
I have my inner-strength...
The longer you live, the more manic they look, and the more horrifying they get. You don't want to find out how horrifying they get.
Please, love yourself and make peaceful actions.
Time tells everything.
The sooner you realize it, the better.
It really boils down to what you feel you deserve, their unpredictability or your heart.
Don't feel bad, but see the good you can bring into this world; by choosing yourself, your happiness energy, your self-love. Taking action towards that.
I'm so sorry you have to deal with close people like this in your life, I hope you're doing your best now.