u/Castiel_The_Fallen

Living everyday the same unchanging boring life is quite tough, even since I have added some fitness habits, the boredom and depression has not gone away completely, sometimes I think about what Tyler Durden said in Fight club , " SELF IMPROVEMENT IS MASTURBATION", so in his words I have been masturbating for almost 7-8 months now,

Wanted to share one small act of kindness that I show to myself everyday through this mundane uneventful life,

I make overnight oats every day before I sleep, I started it as a part of my calorie deficit ritual, my daily goal was to eat less than 2000 calories a day, only way to achieve that for me was to eat three meals each of 500 cal, with that goal i thought i could maybe achieve 1800 calories day, now after some measurements i figured oatmeal recipe, and started making it, let me go ahead and say it, they are not tasty at all, unless you add some fruits to it,

However, apart from physical implications there has been mental benefit too,

See when i make oatmeal everyday, my mornings don't start with uncertainty, even if I wake up late, and plans tend to go in disarray, knowing that I don't have to think what I will eat, takes away a bit of anxiety, make no mistake following diet rest of the day is still tough, but making oatmeal everynight even on bad days has given me a small sense of belief that there is still some measure of control I have over my life,

I am still quite bored, more bored than depressed, even depression got boring after a long time, but making oatmeal is my one small act towards hope,

These days all my reasons for keeping myself together has come from Manga and anime, I want to stay alive to see What is One Piece ? Or will straw hats actually find it? Will Makunochi Ippo ever return to boxing ?

Anyways i don't know what others can do for themselves in the similar way, I have one suggestion and then a question related to it -

Suggestion is getting enough sleep?

And question is for everyone, how is the sleep situation of everyone in this group? Because mine is terrible, I am only sleeping for an average of 6 hrs a day, what about others?

Let me start by saying I am a 36 year old, an incel with a job, while I do make decent money, i could earn more, but with no EMIs or anything, family not dependent on me, it's fine for me, my life is the way it is because I am a coward, always has been,

Anyways coming to the topic, all of you young folks in your early 20s, who have declared yourself failures and recluses, real problem is not lack of love, or rejection by attractive people, no real problem is you guys haven't faced real boredom,

And it's not your fault, the world freaking changed, hell when I watched my first porn I was so happy that I couldn't breathe, and you guys have such easy access, anyways keeping porn aside, the world and the internet isn't giving your ample opportunities to be bored, like really bored, imagine the time right before you sleep, the time when you make fake promises to yourself that maybe tomorrow you will wake up a different person, that's a very small part of being bored, folks when electricity is down, and your mobile data is also not working, and you can't work or surf videos, think during that time, what exactly is wrong in your life, can it really not be fixed in 10 years , 15 years,

Listen to me guys, asking you guys to become outgoing extroverts is a stupid thing to do, but you guys all of you can atleast carve a better version of your lives, if you let yourself get bored,

Don't give up, coming from someone who has actually given up, I know it sounds hypocritical but who gives a shit, all of you find one dimension in life, which will make your lives just a tiny bit better, with or without external love,

I know at least two things will definitely make things better - better fitness and more money,

Last year I got so bored that I decided to loose weight and lost 25 kgs, I was 105.7 kgs and now I am 78 kgs, I still have a long way to go because I am only 166 cm, and a balding man, but next I will desperately try to make more money,

But please folks don't give up in your 20s, there is happiness out there, maybe even love for you all,

Okay that's all, I am drunk a lot so I will stop here,

All the best folks,