9 weeks PP and my dog died
I’m 9 weeks postpartum and last week we had to put our 12 year old dog down. I’m struggling ever since. I know people say once you have children, your pets take a back seat but she was our first baby. At 23, we were practically babies ourselves when we got her. She’s been a constant in our lives for the last 12 years and just not having her here and seeing her every day is really getting to me. I was always home a lot and she was never anywhere where she was out of my sight and I am seriously struggling to adjust to feeling so alone in my house (despite a husband who has been off sick, a newborn, and another dog in the house). Not a day goes by where I don’t cry when thinking about her (although I think that’s perfectly normal at this stage).
I have been incredibly lucky in that postpartum has been incredibly easy for me (pregnancy was a bitch to be fair). It’s all of the rest of life that has been hard since my LO was born (again, sick husband which is a long term issue that I knew could raise its head but just didn’t expect it so early after our little girl was born, and now dealing with the death of our dog, plus some ongoing family issues that have been a stressor for the past 6 months). I just feel so lost at the moment. Im also self employed so had to go back to work at 3 weeks postpartum, which wasn’t an issue. My hours are very flexible and I love my job), but it’s all just feeling like a lot right now.
I’m not sure what I am looking from this post. I guess just someone else who has been through the grief of losing their first dog as an adult.