I don’t know what to do anymore
Trigger warning
Basically long story short my mom (an alcoholic) asked me if I had thanked my dad for sending money on my birthday and before I replied (I was napping) she started scolding me for being horrible to him (he cheated on her multiple times and never spent time with me I don’t respect him) and I had sent her the screen shot of me saying thank you to him and proceeded to ask him if he was mad at me but he wasn’t and said he was getting an ear full from my mom as well. I ended up texting her that what she said wasn’t very nice and I’d appreciate an apology and don’t want to talk until then, this happened to be after Mother’s Day and the day her best friend died around 6 or more years ago but it’s not fair that I have to tip toe around her on her hard days when I’m going through stuff too.
She’s all I have. My dad lives provinces away from me and we aren’t close, I have my boyfriend but that’s honestly about it, my friends are kinda shitty and don’t really care about me. So I’ve always just forgiven her and gone on with life but I can’t take it anymore. I just want her to love me and not be mean to me.