r/Spiritual_Energy

After a lot of suffering, dark nights of the soul, and years of inner work, I feel the most peaceful I’ve ever felt. I know there’s more growth ahead, more hard seasons, but right now, I’m genuinely at peace.

The strange part is I also feel lazier than I ever have.

I’m not in a rush. I have a career I’m passionate about, I run my own online business doing work I love, and yes, I could use more clients and income, but I don’t feel the push to make it happen. When I’m not with clients, I just follow whatever interests me: writing educational content, researching, slowly building a course. No urgency.

The weird thing is, I know more people would benefit from what I offer. I just… don’t feel moved to hustle for it.

Before my spiritual awakening, I was on fire, constantly setting new goals, creating content, chasing challenges, networking, always doing. Now that drive is just gone, and “lazy” is honestly the only word I can find for it.

Am I in my comfort zone? Definitely. Do I want to stay here forever? No. But there’s this quiet voice that says it’ll happen when it’s supposed to and I can’t tell if that’s genuine trust or just a story I’m telling myself to justify not pushing harder.

Anyone else been here? Is this integration, or is it stagnation dressed up as peace?

My FIL fell and broke his arm a couple of days ago and now he’s dehydrated and confused and his diabetes is out of control. Usually I can tap into a persons aura and know “what’s going on,” but being in an ER, if I even try, I seem to invite all the lost souls wandering the hospital to come find me.
Any advice? Thanks 🤞🏻

Hi everyone,

I'm glad this group exist, i just discovered it 🥳

It's been few months that i meditate, and few weeks that i meditate daily with all the BOTECs. Recently, i've found myslelf doubting about my practise. I need some advice and sharing experience

What truly means "blessing a center"? For me, it's feeling elevated emotions, but no really sure

When i want to feel elevated emotions in each center, i find myself feel the feeling only in the heart center. For exemple, when i want to feel the feeling of security/root in center 1, i actually feel it in the heart area. Are we supposed to feel physically the feelings in all the centers?

Thank you for your help 💖

I had a dream a few nights ago that I haven’t been able to stop thinking about. The vividness and deep rooted feeling it carried is stuck on repeat in my mind. I’m a very spiritual person, and have a few thoughts about it but I am curious to hear what yall may think.

Close your eyes and try to imagine this.
I am walking in a large field with wild flowers everywhere, similar to a hay meadow. It’s beautiful and sunny out. As I am walking, I see a chain link fence. As I get closer I see on the other side of, there are coyotes. A bunch of them. Babies and full grown playing around. I go over the fence to their side. One coyote locks eyes with me and starts to approach me. We are face to face and I lay down. As I am laying down, the coyote begins to touch my chakra points with its paws. As it’s doing so, I can physically feel myself “opening” or “unlocking” at each point it touches. The entire time we never lose eye contact. Once it reached my chest and I felt a change. And then the final prick, where the third eye sits, the coyote shifted into a woman. A beautiful, young woman. The second it pricked my forehead in the third eye, we were standing face to face still never losing eye contact.
She said “what are you doing here? People never come here.”
I said, “I love the ‘yotes, I have always loved the ‘yotes.” In the most sincere and deeply rooted in love way.
She said, “but we are homeless”
I said “no, you are free”
At this point, when I said that, her eyes widened a little. Her stance straightened up a little and she stepped back, kind of in a way that seemed accepting. Like she was impressed with my answer. In that moment she unlocked her gaze from mine and looked past me towards the side of the fence i had just come from. I turned to look, and when I did I see an enormous lake of fire. Hot, blue fire everywhere. It was no longer a beautiful field on a sunny day. It was a dark, eerie feeling.

Then the dream ended. I am not sure what to make of this. I am not sure what this means. I read that in Native American culture the coyote has several different symbolism meanings. “In Pueblo, it’s associated with evil, witchcraft, trickery etc. In Apache it’s associated with positive things such as hunting, war and running. In Navajo creation myths, the coyote is often a third figure in stories of the first man and first woman on earth. In various traditions it’s associated with certain parts of creation, including the placement of the stars in the sky. Other indigenous cultures depict the coyote figure as involved in other aspects of creation, including rescuing fire for man, causing a great flood or inventing death. “ (sourced from a study site.)

