Pulling away from a friend
So, over the course of last year, my best friend had become emotionally distant. She didn't seem depressed or anything, just uninterested in anything I had to say. She would cancel hang outs with me to go hang out with other people, sometimes she said she didn't feel like it. We started to become quieter each time we were together. I felt like I was overcompensating for her distance, asking her out, suggesting different things, but it didn't work. I asked her whether she was mad at me, and she said it's not about me, but herself. I gave her space and she reached back. It was good to feel missed, but things were still the same. I didn't feel very comfortable after that.
Last week I did something that hurt her. And of course I told her. I was so sorry but she pulled away. I know she's probably not going to talk to me for weeks or months. I was so sad at first, but now, I feel a bit less hypervigilant. I don't feel worried about asking her to go out, or helping her out with anything, or whether she liked the film she posted in her story just to be ignored.
She supported me during a very hard time in my life. I have mad respect and admiration for her. But I can't pinpoint why she changed so suddenly, but I was so tired of walking on eggshells. Anyway, it's a bittersweet moment.