PMDD sucks!
Hello!
I just need to vent and rant because I have absolutely no one that will support me.
To start, because of PMDD my boyfriend asked me to move out of his place (I’m not on the lease). I just quit my job because I wanted do UEA in the next few weeks, I was depending on him to help me out ok the day of my procedure but now that will have to probably be cancelled. He blamed me for having reproductive issues, for having PMDD. I got fired from my prior job because it was affecting my PMDD a lot and I made mistakes at work because of it and he blames me for that too. I am so lost because I literally don’t have any support systems anymore. When I found out I had PMDD and let people know most everyone walked away from me as if it was some infectious disease. Now I’m left here having to quickly figure all of this out and pivot. I’m just so tired of losing in every way. Theres no wins. I am terrified and I don’t know where or how to start. I have never felt so alone, judged and misunderstood. I don’t have enough money to move anywhere, my credit is shit, and I barely will get enough money on unemployment . *SIGH*. I am DEFEATED 😞
Honestly, I’ve been contemplating suicide a lot because all of this feels worthless. I’m fighting for nothing.