Mock Diagnosis?
I am not sure if you'd understand the title, I just want someone, anyone to help me figure out if I'm just plain lazy or if these actually are symptoms of some mental issue, hence, mock diagnosis of my mental health :),
From the past almost three years now, I've been having these, well phases. There are a period of days when I can't, just cannot get out of bed, or make myself do anything.
I had always been social prior to these three years, I now have no social life to speak of, I have always have a deep rooted social anxiety, with frequent anxiety attacks which ive hid pretty well but I have been having panic attacks for the past 3 years too.
In those particular period of days, I genuinely feel stuck, I cannot process feelings I feel zoned out and I skip or back out of any and every commitment, situation or presence. I just cannot do it no matter how much I know I need to, i feel blank drained of life.
These have been getting more and more frequent, and have disrupted my social and personal life, The past three years have been pretty stressful with the final year of school, college entrances and genuine all around failure, which were made worse by the kind of parents i have. I do not feel like blaming them but know they have messed my entire personality. I thought maybe with life settling down into college it would get better but it just doesn't, it keeps getting worse, I stopped SH, back when I was 15, because my teacher noticed I have also dealt with severe eating disorder and am still dealing with body dysmorphia. But these phases scare me because with that blankness comes a deep sense of doom and I often end up very deep into thoughts of ending yk life. It takes me weeks to get out of it and I just need help.