r/Soulnexus

English is not my native language. I write simple, but I try to share important thing. Please be patient with my grammar.

This is from shamanic session I did with subject I call Omar. He is adult man from Houston area. During healing soul journey, he dropped into theta brainwave trance. Past childhood. Past trauma. All way to before he was born.

What he found there was not what anyone expect.

Before incarnation, Omar and his mother were together. No bodies. No space between them. Just consciousness. He describe it like this: "Like there's no separation and there's no space. I feel more like a blob than anything else." She was close, another node of awareness next to him.

Then he saw something like checklist. Experiences this life would bring. Weakness. Helplessness. Hard things. And he did not want to go.

He said: "I don't think I want to go." It will be difficult.

But then he undrestood that this is how light expands into darkness and help others. "It feels like it's a required experience." His Higher Self showed him why. The point was not to fix anything. The point was to understand. "It's not for changing. It's for understanding." You can study suffering from outside. But you only know it by living it.

His mother agreed on soul level to play the harsh role. Her mission was to make him tough enough for this world. She did it. But there was cost. Some beings volunteer for dark roles. Not because they are evil. Because the plan requires it.

When we finished, Higher Self had simple message. "Love everyone. Let go. Learn to forgive."

The Lesson

You chose this life. Even the painful parts. Not because you deserve suffering, but because before incarnating you wanted to understand something that can only be learned through direct experience. The people who hurt you may have been volunteers too. This does not excuse what happened. But it can change how you carry it.

Practical Exercise

Find quiet place where nobody will disturb you for twenty minutes. Sit or lie down, whatever is comfortable. Close eyes.

Take five slow breaths. On each exhale, let your body get heavier. Feel the weight of your arms, your legs, your head sinking into whatever supports you.

Now imagine you are standing at the edge of a vast, dark space. Not scary dark. More like the dark before stars were born. Warm. Infinite. This is the space before incarnation. Before body. Before name.

Step into it. Let yourself float. There is no ground, no direction. Just awareness.

Ask silently: "Show me the moment before I came here."

Do not force anything. Let image, feeling, or knowing come on its own. Maybe you see light. Maybe you feel presence of other beings near you. Maybe you sense a decision being made. Maybe you feel reluctance, like something inside you did not want to go. That is okay. Just observe.

If you see or feel something, stay with it. Do not analyze. Do not judge. Just be there, like you are watching a memory that is older than your body.

When you feel ready, take three slow breaths and come back. Open eyes slowly. Write down whatever you got, even if it make no sense. Especially if it make no sense. The logical mind will try to explain it away. Let it be strange.

Do this for seven days in row. First time you may see nothing. That is normal. The door opens when you stop knocking so hard. By day three or four, something usually surface. A feeling, a image, a knowing that was not there before. Trust it.

The consent problem gets discussed. What you actually do with it, less so.

If the soul that planned your incarnation existed outside linear time, with access to an expanded perspective most incarnated versions don't have, what is the actual response to that?

Resignation is one answer. Trust the higher self, find meaning in the difficulty, surrender to the plan.

But there's a structural problem with that. Deferring to a version of yourself you can't access or communicate with isn't alignment. It's passivity. And passivity just means the plan runs without you.

Mari Swa is direct about this. The only way out of the domination dynamic isn't acceptance. It's closing the gap. Becoming your own higher self while incarnated. Something concrete, not a metaphor.

That changes what consciousness expansion actually means. Not a spiritual hobby. The only real response to a situation where a version of you made decisions you can't remember agreeing to.

Curious how others actually work with this, especially those who've had direct experience of their higher self.

Psychology defines insanity as a severely disordered state of the mind. Albert Einstein defined insanity as doing the same thing over and over, expecting different results. What is the cause of spiritual insanity?

Spiritual insanity is caused by living in a self-centered world, where war, hunger, homelessness, greed, prejudice, inequity, exist, accepting the reality and helplessness these conditions cause.

We therefore settle into a pattern of self-preservation, concerned only for our own survival and success in the world, rather than being concerned for any others.

We have the ability today to feed the hungry, house those without shelter, treat climate change by accepting green alternatives. What prevents us from doing this is greed of the few dictating the needs of the many.

It is not too late to treat the causes of spiritual insanity, though the window for change may be rapidly closing. Unless we aggressively tackle the underlying causes of spiritual insanity together, and rid the world of the above scourges, there may not be an inhabitable world left for our children to live in.

~ Ken Luball ~

In order to survive in a self-centered world, we must find a way to accept all the terrible things happening to others. Caused by greed, prejudice, and humanity’s indifference to the struggles others endure, believing we cannot change what is happening, we therefore choose to ignore the reality of the countless hardships so many suffer.

