r/twinflames

Alguém sentiu uma mudanças nesses últimos meses, desapego, liberação...?

Especificamente de forma mais intensa de junho/julho para cá.

Pensava que isso não aconteceria, não tão cedo pelo menos, afinal já estava há anos nisso, e toda vez que achava que estava me desapegando, isso voltava. Mas, agora parece real, realmente me sinto mais desapegada, não apenas no que diz respeito a ela, mas outras questões também.

Estive dando o meu melhor, buscando o autoconhecimento, encarando tantas dores... finalmente não apenas vejo progresso, sinto. Espero que seja assim daqui por diante, vou seguir me cuidando.

Does anyone else feel like this journey never ends? I gave up who I thought was my twin flame, I accepted they were with others, I was doing good, found a job I liked, found passions, etc. I’ve hashed out my childhood, blah blah. But still every day it’s like I get pulled into their realm and I’m crying again but I WANT to move on if they’re going to treat me as they have. But it’s the same head cycles over and over and over again.

I'll try to keep this simple, but my partner and I have noticed that in our "relationship" (its quite all over the place) we are experiencing too many strange coincidences and similar events happening to each other, in separate months. Has anyone else experienced something like this? what does it mean spiritually and energetically, karmically??

Lets start with me.

• We re-met at the end of march, told him I was going away on a backpacking trip at the beginning of May but he was willing to still date me and get to know me.
• I got really ill, fever, and had a herpes outbreak on my lip
• My birthday is in April
• I went on a week long trip with my friends
• We had essentially one month together before I went on my trip

We kept in contact for about two weeks into my trip but then both decided to end it because I was unsure of when I was going to return, and couldn't commit to him after such a short time of being together, and our relationship was already hard for me. I came back after 3 months of backpacking and decided to reach out to him, and we restarted our connection. This is where the weird stuff happens

Him

• I came back end of July, he told me that beginning of September he is moving states, but we are still willing to date and see what happens
• He went on a week long trip with his friends
• His birthday is in August
• He got ill, fever, and a herpes outbreak!!!
• We essentially have one month together before he moves

How we met: Months before our first date he spotted me at a gas station after a night out with friends and we chatted shortly and I left. I forgot about him , but he never did, kept trying to find me for months until he recognised my friend and asked her to call me.

It's actually uncanny to me how much we are mirroring each other lives, just in an inverted way. The events that happened to me are now happening to him. I am on the verge of breaking up with him because of how things have been, I feel like I'm being ripped open raw in this dynamic, all of my wounds and insecurities are showing up and its been chaotic. But cannot help but feel this relationship was destined for something.

So I’ve been in separation with my supposed twin for almost 2 years now no contact, during this I’ve been messaged by numerous ex’s or old situationships since. I’m just wondering if that is normal? It isn’t like just hey seeing how you’re doing messages either. Like are you ok? Kind of messages. For example my ex fiancée I haven’t spoken to in many years. She got married and has kids now. Randomly after not speaking for many years, texted me happy birthday love you forever. My birthday was a month ago but she knew that. It’s just all very odd and I’m like what is the point of this.

Twin and I have been in separation since 2022. Last year, I moved across the country to her city and she refused to see me, and told me she doesn’t plan on seeing me ever again.

Obviously, we’ll always be divine counterparts, and I’ll always want to be with her. The grief of permanent separation is often too much for me.

And I’m lonely. I need physical touch. I desire intimacy with someone. I want domestic life with someone. Someone. I want to be married. I’m barely able to communicate with my twin (although she hears me telepathically nearly everyday), I don’t feel her emotions or know anything about her life, can’t intuit anything about her, and our astral intimacy hasn’t been working for a while, so it feels like she’s a figment of my imagination, permanently out of reach.

Recently, I started seeing someone new and talking to a few other people. I plan to move back to the city where my twin and I met and actually start (casually?) dating. The person I’ve been seeing all summer, we definitely had a lot of emotional intimacy (nothing physical), I was only in that city for the summer, so it’s over, at least for now. Hanging out with him definitely felt like emotional cheating. He is the first real crush I’ve had in a while. When I parted ways with him, he told me he loved me and I said it back. I’ve cheated on my twin before by having sex with other people but I really haven’t had much of an actual romance since my twin and I separated. I definitely know that my heart and honestly life can never truly be committed to someone else, so despite wanting to see other people, I know it can’t really ever become serious.

