hello, I made this post because I am tryna get over my narcissistic mother. I keep going to her and got myself shut out over and over again. I realized how much I crave someone who can fulfill that maternal emotional support. I have 0 hopes lol but thought of giving it a shot.
Basically want an online friend who can be my online mother. Idc the gender tho. I just want that level of care and effort.
I’m 21 and I’ve spent the last year building my own world because the one I was born into was a total mess. My mother is an emotionally unstable narcissist who only values me as an extension of her, and my dad is just uninterested unless he’s trying to control me. I was basically invisible to everyone else, and because of that, I’ve become a total lone wolf with zero attachment to "tradition" or family values. I am my primary caretaker and validator. I find the whole "tribe mindset" and social morality extremely cringe, if you’re trapped in that survival mindset of needing social approval, we won't click.
I’m a Finance major and I’m working on my own creative projects, but I’m keeping the details vague for now. I don't want people texting me just because I’m a "creative,”. I see the world through evolutionary history; we’re just apes in an unnatural system. I’ve worn nothing but black for years because I value my own logic over my parents' obsession over colors being unlucky and it’s my daily middle finger all the bs society believes in.
What I am looking for :
We stay completely anonymous, no real names, no photos, and no mentioning countries or locations. I don't want to be screened by a pin code, and I’m not here to screen you by yours. I want to be judged on internal data only. If you value external things you didn't choose, you're still in a survival mindset.
I watch some anime/other entertainment media, but only when it’s rooted in realism. If your whole personality is just media and games and you can't talk about your own life or what you're building, no thanks. There's a specific time for entertainment, not every day.
Don't expect me to be glued to my phone. I am highly independent and have my own life. I won't be talking to you 24/7 on the first day because connection is something you have to actually build. And I am not someone who commits 100% the first day of meeting someone I never knew. (I already learnt it the hard way)
also If I see you using AI to reply with some long script and then you follow up with generic text asking stuff I already mentioned, I will block you instantly without a reply. It shows you don't actually care.
Once I actually vibe with you, I’m not "chill". I have a sibling-level energy. I get attached, I overshare, and I expect 100% loyalty. I’m looking for someone like Usui from Maid Sama; someone logical and sharp but who has a playful maturity and doesn't take "human drama" seriously.
If you're a fellow lone wolf who values logic over "nice person" bullshit, reach out and tell me what you're obsessed with or currently building.
Also uh I am chill, and sometimes love rage baiting (acting like a literal child using my alts) so if your too serious, there will be periods where we will be completely opposite as I can’t keep my my serious side for too long.
I’m 21 and honestly, I’ve just realized my own value lately.
I’m from India, and I’m putting that upfront because if you have any hang-ups with racism or anything like that, just skip this. I use stuff like racism and homophobia as a filter anyway as it saves me time because I have zero interest in talking to shallow people who can't see past a zip code.
I’m also not your typical "girlish" personality. I’m very direct, logical, and I probably over-analyze everything.
I’ve lived a pretty isolated life. My family background is complicated with a lot of emotional neglect so I’ve basically had to become a lone wolf with 0 attachment to my family. I don't rely on people for my stability because
I built my own internal system to stay sane. Because of that, I’ve actually done really well for myself. I have 3 pet dogs, a decent pc setup for my creative endeavors, and a huge collection of dolls and some prize figures that the child me would have ADORED.
Also I’m a Finance major and a value investor, so I think in systems and logic. But I’m also a creator. I draw original characters and I'm currently teaching myself Blender and Unreal Engine for 3D animation and games as it’s my big goal for May. I’m even into the spiritual side of things like subconscious work and Tulpamancy, to the point of hitting self induced hypnotic alter states (mentioning if anyone’s into it).
I’m in a better spot than 90% of people my age, and I’m not looking for someone to "fix" me or fill a void. I just want a counterpart. I’m tired of surface-level stuff or "24/7" clinginess that doesn't actually mean anything. I want a 100% connection with someone who has their own direction and actually knows the "why" behind what they do. Even if you don’t but want to get your life sorted, I would love to help you out and improve together. I have this need for constant progress and improvement from time to time while also giving my AuDHD brain time to stop.
If you’re high-intensity but also hyper-realistic and grounded, let's talk. I'm looking for the unicorn who actually values loyalty as much as I do. Just don't reach out if you're looking for something low-maintenance or casual. I'd rather stay a lone wolf than settle for 30% effort.
Also don’t be too overwhelmed because honestly? I’m not that serious. I'm fully aware that at the end of the day, we’re just apes in a very unnatural modern world. I like to act like a monkey from time to time just to remind my brain I’m not a robot.
I’m 21 and I’m honestly just done with how half-assed most people are. I’ve realized I have a non-negotiable for my life: if we’re friends, we’re 100% in, or I’d rather just not bother at all.
I have AuDHD so I literally can’t do surface level stuff. I can see right through it when someone is just being "nice" but doesn't actually give a shit, and it’s so draining. I’m the type of person who is 100% in with everything I care about. My degree, my stocks, my hobbies, my career. I don’t understand how people have friends that they know they can’t even rely on. To me, that’s not a friend, that’s just an acquaintance taking up space.
I grew up with a lot of neglect and I’ve reached a point where I’m not accepting leftovers anymore. If I’m not a priority and you’re just looking for someone to talk to when you’re bored or between plans, we won’t work. I want the "unicorn" friendship where we actually have each other’s backs and don't bail for something better.
I’m currently doing my Master’s in Finance so I spend a lot of time on valuation models and stats, but I also love digital art and character design. I tend to hyper-fixate on my projects and I’d love to find 1 or 2 people who are the same way.
If you’re also a social outcast because you "care too much" or you’re tired of being everyone’s backup plan, please reach out. Just don't message me if you’re looking for something "low maintenance." I want something real and stable.