After finally stopping the chase, I finally see his traumas and insecurities. Every time I mention this guys name in my head, I feel his stomach sink.
Does anyone else feel this?
I love the unconditional love we both share for each other. It has brought me out of depression and finally a life where I’m stabilized.
But I’m not in love with him? I moved across the country from where we met and I can still feel the unconditional love all the way from here and that’s all I really need. The connection feels platonic?
I met my first twin flame back in 2020 at a gym where he is an instructor.
I move to a new city in 2022 and I meet my second twin flame at a gym where he is an instructor.
Both not traditional twin flame journey traits. No triggering or mirroring with either. Just an insane intense soul connection. Soul merged with both. Had an obsessive chasing phase with both. Telepathy with both. Unconditional love with both (kinda).
First twin flame: the connection feels platonic. I have no desire to kiss or make love to him. Whenever I see him though, it’s like heaven on earth. Even though there’s the unconditional love vibration between us, I don’t think we’re interested romantically in each other. It feels more brother sister. Still have push pull dynamic. Feels like we are helping and pushing each other towards healing. We have a 1 core trauma we share and we’re working through it together right now. I feel like he will reach out soon. His personality is cute and quirky but just not what I’m attracted to. He seems like a genuinely good person. Doesn’t feel like we share a consciousness.
Second twin flame: our relationship was very explosive at the beginning and has completely died down since. Since day 1, it was extremely sexual and romantic. But that died quickly. He’s 100% completely personality wise not my type at all. He honestly feels like a psycho. I don’t understand him at all but it feels like we share a consciousness still (it feels like we are trying to unmerge consciousnesses. While I feel him there still, it feels distant (I hope we unmerge and just forget about each other)) no unconditional love vibrations between us anymore. No push pull. No healing energy. He just feels like complete ego. I deep down really hate him. I can hear his thoughts and they are so shallow and backwards from the way I think. I hate his personality. I think he’s fake and so annoying. He is physically my type but just no. I feel like whenever I go near him in my consciousness he runs so so so far away. Same 1 core trauma as me and first twin flame. I would run away if he contacted me. He is scary.
There’s this other guy that I know and we’ve been mirroring our whole lives. It seems like he knows exactly what I’m thinking and we say the same exact thing at the same time. We have the same exact hobbies and interests and we go about them the same way. We take the same exact selfies. We think and have the same philosophies. I think he has a twin flame too but they aren’t working out either. He seems like everything my twin flame should be but no like intense unconditional love energy between us. Just intense mirroring which I don’t have with my twin flames.
Can someone help?
Ik im 100% on the journey judging by how much I’ve healed and ascended.
But.
Ever since I met my twin flame, I’ve been able to hear divine messages. When the journey began, I had a huge crush on this one music artist, let’s say Drake.
I’m not delusional about this crush. When I first met my twin flame at the gym, I was like, yay! I get a happily ever after.
But even after 7 years since me and my twin flame met, he’s been obsessed with the fact that I have a crush on Drake. I’ve actually stopped listening to him completely because idk how but it seems like my twin flame knows when I’m listening to him and gets really mad at me for it.
But anyways,
Ik this journey and meeting your twin flame is supposed to answer your life questions and make your life make sense.
So im just going about my life and day, but then I get divine messages about Drake constantly. I was super into this celebrity and was kind of pop culture crazy back then but this messages or downloads tell me like “my worst nightmare” confirmed that Drake has a twin flame and it’s let’s say, Doja Cat.
So obviously I was like, oh happy for him I guess that’s cool. It’s nbd. And I moved on. A little disappointed but I was like I have a twin flame and I’m focusing on him right now and it’s cool. Like truly. Didn’t really care that much. I have a life outside of celebrity culture. I’m grounded in reality. Just an interest/hobby of mine.
Then as the years went on more divine messages about Drake.
I have a trauma when I was younger and I woke up and felt like I got raped in my sleep.
