I need some help.
For these past 3 months I’ve been dealing with doubts, unbelief, and trying to escape it and faithfully return to the Lord. This week has been one of the hardest weeks of my life. I feel like I can’t control my own thoughts and I hate it.
First, is there anything I can do to get rid of these bad thoughts?
Second, how can I overcome my doubts?
This week has been really difficult for one reason. Fear. I’ve have for months at a time have had bad hallucinations. One of my biggest fears is fear of being left behind in the rapture or not being able to return to God in time. So already dealing with unbelief, having audio hallucinations, and being terrified of the rapture has really affected me. It’s ruining my sleep, and any noise I hear I get really scared. Some days I start shaking out of pure fear. I have to also have my noise canceling AirPods in while I sleep just because I’m so afraid of the noises.
What can I do about this?
Finally, I’ve been praying about all this. Listening to worship music. I’ve been reading Proverbs. I’ve successfully read my Bible for 16 days straight. That’s all. Thank you for reading this.