r/SpiritualAwakening

If we believe, as many do, the meaning of life is to make money, buy material possessions, have a family, and enjoy the best things life offers, then, though we may be successful, achieving all our goals, we will have lived our life without meaning or purpose. Focusing only on ourself, not selflessly sharing our success with others, our impact on the world, regardless of our accomplishments, will be insignificant.

It is only those who freely share their spirit’s innate wisdom and unconditional love with others, irrespective of our many differences, who will discover the genuine reason for our life’s journey. Money, material possessions, or anything else found in the world are not necessary to do so. A poor, homeless, uneducated person from a distant land may live a far more purposeful life than one who is wealthy, famous, and has a prestigious job.

Those living their life only for their own benefit, though they and others may believe they have led a meaningful life, have not. Their life will soon be forgotten with the inevitable passage of time. It is only those who sincerely help and share their unconditional love and wisdom, their spirit, with others, without motive or benefit, who will truly discover the genuine reason we are alive.

When I first started chanting and walking a spiritual path, the first thing that happened was that I drifted away from my friends. I only had five close friends, and now I barely meet or even talk to them. Whatever the reasons were, it just happened.

I also lost the urge to eat non-veg. Now I feel completely balanced about it—if I eat it, fine; if I don't, that's fine too. The craving is simply gone.

The things I still struggle with are anger, restlessness, and fear about stability. I think a lot of it comes from having to live in the world—you have to deal with people, earn a living, and sometimes be a little selfish just to survive.

Sometimes I wonder if leaving everything behind would make it easier to find what I'm searching for. But then I also feel there would just be different challenges. Maybe the struggle doesn't disappear—it just changes.

In the end, I've come to feel that it's best to let life unfold the way it's meant to. If something profound is meant to happen, it will happen in its own time.

Feeling blessed. 🙏

I’ve randomly woken up this morning with a heavy heart and when I finally was properly awake and moving around I started feeling really ill like I was going to be sick and the only thought that was going through my head was the constant “your gonna die soon” I really have this achy feeling somthing terrible a gonna happen to me and I can’t do anything to prevent it is there anyway I’ve just twisted negative energy and interpreted it the wrong way or if not how can I stop this feeling

For me, it was staying in surface-level conversations. After the awakening process started, small talk and superficial connections started feeling draining and almost painful.

I couldn’t force it anymore.

At first it felt like I was losing people, but over time it created space for much more real and nourishing relationships.

I’ve been wrestling with this question for a while, and I’m curious how other people see it.
People often talk about “spiritual awakening” as if it’s this beautiful, peaceful experience where everything suddenly makes sense.
But from what I’ve seen—and maybe experienced—it doesn’t look peaceful at all.
It looks more like grief.
It looks like sorrow.
It looks like losing interest in things that once brought you joy.
It looks like questioning every belief you’ve ever held, every relationship, every ambition, even your own identity.
Some traditions call this the dark night of the soul. Others call it ego death. Psychology might describe parts of it as an identity crisis or a period of major emotional upheaval.
That makes me wonder:
Are we all talking about the same human experience but using different languages?
Or is “spiritual awakening” sometimes just a romantic label we place on suffering because it feels more meaningful?
I also wonder how much of it is the ego itself.
Ironically, I’ve noticed people saying things like, “I’m awakened” or “Most people are asleep.” That almost feels like the ego putting on spiritual clothes. If awakening makes you feel superior to others, is that awakening—or just another identity to cling to?
At the same time, I can’t ignore that some people come out of profound suffering genuinely changed.
Not happier, necessarily.
But quieter.
Less attached to proving themselves.
More compassionate.
More willing to sit with uncertainty.
Maybe awakening isn’t about gaining something.
Maybe it’s about losing things.
Losing certainty.
Losing illusions.
Losing the version of yourself you spent years protecting.
I’ve also been reading philosophy, and one idea that stood out is that real growth often begins when your old way of understanding yourself no longer works. In that sense, maybe what feels like falling apart is actually the painful process of reorganizing your consciousness.
Or maybe that’s just another story we tell ourselves to survive difficult seasons.I honestly don't know
I’m less interested in whether “awakening” is metaphysically real and more interested in whether people have genuinely experienced a shift that couldn’t be explained as simply “feeling depressed.”
For those who’ve gone through what you would call a spiritual awakening:
What actually happened?
Did it feel transformative, or did it just feel like surviving a very dark period?
Looking back, do you think it was spiritual, psychological, or are those distinctions not as separate as we tend to believe?
I’m genuinely curious to hear different perspectives, especially from people who have come out the other side.