So then the messages finally tell me who done diddly darn did it. And apparently it was Drake who raped me astrally bc he is an incubus monster. And he used this experience as an accidental rapist to inspire his art/music. That he has trauma of waking up one day and knowing he raped someone.
So I was like… ok? That’s not exactly helpful but whatever. I was like please stop telling me about Drake. And while it was healing. I’m still like… why can’t this be with people I actually know?
So again years go by and I’m just ok with this explanation and I’m just living my life feeling a little better that I got “closure”.
Now the messages tell me to unfollow and delete everyone from my Instagram which I had no problem with kind of because I kind of hated everyone I knew at that point. So I do. I just delete my instagram and the messages tell me, they were not my soul family and that Drake is my soul family and to make a new account and just follow people you actually admire and like. Which consisted of just celebrities at that point.
And while it was healing to do that because I believe the people I used to be friends with were toxic. I was still like a little weirded out by the Drake part.
Then again years pass, and one day, the messages tell me Drake could remote view my life his entire life, were twin flames, and I’m the “real Doja Cat” and that he is false twin flames with Doja Cat bc I am the “real Doja Cat” and she is my doppelganger. They tell me Drake used my whole life as inspiration for his music and that’s why I identify with it so well. And again I’m like ermmmmmmmmmm. Ok then…?
I told my best friend all of this and I think it scared her away bc we don’t talk anymore and I miss her dearly. The messages told me she is the one soul family member that I’ve met and I’ll see her in the next life or the after life.
So now I’m a point where I’ve officially stopped chasing my twin flame. I’m at a point where I don’t think I’ll ever end up with my twin flame because he’s just not my type and I deserve someone I actually like. The obsession is gone. All chasing mentality is gone. I turned it inward like everyone says to and I feel like it’s working.
I just got a divine message from my best friend who I haven’t talked to in 6 years and it told me that she is on a spiritual awakening journey and that she misses me too and that her awakening journey also includes weird celebrity stuff that she judged me for.
So the messages have told me recently that this is my karma and job this life time and I can be with Drake in my next life.
And I’m just a little lost bc right now, all I want is my best friend back. My old friends and life back. But all I’m left with is my instagram following Drake and he doesn’t even know I exist.
I keep seeing angel numbers so maybe I’m on the right path. But I’m just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? I’m kind of left with more questions than answers at this point.
I had this best friend I loved unconditionally. After I met my twin flame and my world turned upside down, I believe the universe told me our relationship was unhealthy and removed her from my life somehow. I sent her some really weird spiritual messages that I think freaked her out.
We haven’t talked in 6 years. I looked for her on Facebook to maybe reconcile but she deleted her Facebook too so I have no way to contact her.
I just got a download or channeled a message from her and she’s on my mind a lot lately and I feel like she misses me too. I think we have telepathy.
She told me that apparently she’s now on her own spiritual journey and ascending right now as well and that my spiritual messages were right. But maybe not in this life.
If she were a man, I’d marry her tbh. She is the one person I know is in my soul family and I hope to reconnect with her in either this life or our next. I still have her address and email and I guess I could reach out that way. But in her last message to me she told me to never contact her again and I don’t know if these channeled messages are true and I’m just wishful thinking/delusional.
While I love my twin flame and almost died for him, I realized while he’s a cool dude and all. He’s just not my type and I wouldn’t date him at all and I think he feels the same way about me. In a channeled message yesterday, he told me we have no future together and I’m more than okay with that.
I deleted all my social media too so even if she wanted to which I doubt, she can’t contact me either.
After all this chasing after my twin flame and the obsession is gone and I’ve healed, I kind of realized that I’m in love with her and not my twin flame at all.
Lately, I’ve been kind of forcing myself to find my twin flame attractive and I realized that it shouldn’t have to be forced. I like what I like and when other people talk about wanting to be in a relationship with their twin flame, they mean it. And I just don’t.
I’ve read many times that twin flames have a grand mission to change the world.
