u/Careless-Outcome8351

I have no idea if this is just me but when I get restless, I physically feel all that energy in like my middle lower back area (also right foot shaking agh). It is pissing me off so damn much right now. Like I actually just want to violently shake it out, or scream, or both but I can’t do either cuz I’m trying to hide wtf I’m going through rn from everyone.

edit: yes I have been in contact w a gp and psychiatrist idrk what’s going on rn tho they’ve got their team ‘discussing’. it’s all just incredibly frustrating and I feel so lost.

whole mf day ive been fighting the urge not to just go out solo-drink and run away from the world

yesterday i tested if i could last over 24hrs without food for shits n giggles like am i ok lmfao

ive deliberately stayed at home all day to prevent myself saying fck it and doing whatever i fr don’t know what’s happening to me rn

ive been questioning if i had bipolar disorder or not and raised my concerns to my gp yet when i went into a massive depressive episode and was convinced i was gonna kms (had to call the crisis line) i was just given sertraline i swr they don’t care uh

but anyway half of me thinks im faking everything and i feel like im constantly arguing w myself in my head about what im thinking/ feeling even now i feel like a poser and that i shouldn’t be posting on here

i have literally nobody in my life to talk to about any of this and i honestly just feel so lost and frustrated.