This dream was so vivid. So real. So deeply rooted. I’m so unsure of what to think of it. When I was young, really really young, I called coyotes “ ‘yotes” just incase yall were wondering what ‘yotes meant. (Pronounced yo-tees)

Anyways. I’d love to hear thoughts and opinions of others on this dream. It’s just stuck in my mind.

Last night I had a conversation with one of my guides (Thoth) about why we are here, and asked him several questions about existence within the framework of IFS. I thought I would share what I learned from him here :)

I asked him about the difference between Parts and Self-energy. My previous theory/understanding was that Self-energy is essentially our Soul, and our Parts are a function of our Soul-energy interfacing with our human body/brain/experience. He had a very significant distinction to make about that… (I’ve found that Thoth is excellent about teaching with specificity and helping me to understand!)

The distinction was that our Parts are also aspects of our Soul, not just Soul interfacing with physical. All of it is our Soul - Self-energy AND Parts. The difference between Parts and Self is that our parts are basically temporarily fractured/separated aspects of our Soul. Some of the hardships we face in this life wound us to such an extent that our Soul fractures itself in order to cope. And as we learn to unburden and heal these fractures, we move closer to the (re)unification of our Soul energy. It generally takes many many lives to learn how to (re)unify our Souls on Earth, and new fractures occur in every life to challenge us more. Self and Parts are separate, but also simultaneously one. We are here on Earth, and simultaneously our Souls are also in the Spirit realm. We return there between lives with the lessons we learned.

We undertake this process of fracturing and working on healing on Earth because our Souls are similarly fractured/separated from Source. The why of that wasn’t entirely clear to me other than it wasn’t a punishment, or something we did wrong - it just is.

We are simultaneously one with AND separated from
Source, each other, and ourselves. Our lives on Earth can help us move from separation towards more oneness by providing an opportunity for us to learn to heal our internal soul fractures AS WELL as our fractures with each other. Soul evolution. Soul school. It felt like the end goal wasn’t the point, that it is eternal and infinite, and the journey and movement is the point. I feel something may be missing in translation there due to my inability to conceptualize eternity and timelessness…

I recognize this isn’t a brand new idea - far from it - but integrating it with IFS concepts and language helped me to understand it on a deeper level than I did before.

He showed me that it is like an infinite mirrored reflection, of simultaneous oneness and separation - on and on and on - infinitely and all at once.

This brought to mind what Schwartz noted in the Spirituality of IFS sessions - that in his work he has observed that individual parts also can be subdivided into Self and sub-parts. And that he suspects that can go on infinitely.

Which then of course connects with sacred geometry and fractals.

It’s amazing and expansive (for me) to think about the nature of our existence through this lens. I also recognize my brain can only partially comprehend the concept of infinity and eternity and timelessness.

Anyway - I’ve read similar things expressing similar messages before. But I find that the information always lands more deeply for me when it is personally conveyed by a guide. It’s experiential then, not simply conceptual. I found this to be an especially helpful lesson for me with Thoth and so I just wanted to share! It shifted my perspective of the distinction of Parts and Self, and deepened my understanding of our relationship to ourselves, one another, and Source.

Have any of you had similar or different conversations like this about existence with your guides? I’d love to hear about them if so!

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Keep it bean no funny shxt this this era weird / confused asf sad so many mfs out fight own spiritual ware just so many empty vessels I pray everyone gets the healing they soul needs cause the devil is in all time works it’s all mfs just follow suit to the agenda 💯‼️

A friend of mine has been dealing with ongoing negative spiritual experiences for a while now — nightmares, fear/anxiety at night, strange sensations, and feeling mentally drained. We’ve already tried things like cleansing baths, prayer, meditation, and limiting negative media, but results have been inconsistent.

Not looking for fear-based responses or anyone claiming “instant removals.” Mostly hoping to hear from people who’ve worked with trustworthy practitioners, protection methods, or spiritual approaches that actually helped long term.

YBudget is limited right now, so even general guidance or recommendations would be appreciated.

Im curious on the best way to soul cleanse? im not sure what im really asking but I seen recently someone describing these negative spirit things that can feed on your energy or latch on to you for long periods of time causing you to feel drained emotionally and physically.

