question for experienced shifters about cr/dr selves during + after shifting
(i also posted this on another sub hope thats ok? just want to get as much feedback as possible)
ok let me try to explain what i mean. first of all this goes for dr selves in which they are meant to be a different person from you (self-insert ocs, for example). although yes, i know they are both me and ive always lived there etc, i've heard some shifters describe it as getting there being like "omg i shifted yay" meanwhile others get there and theyre like "yea this is just another day cause ive always been here, feels like home" (i lean towards believing the latter btw personal preference cause i wouldn't wanna 'accidentally' shift back)
my question is, once i shift to my dr, upon being there, how much of my cr 'consciousness' or whatever will be present? :0 cause on one hand, Yes i'd like to on some level Realize i've indeed shifted and be able to fully enjoy the experience knowing im indeed there (even though ive always been there hehe), on the OTHER hand, i don't want it to be this weird awkward experience in which it feels like im just.. watching the DR reality through another person's eyes? even tho they're me/im them? like im wondering if my DR self will feel like 'me' the same way i currently feel like 'me' in this CR? not like im acting on behalf of another or even 'invading' their life? esp if theyre different from my cr personality. basically how natural does it feel to be ur dr self and how much, if at all, is ur cr self aware of it i guess?
is it a different experience for everyone? a combination of both maybe? or just a matter of scripting that there is a 'separation' of my cr self awareness While im in my dr? (because i also plan to script that my DR memories dont 'mix' with my CR memories when i return, not that i forget of course but just to keep my lives separate so i dont carry over any emotional baggage if u will and also have things to look forward to when i go back to my dr etc!) ((does anyone else do that btw?))
bonus question (lol) does it feel weird or even scary to come back to ur CR after realizing u can live in different realities? im worried about potentially being affected by that upon my return (even tho its like a dream come true haha), but i suppose i could script that it won't affect me negatively whenever i decide to come back to my CR?
if u read all this and leave a comment addressing anything at all i greatly appreciate u lol besos