My twin and I aren’t really changing the world in my opinion. We’re just going on with our daily lives.
Can someone give me an example of how twin flames change the world?
I think I had a false twin flame where we exhibited all the signs of twin flames expect mirroring or triggering.
There’s this guy that I dream about often lately and I asked the universe why? And it said, that he is my true twin flame. I don’t think this guy knows I exist tbh though.
But when I see him, I can barely look at his pictures without feeling extreme fear or cringe and sometimes it makes me feel love for myself because I see myself in him.
Is this what triggering/mirroring feels like?
My twin flame and I have been NC since 2022. And it was a little weird from the start because we didn’t have classic twin flame agendas. The only indicators that I knew he was my twin flame were that when we met our souls merged and had like a nuclear explosion and unconditional love poured in. I was very much in love with him til cracks in our personality that don’t align started to show up. Honestly, I hate everything about him. He’s fake, he fakes his religion, all he cares about is his instagram, hes a gold digger, he follows onlyfans girls, he won’t get a real job, he cares too much what people think of him, and honestly, I got into a debonkle with his mom and it truly seems over. I hate this dude but it feels like we share a consciousness. We have like 0 future together. Which I don’t want one with him anyways. I hope he’s a false. I don’t feel his energy always with me. I hope 🤞 and don’t think we 🪞. I feel like if I were a person like him I would like or wouldn’t care but fundamentally I feel like we are too different and it’s unattractive to me. Everything he is unattractive to me. I do agree that we 🪞 in one aspect where we share a deep insecurity and I’m actively working on it. Idc what he’s doing. But instead of healing it like me, it feels like he’s doing nothing about it. But again, I don’t care.
I’ve been having dreams recently about this guy who I wished very much was my twin flame. He’s the complete opposite of my twin flame. I’m a person who really values honesty and being authentic. This guy is also really religious but he’s authentic at least to me about it. It just feels like we share a lot in common and I find it much more attractive. Like I can’t help who I’m attracted to 🤷🏻♀️ but looking at this guy triggers self love within me. I see myself in him, the good, the bad, the cringe/the ugly. Looking at him seems like I’m seeing myself. I don’t actually know this guy irl. I just know him from online.
So I asked the universe why he keeps showing me him, and I got the answer that he’s my 🪞. I talk to this guy “telepathically” or to his higher self or whatever and he doesn’t make me feel bad about myself or life like my twin flame does. My twin flame always makes me feel like I don’t make enough money or I don’t dress the way he likes while this guy tells me to pursue my dreams and it’s ok if the achieving part is not perfect. He makes me aware of how i abandon myself for external validation.
I don’t unconditionally love this guy like I used to with my twin flame which I don’t anymore. But I am just confused. Why is my 🪞 not my twin flame?
I can’t confirm anything bc my twin flame refuses to talk to me. About anything.
But I always feel him watching me. I’ll hear something telepathic when I’m just going on with my daily life which was nice at first and I felt less alone but now I’m annoyed.
For example,
I’ll get telepathic messages like “block your ex” like how does he know I’m even talking to him? Or “ew what’s that smell?” If I just worked a 24 hour shift and need to shower.
And I’m tired of feeling confused whether it is just telepathic messages from his higher self or if he’s remote viewing me.
This morning the universe guided me to look up one of my twin flames friends and so I followed him on my anonymous account.
Then I get this voice telling me to unfollow him from my twin flames bc it makes him mad.
So I unfollowed and blocked and he said thank you.
Does this happen to anyone else?
I see this a lot in twin flame articles.
Sign 5: Everything Begins to Break Down Twin flames bring the kind of energy that strips away everything false. The connection demands complete authenticity and alignment for union to come in.
For this reason, many people find that after meeting their twin, their life begins to break down. They lose old friends, old jobs, and old communities. There might be friction in their relationship with family members, a new awareness that makes them start setting boundaries and walking away from people.