Last night my twin posted a song on Spotify (this was our way of communicating for years, but she’s pretty much stopped doing it over the last year), the lyrics of the song were basically saying “I don’t want you, I don’t want your loving, go see someone else, he’s better for you, don’t try to come around again”. My twin has told me before that even though we won’t be together in the 3D, she doesn’t want me seeing any other people. So when I started seeing that guy this summer, I’ve been struggling with a lot of guilt, especially because I’ve cheated on my twin in the past and know how much that hurt her. Especially because she’s invested so much into healing me following my sexual assault (which happened during the last time I cheated, last year).

I’m feeling deeply conflicted. I can’t be with her, she doesn’t want me to be with anyone else, but I’m lonely. I genuinely feel alone. She’s like an angel that grants me her presence and love once in a while, not someone I feel actually connected to. I want to do right by my twin, but I have emotional and physical needs, and it seems unlikely, and unfair, for those to just go unmet for the rest of my life. But it seems unfair to her too. And maybe even the person or people I’m dating, since I can truly never actually be with them.

Any and all thoughts appreciated. Be nice, be mean, I can take it.

I met my TF an year and a half ago and a lot happened through that time. We have both confessed that we know we are twin flames. He always kept me around and everytime I managed to move on from him he would pull me back in the worst way possible. I was so convinced that he loves me but he is just not ready to be in a relationship with anyone now. I had accepted that I would wait for him. I fell for him deeply. He is my first love. I never wanted to look at anyone else but him. However recently we were both drunk and he told me "When we are 30 we will marry and have babies if we arent dating anyone by then right?" and 2 minutes later he told me he is in love with someome else. Then he even told a friend of mine "You can take her she is free I have someone else" and I actually felt like a piece of meat at the store honestly. And it's like I realized I fell for someone I don't even know. He always claimed that he believes in spirituality, energies and natal charts like I do and we both always agreed about the special connection we have together. Everyone who knows us thinks that we are textbook twin flames. Every experience we have both have had in our lives is the same. But now I feel like he just used my beliefs, love, spirituality and ny energy just to feed of them while he can't be with the one who loves. Like I am nothing but a back up plan. A dog that is always there for him. Now this entire thing makes me question my whole self, beliefs, my intuition, energies, the universe and the whole twin flame thing. Like the entire time I was just delusional while he was simply toying with me. I don't even know how to react and what to believe in anymore. And this entire thing feels so humiliating. Like my ego always believed I am the only one in his eyes. He himself told me he likes me but we can't be together since we are too similar and that he hasn't liked anyone since 2017 and now all of a sudden he LOVES someone else whom he can't be with. It feels like my entire ego was crushed. Like how can I even believe in myself and my energy after that if everything I have felt was false and just romantisizing someone for almost 2 years?

I’ve posted in this forum before but I can’t express myself anywhere else. I want to be released from this connection so bad. I want the cord to be cut. Every time my tf attempts contact with me I feel like it wakes me up inside and then when he pulls away I have to put it back to sleep… we were suppose to see one another this week and he never followed up with me. I reached out today to see if he had second thoughts and I told him he can tell me if he has doubts and he never responded to me… he was typing and then disappeared. I feel so ridiculous and emotionally unstable whenever he comes around. I’d describe it as a dog that lost its owner and it’s so pathetic. I don’t know if any of you have any advice for me but I can’t do this anymore

About 2 months ago I believe I had some sort of awakening that has to do with Twin Flames and Kundalini. My memory is very fuzzy, yet this is sort of what I experienced.

To preface, I was always agnostic/atheist. I dabbled in some sigil magick, yet only saw it useful in a subconscious sense. Similar to how companies use logos to implant specific ideas into your head. I thought everything could be linked back to a very specific line of reasoning and thought. Had spiritual experiences in the past but chopped it up to coincidence.

I planned to forgive my father for his wrong doings towards me and my family. My ex partner called me out for acting as him in specific ways, and I took that to heart. I was being entitled, which did stem from my wound from my father. All of this anger and resentment I had towards the man never went away for the years I had him blocked, and turned me more into him. So, I decided to meet up with him, and make peace with the situation. I knew he was suffering as much as I was, and wanted to end all of the suffering in the connection.

The night before that, however, I had some form of metamorphosis it seems. I was attached to my partner at the time in an unhealthy way, it wasn't always like that. I usually am such a giver and people pleaser, and decided to no longer give in as that towards her or my other friends, putting up well needed boundaries and acting for myself. Long story short, the sense of identity I had was gone when I woke up, the entire night my body was burning and I felt warm energy all around me, it was euphoric. Electricity was around me and my spine, and I felt her presence in my arms? It felt as if I died that night.

