u/Careless-Builder-254

So to put a bit of context, I (21M) met this girl (21F) six months ago. We were together for like two months, and then she told me that she had a lot of issues, depression, issues with her parents, a lot of things that were not going well in her life. She wanted to tell me that because she felt that it could hinder the relationship and how we live it. Fast forward one month after this discussion, she tells me that she is scared that I may get too attached and that she doesn't want to see me anymore. So that's what she does. That's very hard for me, but I keep on with my life. I do a lot of things. I buy a bike, motorcycle, and I learn a lot of new stuff. I go out with my friends. I start gym. I do a lot of things that are good for myself. After two months, I decide to block her. And I don't know if that was intentional or not, but right after I blocked her, she came to a party. She knew where she knew I would be and where she doesn't usually go. And after that, we talked about for three days, I wanted to, at first I wanted to see her again. And I then realized it would be a bad idea because I thought that things hadn't changed in her mind. And so I decided to tell her that I did not want to talk to her anymore. However, she continued to talk to me for two to three days, calling me extra, and I just told her that it wasn't good for me, and I asked her if she could stop. She did, until two months later, when she put me in a close friend story on Instagram, and she wanted me to react to it, which I did because at the time, I thought that it wouldn't be an issue. So I wrote her a message. We then started seeing each other again for a whole month. And the issue is that I will be moving across the world for a whole year in two months, and we had decided that we would just do something casual until I go across the world and then we would live our lives, not... we would simply live our lives. However, three days ago, she told me that she wanted to talk about that, about the fact that I would move across the world, and she started crying a lot, telling me that she couldn't do something casual with me. She couldn't, and she was actually mad because she had come back to me because she thought that she could give me more than just being together. She said that she could give me a good relationship. However, she realized she couldn't, and she started being mad at herself, and I had to tell her that I wanted to stop seeing her because I realized that it wasn't good, neither for her, neither for me. The issue is that now it is very uncomfortable because we're still talking by, we still text, but because I have to get some of my clothes back from her house and she's out of town for a week, so we still text until the, to, and waiting for this date. But the issue is that I don't want to let her go. I don't want her to forget me. She doesn't seem to want to forget me, but I don't know, I'm not in her head. And I want to try something when I get back. However, when I get back is one year from now, and I will change, she will change, maybe nothing will happen. And if I keep telling myself that I want something with her when I get back, I won't change, and she won't change, and if we try something then and um nothing has changed, it won't work once again. So I'm completely lost with her. I don't know what to do, and it's very hard.