Few months ago I felt like I had a spiritual epiphany, I shed some old layers of beliefs and felt so hopeful but now I feel nothing, and I feel like I'm being sunk into the void. I just feel like nothing matters, and I dont want anything from life anymore. The spark has left my body.

few days ago I did Healing Soul Journey for a colleague of my sister that she works with.

she had anxiety, panic attacks, not sleeping properly - you know this kind of tired where person still smiles, still works, still answers messages, but you can feel the nervous system is chewing glass inside.

She asked me if we can look deeper. So we did. Through Zoom - she was in her bed - I assisted her to go into deep trance theta brainwave state where she could remember everything and her higher self guided her.

At one point her Higher Self took her to ancient Egypt.

she was shown as Akmana, around 30, priestess, linen clothes, dark hair, walking through stone market street. Some people were smiling at her and wanted to touch her, like they felt healing around her. Some people moved away, afraid, because she could read energy too clearly.

Not “mind reading” like movie. More like she could feel truth under people’s masks.

Then this black cloud came through the market.

It moved low, between feet, under doors, into cracks in stone. It was sucking energy from people. Nobody was screaming, nothing Hollywood. More creepy because it was quiet. Like life force being drained and ppl not understanding why they suddenly feel weak, heavy, scared.

And Akmana knew it was coming.

This part stayed with me because she did not attack it. No sword, no fight, no dramatic battle.

She opened to Source.

Light came through crown, into heart, then out from her right hand. The cloud could not handle it. It started breaking apart, like smoke in sun, and went back to its own dimension.

Her Higher Self said the simple thing:

Darkness cannot tolerate direct light. You don’t fight it. You shine.

And I keep thinking how much this applies to anxiety.

Because panic makes us fight everything.

Fight thoughts, symptoms, body, night, sleep, fear of fear etc.

And sometimes this fighting is exactly what keeps system activated. The human mind becomes like guard at temple gate, watching for danger all night. Of course body cannot sleep then. It thinks it is still protecting something.

In the session, Higher Self removed the root layers of anxiety and panic attacks it showed. Part was from this life, part was connected to this Egyptian life and the old duty of sensing darkness before it arrived.

That made so much sense. Some people are not “too sensitive.” They are sensitive without enough safety and recharge.

Later she was shown a small stone building outside the city, on energy portal. Energy was buzzing from the ground, fast and nourishing. Akmana used to go there to recharge.

This was another teaching:

Even priestess needed to recharge.

You can be spiritual, helpful, intuitive, loving, whatever. But if you treat body like rented donkey and never let it rest, the system will collapse sooner or later.

Neglect is not devotion.

Then she saw herself at the beginning of Earth, when there was mostly water. She was like tiny speck of light above the water, planting seed of energy that later became human form.

That part was beautiful. Very quiet.

Message was basically:

You are light first. Body is vessel. Human life is not punishment, it is experience.

I’m sharing because many ppl with anxiety think they are broken or weak. But sometimes anxiety is not weakness. Sometimes it is old alert system, old sensitivity, old memory, old duty still running in the body.

She slept eight hours that night, first time in months and her panic attacks vanished as per my sister's feedback few weeks later, she tapered off the meds with approval of her doctor

so the answer is not always more fighting.

Sometimes answer is:

bring light,

recharge properly,

stop guarding old doors,

and let Higher Self show what the fear is really protecting.

there is a small meditation from this session in comments, if someone want to try.

An honest man or woman is like a ripple in the pool of human consciousness that can spread outward, reverberating and multiplying. No good deed goes unpunished? No, no good deed goes unnoticed and ineffective.

