u/Cautious_Weird8815

at least 30,000php (600$) for a hospitalization. fucking icu, fucking dka.

i did my best. I've been a good student, a good child, a good sibling. yet it's me, lost the genetic lottery, lost everything. I've been way too independent, thought that if I didn't become needy, if I didn't become pathetic I'd be less of a burden in everyone's lives.

im tired of not gaining weight. this shit of a disease affected my heart too, what am i gonna do? the government is useless, my parents turned their backs on me after i gave them half of my salary for a year when i had work, i asked all the communities I could get help from and im still left here all alone

i just wanna be normal. i never got to be a kid. i want to grow old too. i dont wanna die, but why does living cost so much? why me?

probably the dumbest thing you'll read but how do i relieve what could possibly be dka symptoms? i have 50 units left, i keep throwing up and im prwtty sure i drank 5 liters of water today, how do i get out of this alive? no i cant get morw insulin in the meantime, i cant get hospitalized

i contacted diabetes support groups but i keep getting ghosted

I lost my job and scholarship quite some time ago, and I've been living from vial to vial. Things are looking difficult at the moment so I'm not sure if I'll be able to get insulin soon. I have 300 or so units left (i measured with a 1ml syringe, then eyeballed it)

My diet consists of eggs, rice, and instant ramen. I don't take lantus (too expensive to buy). The only meds I'm in is propranolol and then regular insulin. Been diagnosed for 6 years, and I'm currently 20 (if that's relevant!)

How do I ration my insulin that I don't end up killing myself but not run out as quick? I've also reached out to government agencies, asked for medical assistance (to which I still haven't heard back from)

Advice and help would be appreciated, thank you so much!