Need advice!
Me (24f) and my boyfriend (38m)have been dating for just over a year. I moved in with him pretty quickly when started dating. At the time I had a crush on him and I’ll common sense flew out the window. I love him so dearly but we have major issues with communication and both wanting different things. We’ve had a few talks but he can never seem to understand what I’m saying or if we sit down and talk about ways we can improve our relationship he agrees but nothing changes and it’s the same loop over and over again. I’m scared of my own judgement and thinking I’m just being too dramatic. For example I am 24 and I would love to have kids in the next few years. Partner is nearing his 40s. He says he wants kids but way later down the track than when I want kids. it makes me jealous when I see other people I know sharing things about their kids or announcing a pregnancy and he doesn’t understand. He was brought up in a very wealthy family and had a lot of things handed to him and still does. He is very close to his parents. I on the other hand was raised in a basically poor family we struggled but we just got there surviving of every paycheck. I don’t have a good relationship with my mother and I’ve only recently moving back to my hometown have formed a relationship with my father because my family is so strained the family members I do talk to are everything to me but he always thinks of his family as a priority and gets offended when I have to miss out on a family dinners with his family or events to go to a family gathering of my own. he doesn’t say this but the look he gives me I know. I’m really struggling because I know that he doesn’t want kids on the same timeframe that I want kids and I don’t want to feel like I’m pushing him into something. I love him but I don’t know if that’s enough to stay with him or I should just rip the Band-Aid off. Every time I think about it, I get incredibly sad because I love him but at the same time I feel like I might be wasting precious time in my own life. I always put him first and everything in his house I paid for because I’m in a higher paying job he kind of assumed that I would be the one paying for groceries and anything we needed in the house. I could go On and On and writing these things down. I feel kind of stupid but I still love him.
Sorry, this is such a long post, but I’m really struggling with what I should do any advice would be greatly appreciated