I don't feel like I'm a very likeable person
Im 14m and in freshman year. I had a best friend since 7th grade, though, I eventually realized that she was fake and decided to use my vulnerabilities for her own gain. She also smells really bad. (Call her F) Over the years, many people called me weird because I used to hang out with F. Since then, I missed out on many opportunities to be friends with other people because of her. This year, I managed to form a friend group with all of my closest friends. The friend group was fun and thriving, until everything fell apart. This is because one of my friends decided that it was a good idea to violate her partner without consent. Since then, I've found a new friend group that seems to relate to me... but I always get this feeling that they might be talking about me behind my back. Also, one of the members HATES me because of (I assume) previous drama from 7th grade. (I don't know why she hates me, but in 7th grade I was really weird. So her reason for hating me is probably valid.) When me and F were still friends, she used to try and call me EVERY DAY. I told her many times that I hated calling people, but she wanted to do it anyway. It eventually developed into a cycle of me saying that I would call her, but then I would just ghost her and never answer. This new friend group also wants to call EVERY DAY. So since I've developed this habit of ghosting people, my new friend group is starting to get mad at me because I keep ghosting them. So now, my main problem is trying to break the cycle of making false promises to my friends.
TLDR: I found a friend group that I like to be around, but i feel like i'm a bad friend because of a past experience with a toxic best friend. I really like this friend group, but I don't feel like im a good fit because of how annoying I feel.