Avoiding the BS straightaway, I have the guilt of not giving my 100% for CUET. But let me describe this inner-conflict and hopefully you guys can talk to me about this.
Since 9th grade, I have been a wanting to take Commerce to become a CPA (specifically ) and study in Bangalore specifically too, while looking for the top colleges in this field, I saw that Christ University was in Bangalore and ever since then I have been wanting to go to Christ.
But then during my 11th grade my parents, started talking about SRCC and how it should be my target college. I enrolled for CUET preparation but only a part of me wanted to go to SRCC just for it's "reputation", SRCC is a wonderful college but I personally would not go there due to my personal reasons (I would feel extremely lonely and I don't like Delhi).
Right around the time of Christ applications opening, I missed the first round due to complete ignorance and applied for the second round which had a course that integrated CPA Australia into it's curriculum. Now since I got into the university I always wanted to, the city I wanted to study at and also the course that coincidentally also aligned with my goal (I had no idea there was a course like this earlier). Should I feel guilty for not trying my hardest for CUET? Since it was never in my heart to go to SRCC other than my parent's will?
Also another reason why I stopped studying for CUET is because of the lack of time I have, while everyone get's to enjoy for months after their boards and college admission processes, Christ opens on June 10th. Having such less time and prepping for CUET would only waste my time more towards something that is literally obsolete.
I do feel guilty for not living up to my parents initial expectations although they are more than merry with Christ University, Please let me know whether I should feel ashamed/guilty or possibly content and happy that I got what I always wanted?