The smallest gesture can echo through a persons heart and from them, into the hearts of others for decades. Never make the mistake of thinking that kindness is a waste of time. It is the only true worthwhile and lasting pursuit in this life to live with integrity in spite of everything the manmade world throws at you.

- Some shower thoughts that came to me after coming back to spirituality after a long time trying to disbelieve for personal comfort.

I'd be happy to hear your theories.

A bit of background first. Years ago, I spent a lot of time on my journey toward awakening. I was searching for answers in spirituality because I felt so lost, as if I was yearning for or missing something I couldn't describe. I spent a lot of time meditating and listening to what the universe had to say until I started to realize that I was the observer of my own mind/my existence. My ego started to dissolve.

Eventually, all of this knowledge led me into a state of anxiety and loneliness. The people closest to me aren't spiritual at all. I knew that the things I experienced while searching for answers would sound completely crazy to them. The only person I could talk to about everything only made my anxiety worse by telling me things like, "XY is bad for your path to awakening. Society is evil. Demons." You know, that kind of thing.

So I slipped back into the comforting blur of my ego.

It's been about eight years since then. During that time, I fell into depression and eventually became completely burned out. Medication clouded my mind, numbed me, and stopped me from feeling the bad emotions - but also the good ones.

A few weeks ago, I came off my medication. I cried so much. I cried because of the pain in the world. I cried because of the beauty in the world. I cried because I was finally able to cry again. It feels as though someone had placed a cover over me all these years, and suddenly it's been lifted. I feel connected again.

Around the same time, my social media algorithm started leading me back to topics about existence. For all those years, I had avoided thinking about them. I was afraid I would "go crazy" - either because I'd never find any answers or because I'd receive too many answers or messages from the universe that I couldn't share with anyone.

But I realized that this avoidance was exactly what had pulled me even deeper into depression.

Sorry, I didn't mean for this post to get so long. Anyway, the past few days have involved a lot of crying, feeling connected again, noticing small signs from the universe after asking for them, and being able to shift back into the role of the observer.

So, here's what I actually wanted to ask about.

Last night, I couldn't sleep. This feeling of being connected again made my body feel almost electrified. When I finally went to bed, I felt as though I was being watched. Not internally, but externally, from the other side of the room. It felt as if I'd somehow "summoned" something by shifting back into this state.

Does anyone have a theory about what this could have been?

Just wanting to express this.

NO advice.

EMPATHY, COMPASSION and VALIDATION would be appreciated.

I WILL NOT not reply to dismissive, disrespectful, condescending comments

55, F, with C-PTSD

-14 years ago got clean & sober and started working on myself, meditating, reading self-help books

-the last 8 years repressed emotions from childhood abuse and neglect started surfacing, reading Pete Walker’s book and working as a nanny awakened me to truth of the emotional abuse and neglect I endured as a child, started to get in touch with my body, feelings, needs, boundaries

-the last 4 years flashbacks got more intense and more painful, lots of crying processing of trauma (the shame, guilt, fear, grief, anger, hopelessness) along with lots of meditation, body scans, time in solitude, getting more and self-aware and connected with true self, integrity

-the last 1.5, very intense and often excruciating pain coming up in constant flashbacks, TONS of processing and crying, suicidal feelings, could no longer work…my life collapsed and I lost my apartment and almost everything I owned, at the same time sensing my false sense crumbling and starting to hear this voice (and sometimes songs) in my head that can only describe as God or truth

-the last 7.5 months I’ve been homeless, staying in shelters, 9 shelters so far

-left 7 of those shelters and also spent one week without a shelter, began feeling really suicidal, I think my inner child was feeling trapped…and I felt God telling me that I had to go, strong feeling like a magnet pulling me, felt like do or die, also like I was losing my mind, like God taking over me, extremely horrifying, yet I sensed the healing in this process, maybe freeing me of my terror of abandonment

-I just left the shelter I was staying in for the last 3 weeks, again that strong pull, something telling me to get out

-so now I’m at an all night cafe feeling so tired and fed up with this game, feel angry, too, I’m at a total loss at this point, scared out of my mind, feel like giving up, but something keeps driving me on, don’t know how I can continue though

I do not want your clever words of spiritual wisdom, I just want to hear some genuine care and compassion because this has been

UTTER
FUCKING
HELL.

