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So I had felt like shit all day. After 2 weeks of feeling calm and certain and having high self concept I started getting the doubts, anxiety, spiral. My nervous system was wavering all day. I felt like I was about to go backwards and even had my brain trying to override my new story with an even worse story.

I tried affirming all day. Nothing.
I tried EFT. Nothing
I tried doing things that I enjoy. Nothing
I tried seeing my friend. Nothing

Do you know what helped. Crying.
I had been trying to fight it saying if I cry I’m going back to the old story.

Do you know what crying does? It doesn’t mean you’ve ruined it. It’s the opposite. You are releasing the old identity. I cried for 10 whole minutes. I screamed into my pillow and you know what I feel so much better. I feel better than what I did in the last 2 weeks. The tears aren’t the new me going backwards, it’s the old me moving on. It’s the old me finally giving up but having no other way to leave my body.

So if anyone is feeling like how I’ve felt all day let it all out. It’s all still happening. It’s all happened! I know it’s happened I can feel it so much closer now! I know it’s scary and you feel like you have to be 100% 24/7 but the truth is you don’t have to be. It’s physically impossible to be like that. You’re a human being not an object. Release that old you so you can make room for the new you.❤️

Edit: Also remind yourself that if it feels too much today give yourself the rest of the day off. Obviously try your best to only think of positive things about SP but don’t try doing techniques all day to wash it away. You’ll only make yourself feel worse and doing so kills your desire. Give your brain and nervous system time to reboot itself.

Holy shit I think the new story is coming to light sooner than I thought!

So 4 days ago I feel like I entered the sabbath state. I felt extremely calm and had that sense of knowing you get when you are in a relationship. Like I was waking up going about my day basically being there like “yeah we’re together.” I haven’t needed to affirm as much or really do any techniques. I do sometimes still do them but they’re mostly for self concept now. Like when I do SP ones it’s like once or twice a day at most.

Anyways since entering this calm state I’ve been seeing a lot of things that align and remind me of him. For example I saw 2 videos about people talking about his exact same ethnicity. Just randomly. I’ve been hearing songs constantly that remind me of him. I know a lot of people say a car brand is nothing but my god I swear Everytime I walk out and look at the road the first car that always passes is his exact car brand. Even sometimes the exact model and colour. A lot of angel numbers in one day (444). I even saw a tinder advert that was set in an arcade. The first ever place we went to on a date. AND we also met on tinder. Simply I never took these and got excited and jumped up. I simply nodded and said thank you in my head.

Anyways today I got 2 missed calls from him. He had rung me up then hung up, then tried to ring me again and hung up again. I didn’t chase I simply said “of course he’s ringing me he loves me” then simply went on with my day. He then rung me up again and this time I answered. He then told me that he had thought about me as he works as an emergency service dispatcher and got a call about an incident. While on the phone the caller mentioned he lived in the same town as me. There is no way this is a coincidence this is definitely the 3D catching up. He lives an hour and a half away from me so the chances of him being at work, and getting that call from a guy who lives in the exact same town as me. I truly think it’s closer than I think.

THIS IS REAL IM TELLING YOU! PERSIST AND STAY IN THE END!

Edit: I also got the sudden urge to clean my flat today. Like not just a simply clean I mean A DEEP CLEAN! Take it as you will!

So day 10 of manifesting my SP and I got a phone call yesterday from him. Very normal phone call casual. After 2 weeks of very little interaction and a whole 5 days of nothing from him at one point. The phone call made me realise that I need to lock in. We are soulmates. He’s who I want. I feel like I’ve fed my mind enough information to do this successfully now. I’m having to fight the anxiety everyday and I’m putting myself on that strict mental diet right here right now.

I’m deleting TikTok I’m seeing too many manifestation videos popping up so I need to step away from it, I’m completely wiping my entire YouTube history so not an inch of manifestation pops up, I’m logging out of Reddit until further notice!

This is my reality and I need to control the 3D! Next time I make a post I promise will be in my SP’s arms when my story comes to light!

I wish you all the best of luck in your journeys getting your SP’s back! Just know I am watching silently from afar and that you can do it!

❤️

Okay so I’m getting my SP back. 9 days now. Affirmations every morning, SC every afternoon, Affirmations and subliminal’s every night. Absolutely mental and horrible purging and anxiety yesterday

SP called today. After 2 weeks of very tiny little contact. Nothing relationship wise yet however I feel it coming. Just casual catching up. It’s close I feel it. He’s coming home soon.

