r/emotionalabuse

After years of emotional abuse my husband turned physical today. I am so ashamed. We have been together 20 years and have a 17 year old. She heard it. She drove me to the police station to report because he took my keys and phone. I am so embarrassed. The emotional abuse has gone on the majority of the relationship with name calling and belittling, but there has been some truly good times. Those times made me think it will be worth it because I love him. I have been so so wrong. Why?! What was I thinking? I don't even know. I don't want pity I just needed to vent because I feel alone and I am trying to keep my daughter out as much as possible, but she was deep in it today. Is she going to hate me? OK I'm done venting now. I think I got it all out. Please to any women do not stay. DON'T. feel free to reach out we can emotionally support eachother.

among other things, my ex partner used to scream at me, send me into a panic attack, then continue to scream at me while I was having a panic attack. Somehow, this behavior of his was my fault for sending him there and then after, my perception of the world was so wrong that my panic attack was “wrong” & my perception of him screaming at me was “wrong.”

Today marks one year without him & I haven’t had a panic attack in months. In my daily life, I can breathe easily again.

Fucking CHEERS my friends