Praying these things will not happen to us or anyone we love, we must justify these atrocities in our mind. To do so, we dehumanize others, convincing ourselves their life is not as important as ours. We convince ourselves their race, religion, ethnicity, wealth, or any number of other differences, justify what is happening to them.

Is this is the world we wish for our children to live in? Only when humanity truly realizes the equal importance of every life, regardless of our differences, and stops dehumanizing others, may our world evolve, allowing our children to live in a world of love, rather than fear.

~ Ken Luball ~

My name is Ken. My journey was long, awakening at 10 years old after a NDE and not truly understanding what that meant until the twilight of my life. What I did not expect is the extraordinary pain and sadness that comes with this understanding, realizing few of the many manmade problems and harmful emotions causing the suffering of so many need happen.

Living in an unenlightened self-centered world, where most worry only about themselves, ignoring the unnecessary hardships of others, is the cause of my pain and sadness. Hunger, when we have the ability to grow enough food now to feed all. Prejudice, inequity, war, homelessness, when none of these need happen if we treated each other and our planet with the respect they each deserve.

Those who awake, sensing the first messages from within, have no choice but to pursue a new path though life. An unrelenting feeling within makes them reevaluate their life choices. What I was not prepared for was knowing what could be, while watching others continue to harm and ignore each other and the planet that sustains us all.

I’m sorry for posting about my heartache. I normally do not do this. I know I must continue to try; I will until I am no longer able to. My soul aches though, as I continue to see so many who are asleep, accepting the status quo.

We must never give up. We all must try, for if we do not, our life will have been lived in vain.

~ Ken Luball ~

How do you balance between being grateful you have a good paying job vs you hate your miserable job and you want to quit but can’t because the job market sucks?

For the past few months I've been making crap posts on reddit about predictions that didn't come true. I think you need to know why. I've been haunted by a ghost from another matrix that has given me bullshit information and messed with me hardcore.

I realized the ghost wasn't evil but mischievous as hell. She told me things in messages that were going to come true but didn't. I knew she wasn't evil because my clearing audios didn't repel her. But she has lied to me.

So I been putting out somewhat bullshit posts on reddit. The truth is the age aquarius is coming. But I'm not sure when it's going to be here. When it does things on earth will change for the better. I'm sorry for putting out crap posts.

So that is what happened to me. I've had the haunting from hell. So I'll try not to make predictions aboutthe future unless I am sure they are going to happen. So please forgive me for the crap posts.

The age of aquarius is coming though. And when it arrives things on earth will change for the better until then have fun out there. Thanks for reading.

Hi all, I wanted to share a project that is important to me that I think some of you may resonate with! I have started a Spiritual coach/mentoring service called Aether Mentoring! I will be offering a mentor service with a strong foundation and encouragement in connecting with one's spirituality! This is something I have been wanting to do for years, but the timing wasn't quite right until now. Since you are surely wondering a bit about me:

My life trajectory has been quite an interesting one: I was always observant and questioning, even in my early teens. This led to quite a bit of cynicism, frustration, and even hatred for what I was perceiving in the world. My anger at the world and the suffering and atrocities it contained turned into a fervent atheism. It came from a good place, although it was misguided. This lasted for years throughout my teens and into college, until I discovered psychedelics and self-growth. What started out as a few exploratory experiences with psilocybin and lsd (more recreationally), quickly turned into something else. I kept being pulled like a magnet to discover the deeper layers of these tools. Up to this point I had only drank alcholol; I had never even smoked weed. I began using these psychedelics alone when the time arose. I remember feeling quite guilty and somewhat ashamed for this, but something kept drawing me to explore my mind and consciousness on these. After at least a dozen powerful experiences with these, I eventually discovered DMT, and this is where things really took off for me.

DMT completely shattered my paradigms, showed me how foolish and misguided I was, showed me nothing is what it seems in this world, and opened my eyes and mind to a stream of intelligence that I truly didn't think was possible. I explored this beautiful substance and created a long-standing relationship with it, discovering my own method and "rituals" for doing it, all done very intentionally and from a pure place. Although, I did fly a little too close to the sun. I started getting cocky and didn't allow for proper integration between my experiences. I was also beginning to use it as an escape, wanting to just live in that world and forget about this one, at least for a while. I got bit, and I definitely learned some harsh lessons. Since this time, about 9-10 years ago, it has been quite the rollercoaster of emotion, experience and growth. It took me quite some time to get to a place where I am stable. I felt and struggled with so many things. My spiritual path was lonely, frustrating, isolating, confusing, challenging as hell sometimes, but also so beautiful and special. Some 300 or so DMT trips and many psilocybin experiences later, I have since over the last few years learned to have a much healthier relationship with these entheogens. I have also spent hours upon hours of learning self-growth material which has done absolute wonders for me. I am at a place now where I want to share this with others.

