u/CarInternational870

TW: SA and self-harm

I will be talking about my experiences and reasons why i don’t think my parents love me anymore. im praying people can help me. A couple years ago, i was SA’d by a family member wanting to see my privates. I am a teen now, but i still haven’t forgotten about it. Two years ago, I told my parents about it. My dad stated he would talk to the person who Sa’d me and get things figured out for me so i can feel comfortable again. he never did.

A couple months ago i bursted out at my dad in frustration during an argument and told him i cut myself (sh). At first he started to talk to me calmly. then at our next argument, he used my sh against me and proceeded to mock me: “ooohhh i cut myselff” in a mocking tone. in that moment, i wanted to end myself, i still do.

At a party, i suddenly got the chills and started getting very overstimulated and upset out of nowhere (to this day, im not sure why, but was there was really bad energy). i proceeded to tell my mom i wanted to go home and she said “tell your dad”, i couldn’t find him. she then kept telling me to tell my dad but i stated that i couldn’t and i wanted to get out of there. my aunt was there for me, but my mom called me dramatic and didn’t take me home until an hour later.

every time my younger sister gets hurt, or cries, I’m blamed. immediately, I’m hit with “what did you do to her”. i sit confused, because i didnt do anything. or when my sister hurts me, (grabbing, pulling, hutting, scratching), they blame her actions on me, and let her go weeks without apologizing.

this is my third Reddit post, im just seeking help, i dont want to live this life.

I can’t have a fucking break. Everyday, I am bombarded with chores. I’m really not trying to sound like a bratty, spoiled child, but it gets to a point where I can’t have time to myself. My parents wonder why I spend time in my room all day: If I come out of my room after studying or doing homework (which i do clarify to them) they immediately tell me to vacuum, take out the trash, laundry, do the dishes, etc. which, okay i understand, but sometimes I want a brain break from 8 hours of school + studying and homework. When i clarify this, they hit me with “just do ( chore) it’s not that hard”, then after i do it, they would say “see? it didn’t take that long.” ok, whatever. But it’s multiple chores in a day, that’s the problem. I swear every time i come out of my room, it’s a new chore. I was reading a book once on the couch, strangely, my dad asked “what are you doing, why don’t you go do the dishes” like damn i wasn’t even on my phone that time. point is, i can never relax. And i get blamed for being “irresponsible“ and not being able to “prioritize my tasks”. which can be seen where i had to study for my huge final for math, I came out of my room to get a snack and immediately got yelled at by my dad “you saw the trash was full, why didn’t you take it out??” I actually never knew the trash was full because i was focused on my studies, and also if the trash was so full, why did they wait for me to come out of my room to tell me? they couldve done it themselves. yeah fml and ive been doing laundry for 3 days straight, im gonna stay in my room for now.

Im currently a sophomore in hs and i have a sister who’s almost 6 years old. this is my first time on Reddit and i hope this could reach the right audience, but i hope to share my experiences for those who can help. My younger sister has been the hostile type and my parents know this by heart. Recently, she had accidentally pulled on my ear (fresh new helix piercing) and it hurt like hell. i then calmly stopped playing with her and asked i her to apologize. She isn’t the type to apologize, so she just ignores me after repeatedly asking. When my mother walks in, I state, and I quote “she won’t apologize to me”, and i explain how my ear is hurting (and still swelled). My mom proceeds to not care and states “you know how she is, she’ll say sorry later”. i then raise my voice because I’m irritated that she isnt doing anything and she yells at me “stop being mean to your sister. why are you raising your voice??”. I then go to my room, which I am now writing this reddit post. I want to point out the fact that I’m irritated because my mom used the excuse of my sister still being a ”baby” and that “she doesnt know”, and yells at me everytime i try to teach my sister how to have manners. But, my mom also yells at my sister, worse than me, threatening to leave the house and guilt tripping my little sister. I’m praying somebody out there sees this because this isn’t the full story and I’m not sure what to do