Hi so I’ve been manifesting my SP for the last week now. Don’t get me wrong I’ve had my moments and wobbles! However I have told myself that I am worth it, loveable, and that anyone would be lucky to have me.

I won’t go into too much backstory with my SP as I have convinced myself that it hasn’t happened. It was a bad movie not the reality. I basically woke up at the start of the week and told myself that we are together, we are in a loving relationship and he adores me. I have been telling myself that every morning for 10 minutes. I’ve also been working on my SC and holy shit do I feel unbelievably sexy. I am so confident in myself. About 2 weeks ago I didn’t wanna leave the house. Now I’m out and about can’t stand being inside I want to go and see people.

As for my techniques. Every morning affirmations. 10-20 minutes. Afterwards listen to subliminal’s. I mostly listen to them while going on a walk or cleaning my place. In the afternoon do another affirmation in the mirror about myself and self confidence and listen to another subliminal. During the night I will do an affirmation for 10 minutes talking to a picture of him [SP loves me, loves only me and loves our committed relationship] [He’s obsessed with me] [He adores me] [He cherishes me] [He worships me]

I will then listen to a subliminal while falling asleep and imagine our wedding day…IN THE FIRST PERSON! Always in the first person.

I do not want people telling me that it’s a sign. There’s no such thing as signs in manifestation it comes when it’s ready. However I feel it coming. I feel calmer. I don’t feel the need to check if he’s texting me or checking up on me. I feel completely detached from him. Don’t get me wrong I miss him and do still want him back. However I can live my life for the first time since…that thing I am survivable without him. I’m at the top of the pedestal he needs to do what he needs to do to come join me at the top!

Edit: This is my first ever time trying to truly manifest something back! If you hear from me again you’ll know why

Hello

I am on week one with manifesting my sp back. It’s been incredibly hard as I will randomly get a thought that pops into my head thinking we’re not together anymore however I discipline myself and instead say that we are already together and that it’s not me wanting him he wants me. This is my first time doing it so I would love some advice on people who successfully manifested their SP back.

I’ll add some context to help give an idea of my situation currently

1. We were never officially boyfriends. We were seeing each other for a while however he ended it the night I thought he was going to ask me out (I believe I actually manifested him to do this as towards the end I kept thinking he was going to leave me, I’ve never had anyone like this it’s too good to be true, etc.)
2. I’ve been using subliminal’s and while listening to them getting into a calm state and imagining our entire future together as if we are already back together. I’ve imagined from the moment we get back together all the way to the moment I would consider “end game and the dream.”
3. I’ve been very disciplinary with myself. Telling myself Everytime I think of the break up or the past that it’s now in the bin, that it doesn’t exist never existed and that we are back together.
4. I have learned to love myself truly. I looked at myself in the mirror and told myself how gorgeous I am and how lucky any man would be to have me. I’ve also been very confident while going outside, completely changing the way I use to be.
5. Me and SP are still in contact. He messages me everyday usually a few times a day. My main question would be how do I message him back. Do I just leave it a few hours and then message like I don’t care or do I learn not to care.
6. I am having conversations with him like he is there. Just regular conversations like we are still together. Asking about his day and pretending we’re still having those deep emotional conversations.
7. He is so in love with me he wants me to come see him right now

Edit: (8) also when I get in a panic I will flip the script so it calms me down. For example I’ll be texting my friend and notice he hasn’t texted me for a while I will close my eyes calm down and say that “he hasn’t texted my back because he’s thinking of a warm and loving message to text me” or if I’m thinking there’s a 3P involved I say “he’s not interested in any other person but me”

Hi so I casted a reconciliation love spell and road opener spell on my ex situationship. I know a lot of people will judge and also ask why I would want a situationship back but honestly the guy wasn’t like any other talking stage. We were very close to getting together but our lives did instantly change towards the end of our relationship. He was getting incredibly stressed with work and wasn’t very well and I had just fount out about a terminal illness in the family. It just didn’t work out once we got to the stage of let’s be together.

However time has passed. We are still in contact with each other but it’s very much texting throughout the day and a few phone calls here and there. About a week ago I just got the sudden urge that I miss him and wished we could have us back. So I casted both spells. They came out beautifully and I was very happy with how it turned out. I had been thinking about the spell but mainly manifesting here and there the outcome rather than seeing signs of if it’s working.

