I don’t know if I love my gf
I 18m and her 18f dated for about 3 months then we broke up cause we both didn’t know how to navigate relationships. Fast forward like 8 months she creates a fake number and text me from it, and we started talking and everything seemed great. She would come over we’d laugh we’d cuddle, etc. within two weeks we got back together and a week later slept together when she told me she loved me. That’s when I got this feeling. But I said it back cause it felt right almost. But now the problem is I don’t think I do. Like sometimes I love her sometimes I don’t and I don’t mean that in a I don’t like her way but just not love. A lot of the things she does which is perfectly normal I just don’t like. But then there’s other stuff she does that I do. But I feel like an asshole cause I’m basically lying to her. I just feel like we’re two completely different people and mostly everything she wants I don’t. Her dream man, I’m not. The way she lives and how she handles things I just don’t like. What she wants I don’t. But I’m a people pleaser so I tell people what they want to hear without telling them what I want. I think it’s pretty obvious we’re not gonna work but I feel like it’s to soon almost to just break up out of the blue when she thinks everything is normal. Like we talk everyday, no arguments, nothing to make me feel this way. But it’s just the fact I don’t want to be with her but what confuses me the most is that the whole time we weren’t together she’s all I wanted. I did love her at one point I just don’t understand why now I just don’t. And how basically a flipped switched in me within a day to make me feel this way. I’ve noticed every relationship I’m like this where I feel so deeply for someone I say things I mean in the moment but then a week later I basically want nothing to do with them. I know it’s wrong, I know it’s manipulative, but I just don’t get why one second I they’re the only person I want then the next they’re not. I’m basically asking has anyone else ever felt this way about someone? You like them, but you don’t love them. And how do I navigate this considering I’m basically in to deep now