One of the biggest motifs I remember about my path over the last decade was feeling so lonely and misunderstood. I basically had nobody to talk to about the things I was experiencing and learning. While I am thankful for the solitude in hindsight, there were times where I desperately just wanted someone to talk to who would actually understand me, and not just give me some generic answer. Or look at me like I had a dick growing out of my forehead. Aether mentoring is intended to fill this void, as well as provide other offerings that I feel that similar "life coach" type services are missing. I have always felt like many of the spiritual/life coach services were missing something, or where maybe inauthentic in ways. There will be no topics that cannot be visited and discussed. Nothing will be off limits, and nothing will be shunned away from. Paradigms will be challenged, and authenticity and true holism will be strongly encouraged. Examples of topics that will be discussed, visited, and integrated are:

Mystical experiences and what they might mean, teachings from various religions, mythologies, and perspectives, words and their etymology, the occult and esoteric and why certain information has been hidden, caring for the mind, body and soul, and understanding duality and paradox. Most importantly, this service is not about armchair philosophy. This mentoring is about learning and understanding these topics, integrating them, and improving one's life and character in a pragmatic way.

I know this was a bit of a long post; if you got this far, thank you. I am offering 5 free 1 hour sessions to get my project going. This will be a one hour long video session/consultation. If this sounds like a service you would be interested in, or perhaps you just want someone to talk to about your psychedelic/mystical experience who will actually hear you, please visit my website and book your appointment. Thanks again for reading and hope you all have a great weekend!

https://www.aethermentoring.com/

We live in a self-centered world of judgement, having opinions about others different from us. Race, ethnicity, religion, sex, wealth, are but a few of hundreds of comparisons we judge others by. Believing the lives of some are more valuable than others due to these differences, result in prejudice, inequity, and the needless struggles of many. Humanity even believes, due to its intelligence, its life is more important than all other forms of life or our planet itself. Nothing could be further from the truth.

Within every life throughout the vast universe is a spirit, a piece of god intimately linking each of us to the other. No one life, therefore, each with a piece of god within, regardless of our differences, accomplishments, or genus, is or ever has better or more important than another’s. Only together, recognizing the equal value of every life, may humanity’s problems begin to abate, and the spiritual evolution of our species finally begin.

~ Ken Luball ~

Been seeing people conflate higher vibrations or frequencies with exclusively positive emotions, and I personally believe this is not true.

Higher vibrations are waves with more energy density. An emotion like happiness can be high or low energy, like contentment (low energy) or jubilance (high energy). The same goes for other emotions like sadness and anger (melancholy vs anguish, simmering anger vs outrage).

Raising Earth to a higher vibration means raising the intensity of all emotions across the board. Its less dissociation overall but far more engagement with the entire spectrum of feeling.

A high frequency future is not all sunshine and rainbows. It is constantly feeling and sitting with the absolute raw power and energy of living emotion. The whole spectrum will be present, and we will have to learn to find meaning and mindfulness even in the most destructice types of emotions.

For the past few months I have had a ghost in my house. It's the ghost of someone from another matrix who hunts negative entities. Negative entities are soulless thought forms that are pure evil. They run earth and have for thousands of years.

So three months ago a ghost showed up in my house and has been terrorizing me ever since. She frequently interferes with my sleep.causing me to have scary nightmares and astral experiences. And she has told me that earth is getting liberated.

And recently she has threatened to kidnap me when earth gets liberated. And she told me repeatedly she was a negative entity hunters.

I'm not putting up with this kind of crap. If earth does get liberated and I disappear she is the probably the one who did it. So if I disappear when earth gets liberated it was her. So I want the word spread to other hunters out there that this kind of crap went down and I want to make sure I get located if I get kidnapped.

And just in case you don't remember my name is Gabriel Clay from knoxville, TN, USA. So if I disapear either the elite or rogue negative entity hunters did it. So I want that known and i want people to find me if I get kidnapped. Thanks for reading.

What do you mean you didn't plan for my joy but planned for my suffering? What do you mean you didn't plan for my success but instead planned for my destitution?

Folks, this is no higher self, this is a heartless parasite, the lowest of the low. Who creates a being to make it suffer, this is a betrayal on such a deep visceral level that it can't just be shaken off. I live on a daily basis with the suffering that this parasite planned a bad incarnation for me. But clearly I don't matter, my dreams don't matter, my suffering doesn't matter. The only thing that matters in this cursed existence is that the will of the parasite be done

Just imagine how evil and low consciousness do you have to be to doom your own creation to a very bad time. This evil is eternal,. this evil will continue on forever, there is no hope. Innocent beings will be created and doomed to suffer great harm for fucking ever.