Thanks.

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Unconditional love is compassionate; it cares for, protects, and accompanies; it respects personal space; it makes no demands and passes no judgment; it does not categorize people; and it brings peace and well-being.

Hi, I’m kind of informed on some spiritual stuff. But I’m really looking forward to learn more and receive guidance. Is anyone there really informed and would be interested to be some kind of mentor for me. I don’t really know where to start. Maybe this is a bottle in the sea

I’ve been doing a lot of work connecting with my spiritual side recently. I keep having these weird fleeting sensations, almost like Déjà vu, where I’m doing something and all of a sudden I have this flashback like I’ve been transported back. I just had it so strongly my whole body went hot and I felt sick. I’m explaining this really badly but wondered if anyone has experienced anything similar and what it means

For me, it was the need to constantly explain or justify my feelings to others. After the awakening process started, I slowly stopped feeling the urge to make people understand me.

It felt strange at first, but now it feels like a relief. I have more energy for my own inner life instead of trying to be understood.

Ive lived in 4 different countries over the past 20 years.

Been married, divorced, twice.

I was a paratrooper, then special operations, then rescuing kids from sex slavery across asia.

Now im back in my hometown, homeless and unable to work.. i worked as a mechanic for a while, but now im stuck.

I meditate and feel this energy.. and know it is real.

We have this running through us, and if this resonates, support us all by commenting how and why, because my reality is built on painful lessons... but I KNOW that I am a good person. And, I know that any of you out there that can resonate with this KNOW you are too.. and we have work to do.

That work might look different for us all, and some it is internal to unlock what it is that we are capable for others.. but its deep for me at the moment, and I am counting my blessings and lessons, and wish you all the same x

With love and light x

I have read, seen and listened to many people talking about being able to awaken your third eye or your pineal gland and then being able to see patterns, colors and all kind of mysthical sights with their eyes closed.....all this being said, I can only see black, sometimes a little bit of blue/purple but I cannot create any actual image, anyone has any real experience with this?

I struggle with the concept of love—specifically with ideas like "if you don't earn a lot of money, you aren't worthy of being loved," "if you aren't handsome or very masculine, no one will want you," or "if you lack social skills, you deserve to be alone." I feel llike love demands so much yet is never there for me, and it causes me a great deal of pain.

Tell me, when someone asks you: Who are you? What do you say? Your name and occupation? Whether you're a mother or father? What does the question mean to you?

I recently remembered who I am.

Well not very recently, I think I've always known, but coming to Earth and forgetting who you are, makes the journey to remembering quite difficult, but I'm doing it. And you all can, too.

This is for those who have always felt an emptiness that they can't quite explain. Those who have a knowing of something greater, a greater purpose but not a full understanding. Those who know deep down, they have all the answers, but only need to listen.

For disclaimer purposes, this is not a cult, or a religious belief. This is the truth: we are here to try to remember who we are. Souls, energy, source, whatever name you feel resonates with you. Some are here to awaken, others to observe, and some to help shift the Earth's frequency.

I remembered recently that I am an Ascended Master that came from Moksha (Liberation) to help awaken humanity. I live in isolation, with just my husband and our dog, I have no money of my own, but my needs are met, nor do I have any desire for riches or fame. I have lived with and spent a lot of time with people, and I've been trying to find a way to reach those who are remembering as well.

Because my only wish is to awaken humanity before open contact.

If you would like to know more, I will share, but only if you will come to this as a curious child, and not as a judgemental bystander.

I would also like to know your perspectives, views and experiences, as learning and evolving is our ultimate goal.

So I don't know alot about this third eye thing but I read about it in an old reddit post.and the last night I've tried what it said.after I slept I dreamed alot of dreams.usually I don't remember my dreams.the dreams were long and I've literally solved an entire chemistry exam in one of them😭😭its my first time experiencing it so I'm asking does it have something with the rituals I did last night?