u/CapitanAI

I've been on MJ over a year and I've lost 42lbs (22%).

I haven't lost anything since March, but I haven't been trying. I've not been tracking and I've been moving house and overwhelmed at work. But I've a BMI of 23.5 and size 10-12 and started wondering would I just not lose the extra 7lbs and stay here.

I ended up getting an inbody scan to see how the ol body fat is because I definitely still have a belly and it's 32%, with most of it being my stomach. That's still in the high range and we've a lot of heart disease/attacks in the family.

To get my fat in check I need to lose almost a stone of fat, and build up more muscle because I'll look too thin otherwise(in my opinion, obviously they didn't give an opinion on my looks).

The good news is my muscle mass is fine as far as the scan says. Obviously it's not a dexa but for what its worth that's good to know. I could do with some more core/upperbody muscle but it's still fine.

But I'm tired, PMSing and a bit burnt out and I don't want to track and plan and protein and lift weights. I don't want to increase my dose and be nauseous and eggy and pukey. I just want to order a Chinese and watch crap on tv.

Sorry, I just needed a whine

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Over the past few months I have been off the wagon. It's been mental at work, and I've been selling and moving house on my own and I've ADHD which has always made my eating a bit erratic, even if I don't like to use it as an excuse.

Anyway I've been feeling kinda crappy. Tired, a bit sad, irritated. I put it down to stress and a bit of burn out.

I've just been out on walk to the shop and my legs felt like big heavy bags of sand. I actually had to stop a few times on my way back. I can usually walk for about 2hrs and not even notice.

Well TL;DR I think I might be malnourished.

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symptoms of malnutrition include:

reduced appetite lack of interest in food and drink

feeling tired all the time

feeling weaker

getting ill often and taking a long time to recover

wounds taking a long time to heal

poor concentration

feeling cold most of the time

low mood, sadness and depression

I recognise 6/9.

It's not that I haven't been eating. I have. But I haven't been eating consistently nutritious food.

The fridge in my new place doesn't work, but the new one is coming on Monday, and I'm making an appointment with a nutritionist to just get me back on track.

I'm a top performer, and have been the top 1 or 2nd of the team since I was hired 3 years ago.

I was promoted 2 years ago.

I've been over relied on. I covered my managers leave for 3 months, while also covering for another member of the team for about a month of it. I've massively over achieved kpis, last time 4x, currently on 2x.

I applied for my manager's role and didn't get it. That much is fine. But I got no actionable growth areas in the feedback, and it's a 40% pay cut if I did get it. I now report to the person who did get it and we get on pretty well. But my workload was tripled after.

Now I'm in a position where if I move up, I've a massive paycut. If I move laterally, I take on more responsibility with no real advantage, I could move to the more senior team but that's more work for the same job level..

I'm stuck and I feel like I'm being exploited.

How do I raise this without putting my head on the chopping block?

edit: I'm in a company where I'm unlikely to get retaliation, and we can generally speak quite openly. But people are people and favour and politics do exist

Edit: Thanks for your help everyone.

We went through a quick retro, numbers, highlights, low lights. In the highlights I went over the few areas I felt were impactful other than numbers and in the low lights, I said I found it very hard to focus on anything that's not right now, and had to deprioritise long term approaches that I felt ultimately would be valuable because I had too much on my plate. We talked about areas Id like to explore more and agreed on some next steps for the next few months. We also agreed to reduce the intensity for a while to rebuild the energy.