u/Busy-Fix9090

Are we all, or am I, so utterly and unbelievably delusional about the whole TF thing?

I am unable to meet or feel anything for anyone else without being reminded of him.. (The only guys I meet are other TF on thier is journeys)... yet I feel numb and empty if I think about how it all went down and ended or look at his picture, (which I don't do, it was a test to see if there was anything there) ​I feel like I must of dreamed it all, like it never actually happened but it did and felt like it was a lifetime ago. Does anyone out there understand any of it? Feeling like I'm insane! None of it makes sense!