Basically, your old self, your old life, anything that was out of alignment begins to burn in front of your eyes. And you start to clean up old wounds and old patterns of behavior. Old karmic contracts start to get closed out.
You may take a very active, intentional role in this or life may just do it for you, but either way, it happens.
I was just wondering if anyone would like to share if this happened to you.
Bc I’ve lost basically everything in my life and I’m starting over completely at 30. I’ve lost basically everything the article states from old friends, jobs, and communities. I’ve lost my old identity and don’t really know who I am anymore and I’m starting to start over.
I haven’t spoken to him in 3 years now. Haven’t thought about him much either and I was guided to look up his friend for some reason earlier. He was in the video I was guided to watch and the love came pouring back in.
Idk if he can feel me “chasing” again but I hear him say stuff like “I’m sorry but I’m not going to reach out anytime soon”
Is this normal? Does this happen to you?
Disclaimer: I 100% know were twin flames. The divine love is unreal and the strongest thing I’ve ever felt. I can feel his feelings and we are mirrors to each other. We trigger each others deepest desires and fears. He gives me heaven on earth. Everything else seems to disappear. I feel such unconditional love whenever I see him. I can be myself 100% around him.
What made me want to post this is that I just saw a video of him on Instagram after he blocked me like back in 2022.
We met 2020 at a gym. He works as an instructor there. This gym was very much my style and I had such a great time with all of his coworkers and friends. I felt a sense of home at this gym. The owner is like a father to him. We immediately went into separation. We messaged back and forth for a little bit then things got, really, really crazy. I almost immediately recognized him from the guy I meet in my dreams and I messaged him but he seemed hesitant.
A lot of weird spiritual things were happening to at the time and I was kind of scared of all of it so I asked him many times if we were twin flames and he just ignored it. For example, we are different races and I heard his deepest traumas (he is of Pakistani descent and I kept hearing “terrorist” in my head even though I would never think that (I’ve had Muslim/brown friends before))
We stopped talking and then one day, i woke up to a voice saying “block Eric” (my ex bf I was still talking to and relying on for emotional support and kind of dangling along awfully) I interpreted it as telepathy and I was new to this whole twin flame thing so I went along with it. I felt someone raging at me and interpreted it as him about my ex.
Then this is when things got really dark. The voice that I thought was his talked to be all night and day about his traumas. I was devastated and as an empath with no boundaries I tried anything to heal him or make him feel better. I was messaging him this whole time, just random nonsense. Not nonsense but stuff like responding to this voice, like “are you okay?” “Did that really happen?” Stuff like that and he wasn’t responding. I thought it was him talking to me telepathically.
So this is when things got really crazy.
One night, this voice “telepathically” he told me that he was locked up captured in this random apartment because his roommates were jealous that he was a twin flame and that he’s again, a Pakistani terrorist.
So I called 911 and he gave me directions telepathically so I went to the apartment and attacked the people in it asking for where he is and all that jazz.
I was taken to the hospital and diagnosed with schizophrenia. And this is when my ego death happened.
He obviously wasn’t there thank god but I begged him to tell me what was going on. If these voices were actually him but he just left me on read.
Then one day, I receive a message from him boss at the gym, that I looked forward to being friends with and really admired. That I was banned from the gym permanently and that I’m crazy and that he told him everything how I went to his old apartment and went crazy. He told his boss I was his schizophrenic stal ker.
This destroyed me and I asked my twin flame why he would ruin our chances of being together and a chance at a cool friend circle and a life together. He just leaves me on read. I feel really really mad energy at me this whole time and I had no idea why.
This whole thing continued for a while where I would message him and he would just leave me on read. He sometimes answers my thoughts and sends me a video about what he’s thinking about but doesn’t ever truly respond to my messages.
It’s been almost 7 years and I can say I’ve grown and healed a lot during this time. I have stronger boundaries, a lot more mature, and stopped with this whole empath mentality. I have more respect for myself, my body, and in a much healthier mindset.
