r/RecluseIndia

Мне 20 лет, я парень, очень часто задумываюсь по поводу своей будущей жизни, что я ничего не добьюсь, что не смогу принести пользу эту миру, так как я бесполезный. Мне надоело жить одним днем, и я наверное не могу с этим ничего поделать. Я стеснительный, и жалею об этом. У меня не было девушки, хотя уже идёт третий десяток. На психолога у меня нет денег, да и не особо я им доверяю. Я не прошу меня жалеть, я лишь просто хотел выразить свои переживания на "бумагу", так как будто становится легче что-ли...

Graduated in 2022 with a useless BCom degree and been a NEET since then. I don't think even BPOs will accept me now. Has anyone been able to get a job after such a long gap? If yes, please share what you did and what worked for you?

Hiraeth (pronounced heer-eye-th) is a Welsh word with no direct English translation. It describes a deep, poignant longing for a home, time, or person to which you cannot return—a profound sense of grief for a past or idealized place that may no longer exist. 

I've been living in Mumbai, away from my family, for a while now. The strange part is I don't really miss home, but I don't feel like I belong here either. And when I go back, that place doesn't quite feel like mine anymore.

It's like existing between two places, with neither one feeling like home.

I live alone, away from my hometown due to work. For the past month I have had to stay at another city which is also work-related.

I have been feeling terribly homesick for the past few days but neither for my hometown nor for the city where I work.

When I imagine returning to my hometown I get anxious thinking how parents would start asking about my future plans and keep telling how they are getting old and how my age is increasing and it is high time I get married. If I stall them they would start lecturing me and all these make me not want to go there.

Thinking about my worktown (pardon if such a word doesn't exist) makes me dive more into depression as I get reminded of how I spend my days there- waking up, going to work, returning, cooking, doing dishes, turning off lights, listening to sad songs, and thinking what went wrong and how I am suddenly 30 years old. Makes me not crave being there as well.

Then what is the place I am feeling homesick for? Does it not exist? If it doesn't, how will I survive with this unquenchable thirst?

I am a 20M living in a T1 metro city. I study CSE in a decent college. My parents are well off, so there's no pressure to contribute there.

My 7th semester is going to start in August, and along with that comes placements. Ideally, I should be grinding my ass off this summer, but I'm barely able to study once every three days.

Instead, I have been smoking weed every night for like two years. If I don't have any weed, I switch to alcohol. I literally cannot go to bed at night sober. Now that I am at home, this has become the highlight of my everyday life (so fucking sad right lmao). I just laze around and recover from last night during the day, then indulge again at night.

I used to have so many friends. Many of them genuinely cared about me. I pushed them all away because I wanted to get high alone every night. Now, when they do call me occasionally to hang out, I'm either too afraid to pick up or I just tell them I'm not in town or give some BS excuse.

The only thing I had going for me was the gym. I used to live in my college hostel. Over there, I didn't have the liberty to smoke or drink daily because it was strict. However, I did go to the gym consistently. I'm quite satisfied with my physique right now, but I haven't hit the gym since college let us out.

Thinking about how far I have fallen just makes me even more depressed and anxious. What will become of me?

I'm hoping that when, and if, I do land a job, it overworks me so I don't have time to indulge in substances. That's my plan to get out of this. Deep down, though, I know that's probably not a real solution.

Has anyone here been in a similar position? How did you actually break out of it?

I am 27 yo corporate majdoor. I don't have any close friends as of now neither I am in any relationship. I do feel lonely sometimes but I am good own my own most of the time.

For the first time in my life, It feels really amazing to be alone, I have decided to not marry or have kids, neither I am going to buy any house, I have cut down my impulse buying. I have decided not to buy any car or bike as well. When the world goes south due to AI and Climate change, I am planning to settle in a forest. I have recently started prepping for uncertainty like war or Climate change.

I think this world too shit for marriage, or to have kids. They only see us as a number to boost the economy the more we consume, the more they get rich. They do not see us a humans.

What do you guys think?

