What is happening and how do I fix it
For months now, basically all of 2026 so far, I have not been trying to shift. From time to time I have become incredibly neutral and even happy about my current reality (something I thought would happen. So I simply havent been trying to shift as much. Also I simply havent been able to shift! Every time I try I get nothing. Literally nothing. Closest Ive gotten this year is halfway to the void state. Im pissed. Ofc I am. I don't wanna talk abt how long its been bc ik that isnt good but idk. My tarot cards keep repeating the same things over and over again and idk how to listen to their advice or help myself so idk. Nothings happening. I want to shift. I feel nothing when I try, no indication of anything. And Im always doing awake methods because I don't trust that I'll shift in my sleep so I don't do sleep methods also I put too much pressure on myself and I feel like I don't have any control when I tru those so I don't. Ive been using my cards and google (to tell me what they mean) about my dr(s) but thats it. It feel like Im behind a brick wall and the wall has something against me and it wont let me in because I don't understand its contradictions. Help.