Can someone please help me
TW: discouraging
I have been trying to shift realities for 4 years. I have a few DRs I've been trying to shift to but it's mainly been one fictional DR that I've focused on. I've tried everything. Law of Assumption, lucid dreaming, affirmations, WBTB, guided meditations, counting, void state, scripting, hypnosis, visualizing, methods (Raven, Cinns, etc) and more. I've tried shifting during the day and night, in familiar and unfamiliar environments. I've even tried not trying.
I used to try simple methods I made up since I have bad ocd, get distracted easily, and meditation isn't easy for me. I actually had a few mini shifts I think in the beginning, where I could hear or smell things from my DR, or I would have intense dreams about people from my DR. Now that doesn't even happen.
I'm literally at the end of my rope. I just want to shift. I've watched probably every guided meditation on YouTube. I've watched so many advice videos. I took months-long shifting breaks. I stepped away from social media to find what works for me and that still didn't help.
I keep a dream journal and remember my dreams quite well, yet I still can't lucid dream. I've only had a few in my life and they always end with me forcing myself awake out of frustration because for some reason I can't fly or make portals or do any cool things.
I don't know what to do. I will admit that I am using shifting as escapism which some say not to do, but there was a time when I didn't and still did not shift. I'm also extremely stressed and depressed everyday from my CR life but I was also told that didn't matter.
There are times when I feel like I've shifted to a parallel reality where something feels slightly different like a house in my neighborhood being a different color, but those don't feel like successes because I don't know if I'm imagining things and I just want to go to my DR. I just want to go home.
Please help me. I feel like I've tried everything. Thanks for reading and sorry this was depressing.