it more.

my favorite cake is pineapple upside down cake.

idk what else to say, ive already yapped a lot. i hope i can find friends (preferably ones who actually read this long message ) open to using discord after chatting on reddit a bit.

:')

hi.

so basically im just trying to survive and build a life i can find peace in.

i work two jobs and am very busy. im kind of starting over, but kinda just building on who i already am, too.

im in this weird limbo state of wanting friends but also wanting to talk to nobody. im really busy and i know its hard to keep up with friends when you're basically sleeping, working, or catching up on errands when you arent at work.

i hope i can find friends who stay through the busyness. someone who understands i cant respond 24/7 and is ok with me coming and going. if thats you, lets chat.

when im not working i like playing video games (league of legends mostly, but i also really like cozy games or cleaning/organizing games. have ~500 hrs in 7days to die if thats your thing)

i cook and bake occasionally.

i have a dog and a cat.

i like to collect pokemon (my fav is shaymin)

i read sometimes but i wanna do it more.

my favorite cake is pineapple upside down cake.

idk what else to say, ive already yapped a lot. i hope i can find friends (preferably ones who actually read this long message ) open to using discord after chatting on reddit a bit.

:')