A few days ago he kinda went radio silent on me. I was very confused on honestly a bit upset as I was thinking I had made the spell backfire and ruined it. However today he has been very communicative with me and has asked to meet in a couple of days time. I am speechless. We haven’t seen each other since the night it ended. Is this honestly just pure coincidence or is this signs my spell has honestly worked?

So I brought 2 spells the other day. It is to hopefully bring an ex situationship back. I know a lot of people are going to ask why I would want that back but to be truthfully honest the guy was really sweet and nice. We had a lot of chemistry and became deeply emotional very quickly. We had just met at the wrong time and had a lot of personal issues arise in our lives at the time. He never actually did anything wrong just could not commit to anything serious in that time of his life when he thought he was ready and had moved on. I do genuinely miss him a lot.

Anyways I was talking to a friend about it and how I was missing him and she recommended someone to me. She had told me that she also was in a similar situation to me and had reached out to this witch months after the split. Mind you their breakup was very messy. However she contacted the witch and she performed the spell and he came back and she is still with him to this day 3 years later. She also recommended her to another friend who also wanted an ex back and they got back together aswell. However she decided a year into the relationship she didn’t actually really love him that much so they split up.

So I contacted her and she asked for names, birth dates, a brief explanation of our situation and photos of us together. I gave her everything and she’s contacted me back with photos of both spells and how they went. She said while doing the reconciliation spell our flames were incredibly powerful and it had a lot of energy. She told me to not obsess over the spell and to live my life normally. Not to constantly check for any updates from him. Not to wait and see. She said the more I ponder and become impatient the less likely it is for the spell to work. I thanked her for her time and wished her a blessed evening.

I am wondering however if anyone has done any reconciliation spells how long they took for them? Before doing it I read a lot of it can take anywhere from a few days to a few months. And would I be seeing any signs before the spell takes full effect?

Edit: She did request wether I wanted to do a sweetening or attraction spell however I don’t want to play around with too many of them plus I don’t believe attraction was the core issue in the relationship we had.

Edit 2: I should also probably mention both spells. One was for reconciliation and love, the other was for ambushing and removing any negative energy in his life

Hey, I miss you more than anything in the world right now. Those 2 months we spent together were the happiest 2 months of my life. No 2 months will ever beat them. The day I met you I got my spark back for the first time in a long long time and the day we ended the spark went away. I haven’t been happy or been able to even hide it since we stopped talking. I’ve tried so hard to move on and see someone else but I can’t. All I see is you. I haven’t even been able to sleep with anyone since you left my life because it feels wrong to me. I wish it could have been different.

P.S. I still have that postcard you sent me when you went on holiday. I constantly am looking at it not one single time do I not cry when reading it.

Hello I will give context please bare with.

I met this guy around March of this year and honestly he was everything I’ve ever looked for in a guy. I was instantly hooked by him and he genuinely did like me back. We moved very quickly I slept round his place for 3 nights by our second meet up. We kept this up for about a month until he told me a month later that he had low self esteem issues and couldn’t commit to a relationship with me as it wouldn’t work out. This broke my fucking heart and for about 2 weeks I had to accept that he wasn’t going to be with me. We still stayed in contact however and eventually became good friends. We still jokingly flirt with each other, call each other, meet up sometimes.

Anyways I’ve started to try dating again and these men have been very nice, very sweet, very lovely. However I could not connect with these people whatsoever. I honestly just thought they are just not for me but it wasn’t until I’ve been on my most recent date it clicked and it’s got into me. I still have feelings for him. I am honestly in such distress as I truly did think I had lost all my feelings for him but really I had let them go in my back pocket. I think the thing that did start it was when he slept around my place and we did share a bed and during the night I had woken up to use the toilet and when I got back into bed he had rolled over and placed his arm around me. I did keep it there for a while as I did like it but knew it was wrong to do that to him.

Now i don’t know what to do. I’ve been having these feelings for a good 2 fucking weeks and it’s killing me. We both have genuinely improved and grown quite a bit since then. We’ve both done therapy, I’ve started going to the gym, he’s less stressed about work. We both do seem happier but I can’t bare the thought of him being with someone else now. All I see is someone I want back.

Do I tell him? Do I just keep it a secret? FYI we are both gay guys

So I had a situationship for like 2 months and he ended it last month due to something about self esteem and feeling he couldn’t love me. Obviously this broke me as I thought we were going to be together. I’ve still got feelings for him but I’ve managed to smash them down quite a bit.

