My insanely toxic ex bsf is back
This is a very long story so I'm probably going to forget to mention some things but basically I met this girl at like 10ish and we hated eachother for whatever reason I was overly aggressive so I would lose my temper pretty easily leading to some occasional bullying at school. I was very physical with some of my friends and idk this sounds real bad but in primary school I would strangle her mostly as play fighting but I would take it too far at times but she would tell me it "felt good" and to do it again wich is what most likely lead her to self harming, bad. So now we're in year 7 at college (yr 7 to 13) and she was cutting herself and she convinced me and our other friend s that it was for the better yk instead of killing herself. She had and still has an even worse home life I don't know the full extent but what I do know is her parents wouldn't give her food for school ever (wich likely lead her to her ED) her mum would argue then apologise then take it back and said very strange things. Anyways all was well enough up to yr9 when she developed anorexia again I don't know the fulk extent as it wasn't my business but she would always make me and s feel bad for eating large amounts and processed food. This was obviously very scary at 12 - 13 years old and I didn't know what to do. She was already in counseling for her self harm as she had run off then came back to me in class crying with blood dripping down her wrist I tried to cover didn't work. Then she started getting into phycology and from my point of view began to use it to control and manipulate people. She is an absolute genius she can peice anything together in seconds and knows exactly what to say to anyone wich is how she can make friends and keep them close. All of this is extremely difficult and she is so strong for getting through it this is not at all why we are no longer friends it's the way she would make you feel guilty for believing or thinking anything different to her how it is impossible to prove a point or get through to her at all and the way she made me feel in general. Anytime she wanted to hangout I was sick with anxiety she genuinely scared me. At 14 was when she started drinking with her sister and taking edibles wich me and s were very clearly against she would make us feel bad for not wanting to disobey our parents call us boring and say we're wasting our teen years because we didn't want to do drugs drink sneak out or ditch class. The toxic behavior was continuing and to this point my parents know nothing. Then new years she asked me to bring alcohol I stole some from my sister wich I shouldn't have done I am I'm control of my own actions I take accountability for that. But she also bring a bottle of wine and we drank it I wasn't wanting to drink as much because it tasted horrible and I was scared she was pressuring me pushing the bottle to my mouth forcing me to drink it we walk to town and it was fine we had fun until it started wearing off and I got tired I wanted to wait for the fireworks and go home she said she was starting to feel sober again and got upset so she chugged an entire bottle of vanilla essence. I was getting upset because I just wanted to go home. After drank the vanilla essence she started going genuinely phycotic rolling around in the dirt Making out with a random boy making out with anyone she knew running around ignoring hitting me. I wanted to cry so bad and wanted to leave more than anything so I walked off yo call my dad for help. She saw this as me leaving her drunk at the lake alone. I left and my dad had to tackle her to get her into the police car she jumped out and fell over they threatened to put her in a holding cell so she called her parents. They took her and dropped her of at one of her friends house in the year above she apparently stole more of their alcohol vomited and ran off and passed out in the forest. I wouldn't know If this is true but I do know she ran off and everyone was trying to find her. Then we hangout the next say she was talking it up like it was so cool then we hung out again. She brought 5 bottles of vanilla went around a corner and secretly drank it. Again she was crazy it was genuinely terrifying. She couldn't screaming crying hitting punching all of it. She ran out onto the road we had to DRAG her back in. She called her friend for the year above dad starting screaming at the top of her lungs cussing him out cussing his son out because he didn't want to talk to her anymore after new years. Also I forgot to mention in yr10 she came to school high and asked me to lie for her wich I did not do and somehow I ended up apologizing. Anyways we left and when her parents arrived she apparently started acting completely normal and left. Then she came to the schools evening for parents and students about to become seniors drunk again wich before this she told me she would stop drinking since it doesn't relax her like weed. Anyways she came to school drunk I wasn't there but she had to be taken by police again and they went through her phone and found things she was doing online to make money illegal.(NOT of) she was suspended for 2 months and me and a went to a couple counseling sessions before it became to much for me to bother with (I know thats bad). She came back and tried to make friends again and when she realized we weren't having it she wanted to go to the counselor when we agreed and smiled and laughed wich she would do any time I woukd get upset at her so I walked away wich caused her to apparently laugh more. She ended up sending us both apologies told me to "reach out" and said I could Un add her wich I responded thank you and unadded her. Me and s started getting closer to a really cool group of people who we are now friends with and things were going well enough. She went on a holiday for a couple months and we were all feeling pretty good. Also forgot to mention that during her suspension she told a neighbor to drive her to my house (ALEDGLY said her parents were abusing her) came to my house begging to talk to me and told my parents she would end herself if they called her parents and then she ran off again. Anyways to today. She came back from holiday And tried to sit with me s and our friends as she knew a few of them before she felt the vibes were off obviously because none of us wanted her there so she left with two other girls. We started talking about her and that's when I was told she was telling people I said things to her I did not say probably trying to victimize herself and spreading straight lies. This was told to me by ine person I don't know if it's true I don't know if it's partially true I don't know if that's her interpretation she isn't well and I am genuinely scared of her. Idk why I posted this but I've yapped my friends ears off about this enough and I js want validation I'm not going to lie. And to get this off of my chest as much as a reddit post will lmao. I've probably missed alot of other things that happened that just seem small compared to the rest but this is the main events.