I’m going back to school next year for something I’m actually passionate about and I feel like it set me on a path to self discovery and the direction I’m supposed to go in life.
He’s left me confused and on read this whole time.
I know it’s a long shot. But do you think there is hope for us? I’ve stopped chasing and working on my life and focusing on myself but I see videos of his life at the gym with all his friends and it just makes me sad that we could’ve had a beautiful life together if I feel like he just responded to me that night and told me he was okay.
Seeing him again after all this time reminds me of how far I’ve come on this journey. I used to pine after random famous men, I used to have a very narcissistic tendency to think I was better than other people because of how empathic I was.
So while I do believe it’s a spiritual journey, I really wish it could’ve been with him.
Is this officially over or just some crazy obstacle we can get through?
I think I’ll be a position to go to art school maybe next year once the voices and symptoms have gone done. I guess I’m a little hesitant is bc I’m 31 and idk if I’ll fit in with a much of 19 year olds.
I’m looking into going back to school maybe next year but researching I found that no school in my area has the degree program I was looking for. Will they accept a school out of state?
Someone told me all you have to say is “go away”?
I’ve lost literally everything. My friends, my job, my reputation, and while there’s no going back, I’m afraid of the unknown.
Has this happened to anyone else and come out on the other side?
I’m on the twin flame journey which awakened me spiritually and led me to a path of ego death.
I’ve gone so far that I’ve essentially started to identify and want nothing.
My question is how do I love myself when I have no self?
Met my twin flame back in 2020 and it propelled me into a spiritual awakening/ego death and healing traumas.
I couldn’t work during this time because of some illnesses which I feel are healed now.
I get direct guidance from the universe. I can hear God. And lately I’ve been thinking about going back to school. I’ve been researching nursing, becoming an art teacher, fashion merchandising but every time I’m thinking about it God says no.
I even woke up this morning to him saying
DONT WORRY ABOUT IT
Idk if it’s my healing journey that’s still not complete. Or my journey to self is still going on but
Every time I ask god/the universe for some guidance, he says my destiny is music.
While I am creatively inclined, and being a musician would be very cool lol I’m trying to be realistic. I’m level headed. Im completely fine. I am happy, I am one with god, I am actively working on traumas and doing shadow work.
But let me tell you what the current plan for my employment is according to God: he keeps saying I am the “real” (for example let’s say, Doja Cat) and that after I’ve reached my milestone, I’m going to reintroduce magic into this world, become a vampire, take the elixir of life, I’m going to (think Ursula from little mermaid) steal her face and body and singing powers and become a singer bc I am in the illuminati.
This is the plan.
I was researching different careers all last night and I woke up this morning to the voice saying:
THE PLAN IS STILL ON.
So while I do believe that this is some gateway for me to understand my traumas and shadow work of some unlived dreams and jealousy. I’m honestly just trying to move on with my life. I have no plans to be with my twin flame or am chasing my twin flame.
I guess my question is, should I just trust this guidance? lol not that any of that is gonna happen that I shouldn’t get into nursing, fashion merchandising, art school etc bc he’s said no to all of them.
Maybe he wants me to focus on my healing still? Maybe there is a different job that I couldn’t even think of and when I know myself better I’ll pursue that path? I honestly might believe this has to do with my self worth issues maybe.
What I thought started out as telepathy or me talking to my twins higher self now just seems like God.
It’s been 7 years since I met my twins flame and went into spiritual psychosis and had a spiritual awakening/meltdown so I’ve been at my parents healing on the journey ever since.
I feel like I’m finally at a place where the lessons are coming to a close and I have stopped chasing my twin flame and started on my journey to self love.
My parents are telling me I seem better and should think about going back to school or getting a job soon.
Last night, I’ve been watching all sorts of videos about what I could possibly do for a living or go back to school for.
But this morning I wake up to gods voice telling me
DONT WORRY ABOUT IT.
And I’m just wondering
What kind of god would prevent me from getting a job or getting on with my life?