Anyways he’s been texting me and wants to meet me next week? Saying let’s go out and meet. I’m a bit like what the fuck? He was also mentioning something about my bed that he used to do in my bed and how he misses it. He also called me a random pet name he use to call me when we were seeing each other.

Is this a bad idea? I don’t know if he’s trying to try again or what? I kinda want him to want me back ngl.

This is awful. I’ve never felt like this before in my life.

I’ve been in quite a few relationships. And breaking up with them was hard don’t get me wrong. But I always seemed to get over them quite quickly. Not in days it did take weeks but slowly every week I saw that I started to live with it less, miss them less, think about the relationship less, and eventually move on.

A few months ago I met someone and I swear when I say he was exactly what I was looking for he was the exact person I was looking for. From his looks, personality, attitude, dreams, goals, maturity, milestones, etc. For the first time when I met him I knew it was love at first sight. He was so kind, so caring, so sweet. He thought about me everyday and every moment. Our chemistry was a complete match. I’ll never forget that first date. When I smiled the whole way home never wanting the day to end.

We then did everything together. More than what I’d ever done with anyone else at this stage of getting with someone. I really did see something with him. Then made that awful mistake of imagining a future with him. I really did think I had fount the one.

Then one day we spent the whole day together like any other day. Towards the end he took me somewhere really nice and posh and fancy and I was honestly thinking it was the best day ever. After the dinner we walked down the river and sat at a bench. When we sat down at the bench he held my hand and looked like he was about to cry. I asked him what was wrong and he told me that he planned to make it official with me that day. That he had planned this day for weeks. I kinda looked at him confused thinking why would you say something like that if that’s not what you’re going to do. He then said that I was perfect for him, that he himself thought he was going to be with me. But he started to have doubts and accepted to himself that he’s not ready for any relationship. That his self esteem and confidence is so low that he can’t love anyone that way. That he’s grieving too much from his recent past and that he hasn’t overcome or suppressed. That if we got together that night we wouldn’t have been stable enough or lasted long enough to be a healthy couple. That if he made me wait any longer for him I would just feel led on. I just remember crying uncontrollably and he hugged me and said that he was sorry that he wishes he could be with me right now that it’s not fair for me to wait until he’s ready.

Going home that night was awful. I just remember that last hug and kiss he gave me. Saying how sorry he was. That just because it’s ended like this it doesn’t mean he never cared about me, that he’s doing it because he cares too much about me. I just remember rubbing my finger down his arm one last time saying that I will always love him. He said that he will always love me too that he never wanted it to be like this. That he wished he could be with me but it would be wrong and the relationship just wouldn’t last long enough.

Everyday since then I’ve missed him. I miss every little thing about him. Even the things most people would get annoyed about. Trying to pull him out of bed, his fear of using other people’s toilets, his ridiculous amount of time he takes getting ready, his road rage, his silly superstitions, his dislike towards bananas, how insane he goes when one thing in his room is not where he wants it, his ridiculous addiction to bulk buying Starbucks coffees.

It’s also painful to walk past every place that means something to me because of him. The cafe we used to go to every morning when he stayed around my house, the bowling alley we use to play bowling drunk in, the hill at the park we use to sit at and talk about anything for hours, the food strip where he told me about his biggest struggles and insecurities, the big Tesco’s we use to drive to when we wanted to make dinner that night, damn even seeing the same car he has puts a sting on it.

It just hurts having to let go of that future that I wanted so badly. Let go of all the dreams I had with him. Let go of the idea that we were going to move in one day, get married, buy a house, get a golden retriever and spend our days off walking along the beach holding hands. Let go off all those places I wanted to visit with him. Let go of all those memories I wished so badly I wanted to make with him. All those Christmas days, birthdays, family gatherings, weddings we would go to together. I will forever grieve that and will always wonder what if we met at the right time. What if we met a year later. What if all these awful things never happened to him.

I miss him so much. I’ve always said to him if we both ever get into a better place, are still single and ever feel the urge to rekindle that I will leave the key under the mat for him.

There’s not one day that passes where I don’t think about you

I love you❤️‍🩹

So last week I put a post up saying about how I was seeing this guy for a month and he took me out and I thought he was going to ask me out but said he doesn’t love himself. Can’t love me. Is grieving. Is stressed at work. Etc.