Spiritual ego : To define the spiritual ego, we must first look at how the mind constructs identity. In contemplative traditions, the ego is generally understood as the "false self"—a conditioned, protective identity built from our past experiences, fears, and survival mechanisms. The spiritual ego occurs when this exact same protective mechanism adopts spiritual concepts, language, or practices, but uses them to maintain control, separation, and a sense of superiority. It is the survival mind wearing a spiritual mask. Instead of leading to true integration or healing, the spiritual ego uses the appearance of enlightenment to bypass vulnerability and avoid facing the raw, unhealed parts of the human experience. As the wisdom traditions remind us, the ego tries to be authentic, whereas the true Self simply is authentic.

Here is a breakdown of how the spiritual ego operates across different dimensions of the self:

1. It Thrives on Duality and Separation True spirituality points toward oneness and connection. The spiritual ego, however, relies on the dichotomies of the world—like good/bad, awakened/asleep, or high-vibration/low-vibration—to feel secure. It creates an "us vs. them" mentality, making the individual feel spiritually superior to those they deem "unconscious." This is just the nervous system's old comparison strategy repackaged in spiritual language.

2. It Uses "Healing" as a Performance When the spiritual ego is running the show, the healing journey becomes a metric for success rather than a return to wholeness. It chases spiritual milestones (certifications, profound insights, rigid moral purity) to earn worthiness, completely forgetting that worth is inherent. It performs its piety or outrage to ensure it is validated by a specific crowd, outsourcing its internal authority to the group.

3. It Bypasses the Nervous System The spiritual ego loves to stay in the intellect and the "higher realms" because the body holds the actual pain. It will use concepts like "forgiveness" or "letting go" to prematurely skip over genuine grief, anger, or nervous system dysregulation. It denies the biological reality of the body's protective survival signals, viewing negative emotions as a spiritual failure rather than a biological communication.

- Part 1: Spiritual & Meaning Audit (Is your spirituality fear-based or love-based?)

1. Do I believe God loves unconditionally?
2. Do I fear punishment?
3. Do I trust inner guidance?
4. Do I believe in inherent goodness?
5. Do I see life as meaningful?
6. Do I feel guided rather than controlled?
7. Do I feel supported by the universe?
8. Do I believe suffering has meaning?
9. Do I trust healing?
10. Do I feel connected to all?
11. Do I feel at peace with mystery?
12. Do I know I am loved?

- Part 2; The Outsourced Authority Audit (The "Blind Devotion" Test) We cannot heal if we carry shame, but we cannot awaken if we remain in denial. Use this to gently notice if your spirituality has become a defense mechanism that requires you to abandon your own internal authority.

1. Do I outsource my moral compass and safety to a leader or institution because it feels less terrifying than trusting my own divine inner guidance?
2. Do I adopt the outrage and talking points of social media posts without pausing to consult my own heart?
3. Have I confused blind obedience to human leadership with genuine devotion to the divine?
4. Do I feel panicked or guilty when my internal sense of truth contradicts the teachings of my chosen spiritual or religious crowd?
5. Do I accept my group's interpretations of reality as absolute facts without applying my own calm, critical thinking?
6. Do I actively support policies, people, or systems that create harm, while simultaneously claiming a spirituality based on unconditional love?
7. Is my empathy conditional, extending only to those who share my exact religious or political labels?
8. Do I justify cruelty, exclusion, or judgment in the name of my faith, ignoring that hatred is healed only by love?
9. Do my daily actions reflect the pathway of highest love for the planet, or do they merely defend what I fear?
10. Do I use spiritual language to mask a deep, underlying need for power and control over others?
11. Am I clinging to this specific group because my nervous system equates "belonging to the crowd" with "survival"?
12. If my religious or spiritual group were to suddenly reject me, would my sense of identity and worth completely collapse?
13. Do I perform outrage or piety online to ensure I am validated by my spiritual peers?
14. Does my faith require a constant "us vs. them" dynamic to feel strong, relevant, and unified?
15. Am I afraid to ask questions about leadership motives or facts because my belonging depends on my silence?
16. If a long-held belief of my group turns out to be false, what am I terrified this might mean about me?
17. Am I actively avoiding looking at the hypocrisy of my leaders because acknowledging it would completely shatter my worldview?
18. Do I feel a sense of internal contraction at the thought that I may have supported actions contrary to my true nature?
19. Is my intense devotion actually a trauma response, protecting me from the heavy responsibility of individual sovereignty?
20. Am I protecting my beliefs because I am secretly afraid of who I would be without them?
21. Do I quickly label those outside my group as "evil" or "lost" to avoid facing the shadow aspects within my own community?
22. Do I feel rage when my group's actions are questioned, confusing nervous system defensiveness with faithfulness?
23. Have I allowed external authorities to define who is "worthy" of love and who is not, overriding my own innate compassion?
24. Do I ignore clear red flags about spiritual leadership because starting over and thinking for myself feels too exhausting?
25. Is there a "still, small voice" inside me raising doubts that I am desperately trying to suppress with religious noise?
26. Would my spiritual beliefs still hold true if my body felt completely calm and free from the fear of punishment?
27. Do I falsely believe that the divine requires me to betray my own conscience and common sense to remain in "alignment"?
28. Can I tolerate the discomfort of standing alone in my sovereign truth, rather than blending comfortably into a crowd's illusion?
29. Am I willing to accept that true spiritual authenticity is an unforced uncovering of love, and never a compliance to fear? ───