We always triggered each other. I remember feeling triggered nearly the entire relationship, same for her. We acknowledged it often, and knew it stemmed from our previous relationships. When we met, it was so intense. I couldn't look her in the eyes for long, as it was way too intense. I cannot put it into words, but to try, it was as if looking into my own soul. Here are some experiences I had with her before my conversation with my father.

- Telepathic communication, I could feel her intense energy longing and yearning when I didn't reach back out during that time of preparation.

- Intense eye contact, to the point of me never experiencing it with anyone else, ever. It shot through me.

- Feeling her presence and felt guided from her during specific rituals.

- INTENSE mirroring. Even in very bizzare things. Mostly personality, as I am much more feminine in the yogic sense, she is VERY masculine. Both of us to a fault, she can't access her emotions and at times doesnt want to, I am usually extremely intune with mine and are lead by them too much. Even our fuckin birthdays. My birthday is 11/6, hers is 9/11, even in other things. My lifepath number is 11, day 6th. Her lifepath is 6, day 11. This is somethings that happen when I ask for a sign from my higher self. I take it as it is and walk with it, not dwelling too too much, but I can't ignore that.

After my conversation with my father, these happened.

• Burning/electrical sensations throughout my entire body resulting in me being unable to work for a month and a half.
• Universal oneness with everything. Trees, grass, people, cars, etc.
• Otherworldly bliss and euphoria.
• I saw/see auras around physical objects and around myself at times.
• Dietary changes, only wanting to eat greens. Beer, caffeine and other sources tasted like shit.
• Constant pressure on the center of my forehead for a month and a half.
• De-personalization, viewing self in third person, outside of self.

Since then, I felt the energy travel back down and coil? Now I experience

• Sudden jolts of energy shooting up my spine, feeling it coil around the top of my skull and move back down. This happens at least twice a day.
• Neutrality about any event that happens to me, good or bad.
• Sudden body movements, twitching throughout body.
• Cold and hot sensations near the left and right side of my spine which go up and down. Could be the nadis? I don't know.

I've had other experiences outside of the Kundalini from my knowledge. They are:

• Repeating number sequences pretty much everywhere I go. Seeing things "specifically" about Twin Flames. I usually chop it up to the Frequency Illusion, it's what companies use to also embed ideas, songs, tiktoks etc. into daily life to sell specific things. But it's been too intense to ignore.
• Prophetic dreams that come to reality days or on that day. Specifically with her.
• Feeling her "energy" pull on my stomach and head when I focus on myself instead of our connection. I have Borderline and autism, so I am used to relationships ending with me getting withdrawal symptoms and the obsessive thinking, and know how to deal with it using techniques I learned in therapy/psych ward after years of both. This, however, is a completely different sensation.
• Feeling energy of other people, the point of knowing specific issues they're facing. I knew that a friend of mine's father died, a person's relationship ended, a person was craving drugs, etc.
• Feeling "led" by higher intuition? Example: Asked it to lead me to a lake/ large body of water for me to sit at. Followed my intuition, and it brought me to a location with said description. Where I sat, a card with a caduceus was right next to me. It sounds like such crazy talk, but it's something I cannot ignore. Could be my subconscious recognizing specific areas that would lead to said things? But these are places I've never been to.

- Nonstop ear buzzing. I've developed some kind of sixthed sense? When I am around others at times, one of my ears makes loud, LOUD noises when someone is either thinking intensely about me, or to listen carefully with the person I am talking to, being careful.

Side note: I know the above section can be explained with how the brain works on a subconscious level, and is not the focal point of my question here. I just needed to get it out somewhere.

I'm completely alone now. I don't have any friends anymore after this, even the ones who have been in my life for 10 years. The partner I was with is also gone. My job is gone due to me being unable to keep up with physical demands of it, being able to do like 1/8th the workload I usually do. Only people in my life are my mother and sister now, who I live with.

Main point of this post is to see how others are experiencing this, and for any cheap resources. I am living off of savings and can't afford a gurus. I still feel her but it's nowhere near as strong. It gets stronger when I evolve further into where I am going, who I wish to be. I am no longer yearning for her back. I still love her, yet our last conversation tells me that I need separation now. She mirrors what I would need to learn to overcome a lot of my codependency issues with any relationship.

