Seems to be I experience crushes but split into different phases
I notice with myself that I experience crushes like straight people but it’s actually split into two phases
one is the micro—crush phase, I can get this within a short amount of time and although I feel no crush at this point I still feel like wanting to know them more and evaluate their compatibility with me on a personal level. I start to notice that they have a ring around themselves and mines too that’s hard to approach but it feels really nice to talk to them when I get into the ring, and I start acting in ways that are not platonic and I don’t expect it at all. they all seem attractive too and well, there‘s definitely more than nothing but it’s still not enough for anything. I have described it to my friends as not having enough butterflies in the jar. Through this I develop many micro-crushes at the same time and they’re all nice feelings but they can fade away if I don’t feel that we’re compatible
But then I notice that if the micro-crush feels good then that’s when the lightbulb switches and then I ask the person out. So for this happened for 2 people in my life and usually when a crush happens all of my micro-crushes end. it seems with the cu period I’ll have to see how things will go as I explore and work on myself.
wonder how it is with everyone but I’m glad to be able to explain myself better