Just had a big cry. Trust me it works please don’t hold it in
So I had felt like shit all day. After 2 weeks of feeling calm and certain and having high self concept I started getting the doubts, anxiety, spiral. My nervous system was wavering all day. I felt like I was about to go backwards and even had my brain trying to override my new story with an even worse story.
I tried affirming all day. Nothing.
I tried EFT. Nothing
I tried doing things that I enjoy. Nothing
I tried seeing my friend. Nothing
Do you know what helped. Crying.
I had been trying to fight it saying if I cry I’m going back to the old story.
Do you know what crying does? It doesn’t mean you’ve ruined it. It’s the opposite. You are releasing the old identity. I cried for 10 whole minutes. I screamed into my pillow and you know what I feel so much better. I feel better than what I did in the last 2 weeks. The tears aren’t the new me going backwards, it’s the old me moving on. It’s the old me finally giving up but having no other way to leave my body.
So if anyone is feeling like how I’ve felt all day let it all out. It’s all still happening. It’s all happened! I know it’s happened I can feel it so much closer now! I know it’s scary and you feel like you have to be 100% 24/7 but the truth is you don’t have to be. It’s physically impossible to be like that. You’re a human being not an object. Release that old you so you can make room for the new you.❤️
Edit: Also remind yourself that if it feels too much today give yourself the rest of the day off. Obviously try your best to only think of positive things about SP but don’t try doing techniques all day to wash it away. You’ll only make yourself feel worse and doing so kills your desire. Give your brain and nervous system time to reboot itself.