Struggling to tell the difference between relationship anxiety and genuine interest.
The idea of a QPR or a lifelong roommate is very appealing to me. I (23F) have never seriously dated, I haven't even seriously tried to pursue something since I was about 18. What turned me off then was the genuine sick feeling I felt when I thought about the idea of being in a relationship, having to see someone I was romantically involved with on a regular basis, having to integrate them into my life, etc.
I realize as someone who has never been in a real romantic relationship, it's uncharted water for me so some of it is just the idea of being in unfamiliar territory. Obviously, most people's lives and routines change a bit when they get into a relationship, even if their lives don't revolve around their partner. (Which they shouldn't)
But I can't tell if I am genuinely repulsed by the idea of a romantic relationship, or if I would be open to it but I'm just anxious about the unknown. I also get stressed about connecting with someone, only to find I can't give them the romance they're looking for and wasting their time/hurting them.
I'm also on the asexual spectrum, so that makes things more confusing. The idea of a physical relationship also is a bit repulsing to me, but I think I would be open to it with the right person. But I also know I am much, MUCH less experienced than most people my age and that's only going to get more evident as I get older.
Any advice or further guidance is appreciated. 🤍