My BPD mom just died
She had given me a list of people to call when it happened. It sucks having to say over and over, “I’m just glad she’s at peace now”. What I really want to say is THANK GOD!! Now I will get a moment’s peace. But no one saw her crazy except me, my husband and kids. I have one sibling who always says the mom he got was completely different from the one I got. He believes what I tell him, but says he never experienced it.
She died in ICU. Her last 2 hours or so she was either talking in her sleep or delirious, I’m not sure which. Talking nonsense with her eyes closed. In that 2 hour period I heard my own name over and over, but no one else’s. Not my dad who died 2 years ago, not my brother, just me. That pretty much summed up the last 2 years of my life, her calling my name over and over. Thank god it’s over.