My wife is dealing with PPD
Vent:
It has been 5 months now. Every night, it's just her drinking and yelling at me. It genuinely feels like she's just looking for anything to yell about. When our baby needs something, she just groans and ignores the issue. She always seeks a reason why the diaper doesn't need to be changed or the baby doesn't need to be fed. I am the stay at home parent. She will go a full week sometimes without feeding the baby even once. I am sleep deprived, not because of the baby, but because of her.
I don't want to feel this way, but I am starting to genuinely hate her. She still does the things she enjoys. She still socializes and laughs with other people. When it comes to me and our baby, it feels like emotional neglect over anything else. It feels like I am doing EVERYTHING. I clean up after HER animals (I asked her not to get them while I was overseas). I do 98% of the childcare. I clean the house. I do her laundry at midnight so she can sleep. I wash all the bottles. I track the feeding and the exercise. I do ALL of the skin to skin. That's not even an exaggeration. After the first week, she stopped doing it entirely.
She seems to get enjoyment out of insulting me and saying I'm lazy because I get to "relax at home all day." I have been in high gear for 5 consecutive months.
Does this get better? She isn't seeking treatment. She's just drinking 1.75L of vodka every 3 days and emotionally shitting on me. I'm not perfect. I'm an asshole, too. But I have been seeing a therapist. I have been trying so hard. I don't want to try for her anymore. I don't want to be with her anymore. I love her, but I also hate her and I absolutely do not like her at all.