u/BtsJacksonWangGirl

Previously on "AIW?For ignoring the man who didn't get me BTS comeback tickets?"(The UPDATE).Go to part one to understand the whole story.

I deleted the original with my normal typing(As seen on the title text),but got bullied for it and cussed at. I much frankly don't wanna read hate comments. So let's try this again.

So reddit,I didn't think this would be a second part but unfortunately it is.For the purpose of putting locations at risk,I will be changing some things like locations!.

After a bad month of may,I was sad and anti-social so i avoided going outside for nearly a week,but today of all DAYS.(BTS on tour in my country.)I decided to go out to the mall around at night.Just to get some dairy queen ice-cream.

As a pick me up and cheer up abit.

My mom and my siblings came along with me to be safe.and cause the kids wanted ice cream as well.

So this is very important detail. My mom and my siblings went to the other side of the mall.and the one i went Too Is BIG. and DQ is around one of the three exits. I get my ice cream and walk down to the kpop store.Hoping to get a new BTS -And jackson wang poster for my room .

Even before i got there i felt like i was being watched.But ignored thinking it was nothing.

Note:The mall i went too was NOWHERE near my house,around the middle-center of my country. I hardy go there but that place had a bigger DQ. which meant more options.

I feel a person next to me but i didn't look at them and went on with my day.When i moved to the poster area so did the person.I wasn't getting a vibe till the person moved AGAIN when i did.I picked up my posters i was gonna buy. set them on the counter so the man upfront can scan them.And the person grabs my forearm and said"I'll get it for you."That voice brought me back too a painful memory.I shook his hand away and hurry away ,after i paid for my stuff as i ignored ramirez.

Mind you i haven't seen this man since ticket day,Which is MONTHS. Or had any contact with.

"I'll get you anything you want.Let me take you out to get something to eat . You must be hungry."He spoke again with a smile but creepy.He attempted to get me to look at him many times,And tried to touch me again. But i didn't let him.

Note :I did NOT go with him.

After he had the AUDACITY to say."Why aren't you looking at me?"As he laughed.I felt like he was mocking me or something,But i think he was trying to get on my nerves and get me to look at him.

At this point i just wanna leave, without breaking down or speaking up.I leave and he follows me .Half way into he gets all up in my space.

"Let's go to mcDonald's?wings?or a iced coffee?I'll get it for you"He said still smiling and laughing too,which i found strange. I managed to get away from him and found my mom,and siblings. I didn't say anything and went on about my night.

This happened last night.

I went out to aviod thinking about BTS being in my country on tour knowing,I was close to seeing them and try to get it off my mind.

He didn't even apologize to me or try for bailing last minute on ticket DAY.was it too much to ask...think of? Expect him to do?

There's my update reddit,I will keep you updated if anything.(Had to re-post cause i couldn't see in my page or BP and comments. hopefully i can this time )

Hope everyone is well, Stay safe,eat well,sleep well and have a great day !

I Write Down Some Of The Best Memories.

My Memories.

Rather If I Am Alone Or Spending Time With Loved Ones. If It Is A Small Moment I Find Healing,Or A Moment So Special I Don't Want To Forget.

Detail In Detail.

Writing Everything Before It Slips Away .

Before I Forget Everything.

That Is The Problem. Forgetting.

My Memory. My Brain. Is Like The Missing Piece's To A Puzzle You Can't Solve Without. It Feels Like Time Slips Away From You Like Quick Sand.

The Faster Your Mind Slips,The Faster They Soon Disappear.

All Before Darkness Hits.

Blank. Nothing. Emptiness.

I Don't Remember Most Of The Life I Lived.I Don't Fully Remember My Childhood Just The Parts That Ate Away What Was Suppose To Be "Childhood". I Been Told Things In My Life, I Don't Remember.

Age 5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16 And So On. From My Child Years To My Young Adulthood Life. It's Sad And Frustrating To Not Have Any Memory Of Most Of Your Life.But I Learned To Live With It The Best I Could.

I Live In A Body That I Don't Understand Yet.Even After Years Of Knowing Something Was Wrong With Me.

A Mind Of Lostness In A Thunderstorm.

I Can Feel Them.

My Memories Slipping Away.

I Can't Tell Which Ones, But I Know They Are Fading.

Mind, Thoughts, Memories, Time .It All Slips Away Like It Was Never There. Cause It Wasn't. It Was Never There If You Have No Idea It Was There To Begin With. In A Way You Lose Parts Of Yourself And It Makes You Crazy For Awhile.

To Have Pieces Of Your Life Lost Forever. To Have Them Be Said By Another Person,Or From Your Gallery That Was Once Yours. You Frown And Try To Think Hard ,Too Have Your Brain Jump Start . They Have A Memory Of A Time You Can't Remember Or Recall.

It Feels Like Your A Stranger.

A Stranger In Your Own Body.

A Stranger In Your Own Mind.

Places You Been Too, Aren't Familiar Like It Was Your Very First Time Being There . A Certain Year, Month And Day Described To You Was Lost Before Darkness Caved In.

People In Your Life You Knew,Close With,Family, Ex Lover, First Love,Even Your Best Friend's Are Strangers In Your Book. Almost Like Having Amnesia That Never Goes Away.

So I Started Writing My Memories Down.

I Look Back To Relive A Memory I Remember Sometimes. Most Times I Don't At All,But Glad To Look Back And Know I Can Put My Memories Somewhere. My Mind Stored In A Place I Can Revisit.

Before I Forget.

Before The Dark Hollowness Hits .

Safe Keeping Before Darkness.

-Moon.