u/Careful_Confusion_75

((Reposted now on the weekend because I didn’t see the rule)) 😬😂

hey everyone, like the title states I’m moving from Colorado this next march. I work as a line tech for Xfinity and could go to spectrum and get to $40 in about a year but from there I’m sure it would be a slow crawl to MAYBE 50 but idk how many years that would take

Wife and two daughters (2y) and infant.

I REALLY am leaning to go full reset and start this amazing trade. Im weighing the cost of that initial pay hit to eventually earn enough to be a sole income and be able to actually have a career that can support my whole family.

If any one works in Nebraska can you give any advice or details???

**You say things will get better**
I know you better than that

If this glass is Broken
I’ll cheers you with a smile
Tears filling mine and yours in denial

I see the end and it came too soon
Sailing into the sun set the glow of the moon….

A friendship like ours comes ones in a lifetime and you knew me better than I knew myself.
A mind so bright then you lost yourself….

Make it mine
I’ll make it mine
If I could, your pain is mine.

Your faded memories as I wither away
The man that you loved is a stranger today…
I see the confusion I see the sadness
knowing all the memories we shared I hold like sand

This is misery to feel like I had a dream
The mornings come and I start to forgot
At least I loved and lost
But I’ll never regret

I love you forever tho you’ll forget my name.
I love you forever till my dying day.

This side of heaven will be over when we both reach our end
One day you’ll recognize
Your husband again.

PS

I have never had someone in my life close that has had **Alzheimer’s** but my heart goes out to each one of you that has to live with such pain and sadness my heart and prayers go out to you all

You say things will get better
I know you better than that

If this glass is Broken
I’ll cheers you with a smile
Tears filling mine and yours in denial

I see the end and it came too soon
Sailing into the sun set the glow of the moon….

A friendship like ours comes ones in a lifetime and you knew me better than I knew myself.
A mind so bright then you lost yourself….

Make it mine
I’ll make it mine
If I could, your pain is mine.

Your faded memories as I wither away
The man that you loved is a stranger today…
I see the confusion I see the sadness
knowing all the memories we shared I hold like sand

This is misery to feel like I had a dream
The mornings come and I start to forgot
At least I loved and lost
But I’ll never regret

I love you forever tho you’ll forget my name.
I love you forever till my dying day.

This side of heaven will be over when we both reach our end
One day you’ll recognize
Your husband again.

PS

I have never had someone in my life close that has had Alzheimer’s but my heart goes out to each one of you that has to live with such pain and sadness my heart and prayers go out to you all

This is gonna be a pretty vulnerable post…. I’m not looking to make my self look like I did nothing wrong I wish I kinda didn’t escalate things..

It’s so bizarre, my wife generally is very moody. She’s usually very happy and generally chipper in public and we do have a lot of good times together. but I just feel like I’m ALWAYS annoying her or getting the brunt of her anger and moodiness. It just feels like walking on egg shells or in all honesty it feels like majority of the time is like this and not good. (Known each other 13 years, married almost 9)

Now we have one toddler (2) and she is pregnant with a second 19ish weeks so I know that I need to be extra patient with moodiness….

Over the years we’d have these bouts of issues…

But there has been when it get escalated she will throw a lot of stuff breaking….

Just to show how dumb what was actually “fought over”

She in the kitchen says “oh and you never at the left overs” she went to this health food shop and had like a little bit of oatmeal left and gave it to me earlier (3-4 hours maybe)

She then said how wasteful I am and I never eat left overs she gets me. This was so annoying because I actually was going to eat that along with other left overs I had for dinner. She throws it away and said well it was left uncovered now it’s gross…. And in the trash it went. Some things it feels like just out of spite but then it turned into I never eat the leftovers on and on and on and to be fair a long time ago yeah sometimes I would leave leftovers, whatever since she told me how annoying that is I have always tried to finish leftovers or just throw them away and clean them out so I asked her what exactly lately I had wasted and she said it doesn’t even matter so she would never give me a specific….

It’s all revolved around how recently she deep cleaned the fridge, which I greatly appreciate but at the same time I was just waiting for something to come around about it. When she deep clean something, she usually goes really deep, which is awesome but the day today, the kitchen, the dishes, the vacuuming, the mopping is always on me. Typically, she won’t wash the dishes. She’ll leave it for me which is fine. I really don’t care if it’s teamwork and we just both try to do what we can when we can.

She goes well if you would ever clean the fridge you would know and this kind of sent me over the edge… and I made the comment that that was the only thing she’s cleaned for along time. Again I don’t care she doesn’t clean a lot or do the dishes it would be nice and some days either because I loaded the dishes and it’s still a sink full of others she actually had done them when I got off work a couple of times.
Again I don’t mind I wouldn’t bring it up but the fact that she then says if you “ever cleaned the fridge” as if I’m not the one to usually clean everything….

She started throwing bowls remotes a candle and my daughters water bottle

This alone made me loose it I said to leave because I don’t want that around our daughter…. We’ve agreed in the past that’s unacceptable …

She kept yelling and saying she’s not leaving

Now me I started pulling in her legs for her to get off the couch. I wanted her outta the house… SHE NEVER REMOVES herself from a situation she has too much pride. She finally storms off upstairs.

I call the cops

I’m over it…. I regretted as soon as I started giving info but ultimately I’m glad they came as embarrassing as it was
She’s out there crying on the porch for 2 of the cops saying who knows what.

The cop that talked to me actually couldn’t have been cooler more understanding and really really helped to talk to.

Said if we wanted to separate for the night he’d recommend but if she seemed fine it was up to me…
He was really grounded overall I was embarrassed to call but I just couldn’t believe how bad things got and with my daughter it actually felt warranted

The thing is from her perspective it’s all my fault, I pushed her I should have just left her alone. Which fine that’s probably true it wouldn’t have escalated…she has to walk on egg shells “around me” I “never have patience”

I just feel so dead I’m trying. Anytime I’ve lost patience has been after a long week full of OT and on call which I was picking up a lot to help us get out of some debt. I stopped picking it up as much because I was being selfish and I’m always tired….

The thing is I feel trapped, I feel like I can never have a bad day or feel tired from exhaustion. I don’t feel like she’s there for me in any of those ways and if I treated her or talked to her how she talks to me in the slightest she would BLOW UP.

I don’t know how to handle things I do feel like I’m trying to be there for her… trying to turn the check when she’s in a bad mood and angry….

I personally don’t feel like I deserve this and am treated like I’m some horrible husband and father and never there for her and never patient and on and on….. I love her but I am so tired of this

It’s interesting I love CC’s DMAA added to stuff but the IG jack3d had a VEERRYYY noticeable bronchodilator effect and I can’t seem to get that anywhere else!

I recall an early preworkout that I believe was made made by Betancourt and I don’t think it was Bnox but it had also a very strong easier to breathe effect although I’m not sure which ingredient caused that, wasn’t DM in that product

But anyone have any support that would improve breathing???