Kwarentahin
Kwarentahin
Hello sa mga 40’s jan. How to start life from the scratch? I just went through a battle sa cancer, hiwalayan sa asawa, single mother ng college and elementary both private and a breadwinner, supporting my mom sa medications nya. Although sasabihin ng marami na malakas at strongest warrior ako but Im really tired and spiraling into depression. May audhd din ako diagnosed before my cancer and it made me disconnect more to people, lalo kapag nakikitaan ko ng patterns and insecurities esp sa mga babaeng kaibigan. I am pretty, smart and talented but I am single, little to no social life, pagod na din to be everywhere. I am tired of being anxious kung saan kukuha ng consistent monthly income. Ang hirap mag start over ng trabaho at this age at hindi na din malaka katawan ko after chemo and radiation. Though magaling akong dumiskarte ng pera, I have alot of talents and things to offer pero hindi sya nakaka-soft-life dahil hindi din consistent ang stream ng pera and bills are just getting too piled-up. I crave for softness. Hindi na ako nakikipag date because Im tired of BS but I tend to be really lonely. Parang walang spark ang buhay lately. I am so left behind of life, it’s ok Im alive but whyyy?