In case people want to know I'm going to tell you why the earth is getting less dense. It's because the age of aquarius is liberating earth. The age of picese (the age of brutal tyranny and oppression) is over. And the age of aquarius has arrived.

So the age of aquarius is about getting rid of limitations. So it's going to reduce the earth and everything on it to less then thirty percent earth normal density.

This is a good thing. This means that we will have god like powers. Like we do in the astral. Poverty, disease, famine, etc will be gone because we will be able to manifest anything we want out of thin air.

At the moment the age of aquarius energy is making structures less dense. But it will move onto objects, people, and the earth itself. So don't freak out about your house getting less dense.

Most people aren't sensitive to changes in density. But some are. If you are just know that the density dropping is a good thing. So don't freak out about it. Thanks for reading.

The earth is becoming a high frequency less dense world. That means that in a few days it will get very less dense and high frequency.

To adapt you have to be as positive as you can be. Avoid being negative as much as you can. Stay positive or you will go down to a lower frequency version of earth and create your own hell.

You will know it's getting high frequency because you will feel more unconditional love. This is a good thing. So stay positive.

So be as positive as you can. Earth is getting liberated. And less dense. So be positive and you will be fine.

Most frameworks treat “you before birth” and “you in a body” as the same thing with just less information available. But if what defines a soul as distinct is its range of perception, not some fixed essence underneath, then a fundamental change in that range produces a genuinely different experiential entity. The difference is real, not just metaphorical.

Mari Swa makes that case pretty explicitly. The soul is constituted by its range of perception and its points of attention within that range. Alter that range fundamentally and you have a different soul, even if the underlying consciousness is shared with the source. That’s what makes the higher self’s position structurally dominating rather than just unfortunate. It’s one configuration of consciousness making decisions for another that it considers more of itself, but which doesn’t experience it that way from the inside.

The usual response to this is convergence, the incarnated perspective gradually meeting the one that planned the life. But what she actually describes is something more active than that. Become your own higher self while incarnated. Not just approach it, replace what it was doing for you with your own conscious navigation. The goal is to stop being the subject of someone else’s plan, even if that someone is technically you at a higher frequency.​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​

I had been feeling unwell all evening last night, but I decided to ignore the feeling and just go to bed, and sleep it off. About 3 hours later, I woke up to my chest hurting like hell, I felt weird, really weird, and reality started turning grainy around me.

Soon those grains started growing larger in my field of vision, until I could see them much clearer. It was writing, and it was all around me. Everything was made up of this writing, it was some language that was alien to me, but it did resemble greek a bit. It was everywhere, my sofa, the chairs, the walls, it covered everything, and I remember thinking in the moment: "Huh, so we *do* live in a simulation afterall!". Then my chest pain passed, and reality returned back to normal.

I'd like to hear if you people have any thoughts about this?

I’m currently living with my best friend. Through me, she also became friends with another friend of mine. Let’s call him X for now. Over time, X and I started dating, but I never told my best friend about it.

Whenever he used to call, she would sometimes be on the call too, and jokingly I would even say things like, “Why don’t you two date?”. I would also sometimes comment along with him whenever X said things like “her hands look nice,” “her legs look good,” or complimented her appearance in general. At the time, I treated it casually and jokingly, but looking back now, I understand how that may have made the situation even more confusing or uncomfortable from her perspective, but she seemed enjoying it. Enjoying in the sense that she took it jokingly. I think I acted that way because I didn’t want to make it obvious that we were dating, and honestly, I was still unsure about him myself. I fully accept that I should not have handled it like that.

She found out about us on March 31, 2026. Out of anger and hurt, she said that my ex is still suffering while I’m here dating other men. She also questioned our six years of friendship when I told her that I had never hidden anything from her except this. When I asked how she could suddenly doubt and question our friendship so deeply, she replied asking how she was supposed to know or trust me after this.

The reason I never told her initially was because I was uncertain about the relationship, afraid of being judged, and scared of what people would think. Ironically, when she found out, I felt exactly that judgment — especially when my ex was brought into the conversation. That part hurt me deeply because she knew that my whole family use to say the same thing that i made others suffers because of me. Me and X are no longer dating because he turned out to be an emotionally unavailable creature.

I genuinely care about her and our friendship, and this situation has been emotionally heavy for both of us. If possible, could you send healing energy to both of us, or help me understand how to move through this situation and emotionally recover from it?

Thank you for listening.