u/CameronBorn175

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I passed my road test! almost failed parallel parking but i made it through. I am officially a licensed driver! And to think i was getting so upset over it just about a week ago. First place i drove to was the gym and got a light leg day in. I was already pretty tired from driving super far (my dps place is 30 min away from my house...) Being fat was fun but i think this summer will be the summer I get thin. And I can finally do it on my own terms, before I was in a football program and every summer we had weight room and I saw little results in my physical form (because we did NOT do any cardio also wasnt watching my diet lol) but i quit that shitshow bc it got too negative (also it gave me a concussion :( )

Im still dealing with some things (like some body dysphoria and that crush from earlier) but I think ill be okay. If your reading this just know that if your going through a tough time, the only way out is through. things will get better.

chipotle bowl with brown rice, black beans, steak, guac, lettuce, queso, and light green salsa (yes i get chipotle alot)

actually more like worst month of the whole year. im 17 and tried to get my drivers license after a tumultuous effort since i was 15 to convince my parents to let me do online school (they really wanted in person for some reason?) i applied to be a fucking trucker. i genuinely HATE the tx dps website 😭😭. And while it seems like a kinda funny mistake i got so mad at myself. like really mad, i was upset for the whole rest of the day. Its just been people (especially teachers, for some reason) have been very much acting like i’m the stupidest person they’ve ever met and it’s really hurt my self esteem. I have the lowest GPA in my whole class, but i go to a super small school so my “very low GPA” is a 3.81. And also we have a class of 5 people so it’s really not as big of a deal as they seem to make it out. Final thing, sorry for rambling, is that the guy i have a crush on (i’m bi) told me that if i “lost weight“ then i would be the most attractive person he knows. So yeah been feeling like a stupid fat loser recently.

anyways, chipotle bowl with brown rice, black beans, steak, lettuce, guac, queso, and light green salsa

UPDATE THINGS GOT A LITTLE BETTER: Im taking my road test on monday! I would say im a pretty good driver so i WILL pass my road test. I was getting so bothered by the fact that they didnt send me a confirmation email about my rescheduled appointment I think i had a mild anxiety attack. Anyways time to study for 2 finals that are tomorrow.... 💔 also thank you for all your kind comments!