‘Laziness’ in eating
Hello friends, I’ve always had a weird relationship with food. I do like eating when it’s placed in front of me, or when I go out to eat. I love trying new foods when traveling. I don’t have aversions to food that I know of…
However. If food is not provided to me I do not eat. I can’t be fucked. I get home from work and go to bed, I get up and then go right to work. I’ll eat easy things just to get calories. Turkey sandwiches, cream cheese bagels, pop tarts, granola bars.
Sometimes though, even these easy foods will turn to ash in my mouth and it’s fight to swallow. I have no drive to eat, even if hungry. I’m hungry now, but I can’t be fucked to get up and even get the cheese sticks I keep downstairs. Eventually I’ll get up and go chug the 30g protein chobani yogurts I’ve been sustaining myself on for the past few days.
Sometimes I get overwhelmed with smells and i can’t eat. My friends in college would harass me because we’d get to the cafeteria and I just lose my appetite and not eat because it’s was buffet style and the smells where just too much.
It’s more than laziness. I just don’t care to eat. I’d rather drink my calories. I’ve spoken to doctors and psychiatrists about this, and they just kinda brush past it. Idk, I recently started developing terrible night sweats and my eating is the worst it’s ever been and I was researching and I ended up here. And idk. I wish I could find the drive to eat normally. But. I just don’t want to eat man.