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Ok so I discovered the law in 2023. Since then I manifest an sp (ex) but not to come back in a relationship, just him simping for me and giving me money to maintain my lifestyle even after the breakup.

And then since 2024, my « real » sp, with several millions of followers on insta. Today I saw he’s going out of business for 2 years. Honestly, I can’t believe all these internals shifts, talking, thinking from the end, all this mental work (I come from so far you can’t imagine) just for this. I’m not living in my head for 2 more years. I feel devastated. Ppl talk about the RAS but it’s just noticing things, not making a celeb act like we know each other and he wants me. I know too well my DMs are empty. And please, don’t tell me to not acknowledge the 3D or taking validation from outside. I know all of this.

I start being old, growing some grey hair and I feel like I’m dying right here right now in my shitty life in the middle of nowhere with basically no social media presence / activity nor money to escape this place.

I feel exhausted, devastated and helpless. Apparently desires shouldn’t dictate our lives but THEY ARE. Any desire I really want would be life changing. I don’t care about seing another pink car or scooby van.

I don’t know who to talk to about that, I understand I am source but I am accumulating fails after fails even while affirming everything is going in my favor like a psycho. I really deal with bad thoughts for my whole life but with this new info abt my sp I am done, it’s too much.

Thank you for reading me, I dream of writing a success story, for real. It’s already done apparently

Combining codes YesStyle

Giving up on SPs