u/CalmCommunication611

Since starting Tamoxifen 20 mg, I’ve been having really intense, realistic dreams that I can still remember clearly after waking up. I normally never experience anything like this.

For example, I dreamed — and honestly thought I could actually hear — my father on my right side sorting out plastic tarps. It was loud rustling noise. The strange thing is that my father passed away a long time ago, and on the right side of the bed where I’m recovering post-op, there is literally just a wall. But it sounded completely real, and I was really confused when I woke up.

Last night I dreamed I was on a train and got attacked because I have cancer. It was so bizarre and intense.

I’m wondering whether Tamoxifen can trigger things like this, or if it’s more related to the psychological stress of the illness itself. Has anyone else experienced something similar?

I had a tumor in one breast. According to the biopsy, it was stage 2, ++-, with lymph node involvement. An Oncotype DX test was performed, which showed a recurrence score of 10 and indicated that the benefit of chemotherapy would be less than one percent.

I contacted a hospital that also performs mastectomies for transgender patients, and I was able to get a surgery appointment there. The result is great. It looks like a trans mastectomy rather than one done for breast cancer.

Unfortunately, the pathology results were not as good as expected. The tumor turned out to be more than twice as large as initially thought, so it is now considered stage 3. In about two weeks, I will start radiation.