Question for discussion: Has anyone experienced their TF feeling it when they went through an ayahuasca ceremony and a massive internal transformation? If so, how did it manifest?

My TF and I have been in separation and no contact for 6 years, so I have no way of verifying this. I went through ceremonies 3 months ago and started working on myself heavily in a spiritual way. I can feel as if the energy between us has shifted, and I was just wondering if anyone has direct personal experience with whether this affects the other TF in some way as well.

I love the unconditional love we both share for each other. It has brought me out of depression and finally a life where I’m stabilized.

But I’m not in love with him? I moved across the country from where we met and I can still feel the unconditional love all the way from here and that’s all I really need. The connection feels platonic?

I'm a pragmatic atheist in my 30's. Met up with a man for a bumble date. He was out of town traveling for work. Shit's gotten really weird, really fast. I've never met or seen this man in my life. I have aphantasia and have never had visuals in my consciousness and I'm seeing things. I feel like I'm feeling his emotions. We even had some sort of bizarre astral intimate encounter the other day and frankly, I feel like I'm insane. This is not how I think. It's contrary to everything I believe, but I'm so based in logic that I can't ignore the amount of bizarre things happening around me. I'll take any kind of advice from anyone. I'm freaking out over here lol

So me and my twin are having a hard time, she explicitly stated she is done with me last Friday during a big argument.. it hurts.

Yesterday night before sleeping I meditated and asked myself for guidance, and then I dreamt of her. In the dream we are in a restaurant, but she is married to another man and seems she has a daughter (as I remember).

What does that mean?? Is it a hint to let go, or it is a hint that this pattern now is not working? I am confused.

Is fully letting go the real lesson of this contract?

Has anyone been through that?

What happens when we truly let go?

Since the love will not go away and it is the deepest love we feel, how to cope with that? Letting it go seems very contradictory.

Anyone can share their reunion stories, and how it turn out and unfolded?

Will really appreciate your sharing❤️

Very recent separation. My DM and I never dated. We started to talk after having each other in our sights for months. Both very shy individuals, always running parallel to each other, never a moment to intersect fully. We did have moments, however, when we sit together and would look into each other’s eyes and I felt something deeper than life. And I think he did the same. His smile every time he saw me is the most beautiful one I ever saw in a human. I got to know the basics of him and his behavior, and I was hungry for every bit. I let myself wanting every possible thing you can imagine, with him. For the first time in my life.

Then life hit. Hard. The unfixable, permanent kind. One single mistake of his punished to the max. And I decided to walk away, for my own good. But the heartbreak has been unbearable. I have cried and made sounds I didn’t even thought I was able to make. I have prayed endlessly while crying in fetal position. Questioned everything. I have lost the joy of visiting new places, of eating, doing the things I used to love, all of it. I’m scared because the most intense heartbreak I had was 13 years ago when my Dad died, and I feel like this one tops even that.

I’m in therapy, but I wanted to move forward and see what can I aspire a year from now. And I realize that the life that is projected for me, even best case scenario, does not feel right. Does not feel enough. A life of healing and accepting and be “at peace”, going back to the state I once was before meeting him is not something I would want. So I’m here asking myself: what is next? Who do I want to be after separation, in an honest way, that I can say: I’m happy where I am at. I had a very rooted identity, pretty sure of who I was. I don’t know anymore.

Knowing my DM fell victim into life’s circumstances and that he will be falling apart in the years to come does not make it easy either.

He has valid reasons and it's for the best, but damnnnn this is so hard! I can't remember the last time I was heartbroken like this. It's so hard going from texting/calling 24/7 and seeing each other almost everyday, to acting almost like strangers again. There are so many times during the day when I want to pick up the phone and text him just to share a random thought that's on my mind or to tell him how much I miss him, but I always stop because what's the point? He'll text back but we'll no longer have those soul-satisfying, 8-hour long deep conversations ever again, those days are gone now.

I know I will be okay. The Universe got me. He was here to teach me lessons and help me feel things again. I know... But right now I'm just grieving and having a rough time moving on. Hopefully I'll have better luck with him in my next life.

Its like everytime im sure im over her , shes suddenly there again. Shes caused me a lot of trouble therefore I have been hating on her and enjoying my life . I feel comfortable that im not in her life now, like I dont crave her eventhough I do think of her.

