One of my friends hates me and its ruining everything.
Hi reddit. I (15M) am in high school and this school year is my first year in public school. I should also preface this by saying that I am extremely sensitive.
I have made a few new friends and i even have a girlfriend. One of my new friends, though, has a huge problem with me. My friend (15M), who I’ll call Larry, is very judgmental. We only recently became friends (in January of this year) and I never noticed that he hated me. One day last week, he suddenly told my girlfriend that he hates me. Larry believed that I was an age player and he would gossip about me to another one of my friends. The reason he thinks this is because I am and age player who likes to be babied is because I am VERY clumsy and sometimes I put on random voices (one of these voices is a baby voice).
When I found out that Larry hates me, i started ignoring him. He sometimes playfully mocks me but honestly that just brings my mood down even more, since ignoring people is very hard for me. But with my mood being down everyone else’s are too. Which leads me to my multitude of issues.
My first issue is that Larry hating me has brought a depressive state over me for a few weeks. This depression makes my girlfriend worry about me and also distance herself from me since she believes that i would feel better away from everyone. I have communicated that I am happier when she is around me more and that she shouldn’t have to do that, but i can’t help but still feel this distance between us.
My second problem is that all of my new friends have been pissing me off more and more. Everything they do can set off a trigger in my brain only because of Larry’s hidden hatred for me. I now feel that all of my friends hate me and are just hiding it.
The advice I need is how I can clear my name with the friends I love and sever ties with Larry, and if there is anything that I am doing wrong.
Additional info:
I am not an age player. Not at all.
I am not diagnosed with any mental illness or disability.
The voices I make (or rather impersonate) include but are not limited to: western cowboy, southern mom, indian accent (only for specific words), British woman, nerd, anime nerd, and of course baby talk.
This is my very first time posting on reddit since I’ve never had the guts to before today.
I am sorry if my writing is bad or hard to follow its been a while since I have written in this format.