School is so different now
Last year, I decided to go back to school and finish my bachelor's degree. I got into ASU Online and was so excited. I even got a wfh job and left my 3 year career because I thought it would make school work easier to conquer. I had no idea that ASU works in sessions. There are two 7.5 week sessions per semester. During each session, you take two classes. This just means that every course is accelerated, no slacking allowed. I was excited to start, and then I did. I was so overwhelmed, procrastinated everything to the last second, couldn't even get work done for my new job. An endless cycle started where I would sleep up to 15 hours a day, struggle to even get out of bed or off the couch, I couldn't keep up with chores, and then every Sunday when work was due I would panic and complete as much as possible while crying and having a mental breakdown sending me into a depression spiral. Repeat cycle starting on Monday morning. I was miserable and genuinely thought I couldn't succeed. This feeling and cycle was not unfamiliar.
Then I found this subreddit and realized I wasn't alone. I've been diagnosed with anxiety and depression for over a decade, but I never felt "fixed". I got a new psychiatrist and advocated for myself. Demanded ADHD testing and explained what I was struggling with. Who would've thought, I have ADHD. I came off of the insane dosage of SSRIs I was on and started Vyvanse and Wellbutrin. My life completely changed.
Last semester, I requested a compassionate withdrawal from one class, got a C in one, an A in another (somehow), and then a D in PreCal (which I know I'm amazing at). I ended the semester with a 1.5 GPA and thought my life was over. Started medication in January and ended the spring semester with 3 A+ grades as well as a B in PreCal (meds do not solve all procrastination habits lol). I was able to bring my cumulative GPA up to a 3.6. I saw my grades yesterday and cried. I can't believe I've been living life on extra hard mode for 28 years.
Anyway ladies, listen to yourself, advocate for yourself, and believe in yourself. It really does get better.