Am I weird for wanting oral to end quickly so we can just have sex?
I fake enjoying oral because I feel like I’m supposed to love it
This is honestly embarrassing to admit because women are “supposed” to love receiving oral and men seem to take pride in being good at it, but most of the time I secretly wish it would end.
I fake moans, fake enthusiasm, fake the whole thing because I don’t want to hurt anyone’s ego or make them feel rejected. Meanwhile internally I’m getting overstimulated, mentally checking out, or just waiting for penetration instead.
What makes me feel even more confused is that I have enjoyed it with women before, so I know it’s not that I physically can’t enjoy oral. But with men it almost never works for me. It feels too intense in the wrong way, or too repetitive, or disconnected from what actually turns me on.
And honestly nobody touches me as well as I do myself.
I feel guilty even writing that because it sounds selfish or broken or something. But I think I’m so aware of exactly what rhythm and pressure works for me that when it’s “off,” I can’t relax anymore. I start thinking about random things while they’re down there trying their best.
Sometimes I literally just want them to stop after two minutes and have sex with me instead, but I pretend I’m enjoying it because I feel like there’s something wrong with me for not loving it.
I’ve never admitted this out loud before.
EDIT: I think I did not expressed that right. It’s not that I dislike oral, it’s just not the “main event” for me the way people often describe it. I can enjoy it, but I personally prefer penetrative sex.
Also, I don’t fake moans or performances. I communicate preferences when needed. The point of this post was simply curiosity because people talk about oral with SUCH intensity that I started wondering if others feel more neutral about it too. Mo mmm