Any small stuff to do routinely to get over this

Just a rant. Please bare with me. (Im copy pasting this from an other subReddit)

Hi. I am 18 M. Gave jee this year got 99.1, 26k in adv, 250 in bitsat. Life really sucks. I was diagnosed with a very rare physical health issue in 2023 (chronic pelvic pain syndrome) back when i was in 10th. Since then my life hasn’t been the same. Its a chronic pain condition. I went to multiple doctors, nothing worked out. I was in Narayana since 6th. So, i had foundation. I was the topper of my school. Till 10th everything was going well. But since my health deteriorated from 10th, i had to quit narayana after 10th, because the mental pressure in Narayana was too much and my physical health too was very bad. In 11th I enrolled in fiitjee. It was good. I tried to study as much as i could but the pain was always killing me. But still i studied somehow. Till october 2025, it was very bad. Then i went to another doctor. He gave some medication which was finally working a bit, after 2.5 years of pain. So, from October 2025 I could atleast study somewhat better than before but still it was knly partially treated not completely. Obviously being in the situation i was, i couldn’t really focus on adv. So i decided from day 1 to focus on mains. I used to get 220-230 in previous year papers. But ended up with only 170 in the actual exam. I was expecting 99.5-99.6 before writing jee. But couldn’t do it on both the attempts. Even bitsat too, many 97-98 percentilers get 280+, but i still ended up with 250. The guy who used to come second in my school after me continued in narayana in 11th and 12th. He has 99.95 in mains and air 500 in adv. He is going to iit kgp cse, where median itself is 50 lpa, thats my best case scenario and his best case scenario are quant firms which pay 2.25 cr .It hurts seeing that, because i had that potential too, but life had other plans. It was always my dream getting into an IIT, not for the money, fame or success it provides but just because i loved solving those problems, getting marks. It hurts to see him get air 500 while i cleared the cutoff of adv by 4 marks. Even though 3 years ago, i was in a better position than him. And the worst part is its not my fault. I tried, i really really tried. But im thankful that atleast i found some kind of a relief from this pain and atleast i could study enough to get 99.1 and atleast get a decent college, it might not be a tier 1 IIT CSE like him but atleast its something. So thats my story, hopefully things get better. If God asks me a wish rn, i would ask him to relieve me of this terrible pain, not for an IIT. I posted this just to vent out, please don’t tell me NIT is also good blah blah, i understand that but i could never fulfill my dream. Thats what hurts the most.

Thanks for reading

Need an accountability partner

So, I feel like I'm stuck for a long time. I still keep going but I feel like I am surviving. Like I am busy surviving everything. Most of the time I am not really present anywhere mentally. I'm just in my head. And I keep having some kind of physical health issues every now and then. like stomach ache and weakness, etc.

I keep thinking of quitting my job but I am just too scared to do anything. I see people achieving things and not so worried about things but I am just busy making sure nothing goes wrong. I am scared that if I quit my job then I will have to stay at home and it will worsen my mental health even more. With job, at least I have to interact with people and pretend and I think it keeps me from falling apart. but I don't know how long I can keep going like this. like I keep waiting for time to pass. Keep waiting for Sundays.

Maybe I should just quit and find another job, but I feel like I don't want to do any job. Any job like this. because it's so repetitive. Like I am not learning anything new at this job. It's just asking AI to write code. And nobody cares about quality of code as long as it's working. like nobody is deeply interested in what they are doing. of course, it still requires some mental effort, but I feel like I am wasting my time just to earn some money (which is not much). I find this so meaningless. I want to go for higher studies and prepare for the entrance exam of it. I want to get out of my hometown and higher studies can provide me a way to do that (it's not the only reason though. I mean I like the field of study as well) but I am just scared of being at home for preparation because from my experience my mental health just gets worse when I am at home. I guess it's because if I am at home, there is so little human interaction and it feels so lonely and like nobody is there to check on me. So, quitting doesn't seem like a viable option but then I keep thinking about it. I keep returning to it.

I still learn things that I love but there is so little time for it after full time job and it feels like I am working all the time. like my mind can't relax for a bit. like it's racing all the time. and then my physical health worsens and I have to rest.

Everything is so tiring sometimes. I don't know what should I do.

Aaj kal ek ajeeb si feeling aati hai. Jab bhi aas paas dekhta hu toh lagta hai baki sab apni life me sahi ja rahe hain. Sabka roz ka wahi routine hai, college jana, apna kaam karna. Aur sabse frustrating baat ye hai ki aisa lagta hai baaki log har cheez me mujhse behtar hain.