Interpreting the Results These audits are not meant to judge you. They show where fear still organizes life and where love has already taken root.

Fear shows up as: • Control • Exhaustion • Comparison • Conflict • Outsourcing power

Love shows up as: • Presence • Trust • Sovereignty • Connection • Creativity

For love orienting thought audits on other topics such as dating, family, divorce, co-parenting, big purchases and more, make your request to Dr.B.  

Use this to notice if spirituality has become a performance.

​Do I feel judged easily by others on a similar spiritual path?
​Do I define myself by my spiritual roles or labels rather than by simply being?
​Do I feel a sense of superiority over those who are not "awakened"?
​Am I chasing validation for my spiritual insights or healing progress?
​Do I share my truth online for performance rather than genuine connection?
​Do I compare my spiritual journey to others online?
​Does my narrative create villains (the "unconscious") and heroes (the "healers")?
​Am I rigidly attached to spiritual rules to help me feel stable?
​Do I judge myself harshly for not being as "healed" as other people?
​Is my empathy being directed toward division (us vs. them) rather than collective love?
​Do I fear being ordinary?
​Do I believe my inner guidance is better or more special than someone else's?

Feedback is appreciated,

My intention is the pathway of highest love for myself, for you, and for the planet,

Sincerely,

Dr.B

recently i’ve realised everytime i try to mediate, after taking in a few deep breaths, i feel that my right side chest starts burning or has a tingling sensation. not extreme right more like centre right. and the moment im done with my meditation the sensation stops. this sensation also disturbs my concentration which is one of the reason why i kind of avoid meditating. this sensation also only occurs during meditation. any solutions or thoughts as to what could be the possible reason this is happening? thank you have a good day.

Am I crazy, or is this actually a thing? Ever since I was little, I’ve had this really strong image in my head of a guy that feels weirdly familiar to me. I don’t know if it’s intuition, imagination, manifestation, limerence, or if I’m genuinely losing it. I can picture him so clearly sometimes — tall, tan, muscular, dark black hair, possible with tattoos, maybe green eyes. There’s even this specific image I always come back to of him leaning shirtless against a white kitchen bench. It’s oddly specific, and it’s been in my mind for years. There’s also a name that keeps randomly popping into my head: Rhys or Reece. What makes this feel stranger is that every time I meet a new guy, I immediately know it’s not him. I can’t explain it. I’ll literally think, “Nope, not my person.” It’s this deep feeling I can’t shake. Sometimes I feel like I can sense his energy or presence around me — like a strong, guarded masculine energy. Almost like I can communicate with him in a weird intuitive way. Typing this out makes me feel insane, but it also feels real to me at the same time. The closest way I can explain it is that I miss someone I haven’t met yet. Not in a desperate way, but in a very calm, certain way. Like somehow I already know him and eventually our paths will cross. Has anyone else ever experienced something like this? Was it intuition, a coping mechanism, your imagination, or did you actually end up meeting someone who matched that feeling?