u/Upstairs_Reply_4634

I hate accountability and responsibilities

There is nowhere to vent out my frustration I used to

Not focus on class and day dreamed during during class was which was funny

Teachers said I was a "swapnalokathe balabaskaran" During class because my mind was not there

But now after plus two I am working in a supermarket for part time

But thisthing is not funny and then I realized

Fuck......

I need to grow up iam not supposed to be a laughing giggling idiot

I feel so dumb like literally intellectualy dumb

Iam not talking about academics I was pretty good in mugging up theories for exams

But like my communication and social skills are zero and so awkward and I mKe stupid dumb comments and try to find excuses for every little thing which again was a reflex I learned throughout my years to avoid accountability

What I was saying is life sucks it isn't no fairy tail

I got this much after working for month

I wonder what those chettans and chechis who worked for years feels like