Main first year me hu aur roz yahi sochta hu ki main itna piche kyu reh gaya hu. Aisa lagta hai jaise sab aage nikal gaye hain aur main bas ek hi jagah par khada hu. Padhai ho ya life ka koi aur aspect, ek ajeeb sa pressure aur self-doubt feel hota hai jab unhe dekhta hu.

Kya sach me baaki sabki life itni sorted hoti hai?

I did make a post here a couple of days ago... deleted it tho bc it felt exposing (idk SA things ig) it was about how I just don't eat bc I can't go out to buy food on my own.

So a major aspect of my life is SA (at this point let's just say the only aspect lol) and no I don't need people telling me what to do abt it.. bc trust me I've done it all!.. Final verdict isss.. I'm sick!! Period.

Still if u wanna give any advice.. go ahead but plz know that I've prolly heard a hundred variations of it.. if u think u can stand out... idk give it a try booboo!

Okayy... I just wanna say if u have SA.. plz for the love of god reach out to me.. plz tell me I'm not the only one... bc it sure as hell feels like it!! It's a timeless post so whenever u see this.. u can just reach out!!

I keep seeing people talk about red flags, green flags, confidence, charisma, looks, communication, attachment styles, etc. They're all important, but I feel like we ignore the biggest factor: actually meeting the right person.

You don't date every compatible person out there. You date the people who happen to be in your college, office, friend circle, gym, or wherever life puts you.

I've seen people with plenty of flaws end up in happy relationships just because they met someone at the right time. And I've also seen genuinely attractive, confident, emotionally mature people stay single for years simply because they never met someone they clicked with.

Self-improvement definitely helps, but sometimes it feels like timing and proximity do a lot more heavy lifting than we like to admit.

Currently I have no friends, no career nothing.

Ever since I was young. I could barely focus on studies. I can't stare at something for more than 3 sec otherwise my brain hurts.

I used to get 75 percent but after 10,i didn't have any routine and can't focus at all. (ADHD)

Family hates me because good money is the only way to peace and good money comes from goo education.

I think somewhere I rationalize that and stopped interacting.

I think a lot of times RELATIVES Insulted me in front of parents of mask. I felt ashamed I locked myself in and it's been 5 YEARS I have been locked in).

I stay alone. There was a time I use to have friends and now I don't.

I find it difficult talking to people and they keep commenting and again and again what went wrong with me personality wise.

I think I just freeze and wait for insult.

As a result of introvertnwss in college I got bullied.

Extremely badly because I use to be lost in my own thoughts.

I have this mentality of being a hidden genuis who will cure everything. L

past 2 days I have been terribly sick, rolling from one side to another and made post on reddit.

Thinking how my adhd has hindered my academic process and how I have become a loner because I am afraid of society where success is #1 and also got bullied due to introverted nature.

People suggest getting a job but I told them I haven't been able to study since the fear of tuition ended.

So one user u/ignorantgal5 suggested getting an accountability partner. I made a post on here for my accountability partner and I started getting abused from 2-3 men for putting 23 f in the title( I mean people put 20m,24m,22f). According to them I was acting whorish because I mentioned f.

It was scary and I didn't know what I did to get abused. ( I don't get social ques). Even if you had a problem you can ask nicely in one comment instead of being passive aggressive.

Like I said I have been bullied so I hate bullies but they called me being whorish and abused me. It boiled my blood 🩸.

It hurt. I believe I struggle with being normal.

I really do. I wish I was never here, life's hard.

There are real people who have talked to me about adhd, social anxiety and given me good tips and I am not a catfish and I an not even rude to men who send dick pics, I just say "brother app kya kar rahe ho". Idk why people are rule.

The bullies -u/thefool2014 and u/Buzzkill_45

You can check my last post where it happened and gave me feedback. I am sick.

Hi, I am 23M, with BSc in Mathematics from a local college and MMath from ISI(Kolkata), with 57% overall marks in MMath, I always thought I wanted to get into PhD in pure mathematics and become a professor, but after my MMath course, I didn't want to get into PhD anymore. I have recently been selected in DS and AI course(MSc) offered by RKMVERI (Belur). There was a friend of mine who joined this course in 2024, he has a job now at EY. He says all the helpful professors in RKMVERI have left and says the placement prospect in 2028 doesn't look good. I am really scared and don't know what to do.