Anyways I’ve agreed to meet him tomorrow to talk about us. How are we moving forward with this. We can’t be friends we’ve gone too far being friends but can’t be in a committed relationship because he’s not ready to be in one. Anyways he says “tomorrow you can spend the night.” Spend the night? I’m getting 60 million mixed signals. I don’t know what to do. Does he actually want me or does he miss me? I don’t know I’m getting so confused by this guy. I might just have to be straight with him and say I can’t keep seeing you unless you want to work towards a relationship. Otherwise we have to go our separate ways

I (23m) have been seeing this guy (21m) for over a month now. We had a really good first date actually the best one I had yet. We literally did normal things on that date etc we went food shopping, got his car washed, went to an arcade, got desserts. Between getting his car washed and going to the arcade we went to his place and we ended up kissing. We did it for a while and I mean a while and then cuddled in bed while watching a film. When it was time for me to go home he said that he’d like to see me again that weekend and I agreed. We planned to have him spend the night together and stay at mine, then spend the next day with each other, go back to his place that night, spend the next day with each other and then I would go home. And we did that and yet again really enjoyed it and each others company. We then were talking non stop to each other on the phone, texting, FaceTimes, going on cute little dates, stay at each others houses, being affectionate, we even planned a holiday with each other for September. I thought it was going great and that for the first time in my life I had fount someone who truly did care about so much and wanted to be with.

Fast forward to last Sunday we planned a date. But this date was different. He wanted me to bring a suit to his place and said that he wanted to take me somewhere special. I was quite excited at this point as I thought this was going to be it he was going to ask me to be his boyfriend. We go to this dinner and we have our food and then we get towards the end of the dinner and he says to me “I really really care about you, I really like you like I’ve never liked a person like you before. I wanted to treat you because I feel like no one has ever treated you like this before.” Then stopped. I kinda sat there confused and waited and I think he knew what I was waiting for. He told me to come closer to him and said that everything he just said was true. That he does really like me, he thinks I’m attractive, funny, bubbly, kind hearted, adorable, that I was his type to a point, that we are a match. But that he can’t be in a commitment relationship with me. That he doesn’t love himself. He feels empty inside. He feels wrong. That he’s struggling, grieving. And because of that he can’t love me. He said he tried for so long and wanted to so badly but he couldn’t force himself to. That yes he wanted to ask me to be his boyfriend at that dinner but then the relationship wouldn’t be real. Obviously I was upset but didn’t want him to feel bad even though he really did. We went back to his and he said if I needed to go home then he would drive me home but I said that I wanted to stay which I did. We slept in bed together and cuddled that same night.

The next morning we woke up and he kissed me saying he’s still really sorry that he’s felt the most guilty he’s ever felt in his life. That he wishes we could be together right now but it wouldn’t work. Then we went to eat and he said everything said last night was true. That he does care about me and that he still wants me to be a part of his life. That he can’t let me go. I told him I couldn’t let him go either. Even though people would tell me to I just can’t. He said that he honestly does believe we’re a perfect match. That if he wasn’t in the state he is in that we would be together right now. But believes I’m the right person at the wrong time. I agreed with him. I then asks what happens now and he said I don’t know. He told me maybe I should try move on but I physically cannot move on from him right now. I don’t think it’s even possible for me to look at another guy and think they’re attractive. Long story short we got to the station and I cried in his car while I laid on him while he stroked my hair saying I’m sorry.

Now we are in a situation where I don’t even know what’s happening. He still calls me, still texts me, still sends kisses after each message, still blows kisses down the phone, still calls me nicknames (babe, sweetie, etc), still wants to go on these dates/plans, still wants the holiday. He even called me the other night and said I sounded sad on the phone and if i needed him to drive down to me. It was the middle of the night at that point and it would have taken him an hour and a half to get to me so I said no and not to be stupid.

I don’t know. This is so hard for me because as much as I want to just wish I’d never met him or I want to get over him I can’t. He’s grown too important for me and I know that I’ve grown too important to him aswell to let go of each other. I know he has had quite traumatic experiences in the last year and I know full well he is burnt out from his job. Like he is stressed and is definitely not copying properly there. But I don’t know what to do. Do I just sit him down and have another conversation with him where it’s not so fresh and emotions aren’t as high. This is just the most difficult thing that has ever happened in my life.