I clicked on a random Instagram post on my for you page today and saw something very obscure that we both know about . It was the second square on the page and I was scrolling the images , the last image was her favourite book that she was telling me about . I dont read much so it was random for me to scroll this ..

Very unbelievable.

It’s a feeling that is very new to me but i genuinely believe. After all this time it’s hard to accept but I think for some of us it’s preventing us from moving on. All the obsession, all the fantasizing, the wondering is pointless and it’s preventing you from moving forward. There will always be apart of me that will wonder what our life would have been like if it was just us…..

I’ve read many times that twin flames have a grand mission to change the world.

My twin and I aren’t really changing the world in my opinion. We’re just going on with our daily lives.

Can someone give me an example of how twin flames change the world?

Ik im 100% on the journey judging by how much I’ve healed and ascended.

But.

Ever since I met my twin flame, I’ve been clairaudient. When the journey began, I had a huge crush on this one music artist, let’s say Drake.

I’m not delusional about this crush. When I first met my twin flame at the gym, I was like, yay! I get a happily ever after.

But even after 7 years since me and my twin flame met, he’s been obsessed with the fact that I have a crush on Drake. I’ve actually stopped listening to him completely because idk how but it seems like my twin flame knows when I’m listening to him and gets really mad at me for it.

But anyways,

Ik this journey and meeting your twin flame is supposed to answer your life questions and make your life make sense.

So im just going about my life and day, but then I get downloads about Drake constantly. I was super into this celebrity and was kind of pop culture crazy back then but this messages or downloads tell me like “my worst nightmare” confirmed that Drake has a twin flame and it’s let’s say, Doja Cat.

So obviously I was like, oh happy for him I guess that’s cool. It’s nbd. And I moved on. A little disappointed but I was like I have a twin flame and I’m focusing on him right now and it’s cool. Like truly. Didn’t really care that much. I have a life outside of celebrity culture. I’m grounded in reality. Just an interest/hobby of mine.

Then as the years went on more downloads about Drake.

I have a trauma when I was younger and I woke up and felt like I got raped in my sleep.

So then I hear who done diddly darn did it. And apparently it was Drake who raped me astrally bc he is an incubus monster. And he used this experience as an accidental rapist to inspire his art/music. That he has trauma of waking up one day and knowing he raped someone.

So I was like… ok? That’s not exactly helpful but whatever. I was like please stop telling me about Drake. And while it was healing. I’m still like… why can’t this be with people I actually know?

So again years go by and I’m just ok with this explanation and I’m just living my life feeling a little better that I got “closure”.

Now the downloads tell me to unfollow and delete everyone from my Instagram which I had no problem with kind of because I kind of hated everyone I knew at that point. So I do. I just delete my instagram and the messages tell me, they were not my soul family and that Drake is my soul family and to make a new account and just follow people you actually admire and like. Which consisted of just celebrities at that point.

And while it was healing to do that because I believe the people I used to be friends with were toxic. I was still like a little weirded out by the Drake part.

Then again years pass, and one day, the downloads tell me Drake could remote view my life his entire life, were twin flames, and I’m the “real Doja Cat” and that he is false twin flames with Doja Cat bc I am the “real Doja Cat” and she is my doppelganger. They tell me Drake used my whole life as inspiration for his music and that’s why I identify with it so well. And again I’m like ermmmmmmmmmm. Ok then…?

I told my best friend all of this and I think it scared her away bc we don’t talk anymore and I miss her dearly. The downloads told me she is the one soul family member that I’ve met and I’ll see her in the next life or the after life.

So now I’m a point where I’ve officially stopped chasing my twin flame. I’m at a point where I don’t think I’ll ever end up with my twin flame because he’s just not my type and I deserve someone I actually like. The obsession is gone. All chasing mentality is gone. I turned it inward like everyone says to and I feel like it’s working.

I just got a divine message from my best friend who I haven’t talked to in 6 years and it told me that she is on a spiritual awakening journey and that she misses me too and that her awakening journey also includes weird celebrity stuff that she judged me for.

So the downloads have told me recently that this is my karma and job this life time and I can be with Drake in my next life.

And I’m just a little lost bc right now, all I want is my best friend back. My old friends and life back. But all I’m left with is my instagram following Drake and he doesn’t even know I exist. I just want to be with my true soul family.

I keep seeing angel numbers so maybe I’m on the right path. But I’m just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? I’m kind of left with more questions than answers at this 

(everytime i watch one of Drake's MVs i feel my twin flames heart sink. still)